I'm A Drug Addict. What's Your Drug Of Choice?

what cigarettes don't? It's law, as fas as I know. Retarded and aggressive law designed to hurt people that won't prevent any fires... but law nonetheless.

I believe various papers are still just watermarked - roll american spirits in zig-zags. (the papers the ryo cans or pouches come with are flame retardant too, though, gotta buy the good papers)

I don't know if it's that they're selling the papers loose so they're not cigarettes and don't need to be "firesafe", or if the watermark actually counts, or what. But if or when they change that, I'll have to learn to make my own papers - I won't smoke carpet glue with my weed, and I love joints.

 

Actually American Spirits don't have flame retardants... They use flax paper. And the pre-rolled have more tobacco packed in them. Their tobacco is additive free.

 

The tobacco is additive free, but the papers have the carped glue "speedbumps", visible as tiny rings up and down the cigarette. Their rollie papers have them too, as do many loose papers.

But again, I think zig-zags still only have the watermark they always did - unless they started doing it with carpet glue imbued water, or something. Anyone have any insight?

 

I'm not proud of my drug use.It's certainly not cool.I want to quit.I'm going to address it in my dual diagnosis session today.I hope my admission on the previous page hasn't altered the opinion of those that know me here.But part of changing is being honest with others about the problem.I got in with the wrong people some years ago,but that shouldn't be an excuse.I think I have a psychological addiction rather than a physical one,so there is some hope I can quit.

 

There is a certainty you can quit, from a physical perspective. You're clearly not physically dependent.

Psychologically, you probably know all you need to, and talking to them probably won't help very much. You have to decide to quit.

Don't think in terms of strict puritanical abstinence, simply choose not to do it, choose to do something else with your money. Abstinence is the surest way to end up doing a lot of something. You can choose not to, even a little bit, without abstaining. Don't build mental walls or make promises, don't set goals that you might not keep and then, when you don't, relapse - just choose to generally not, in an ongoing way, and a way that is not canceled when or if you do end up using those drugs for whatever reason.

I have chosen to do opiates (sort of wish I hadn't, just on general principle - I don't like what they do to your brain), and now I choose not to. I've chosen to get shitfaced drunk, and at the moment, I choose not to. I've chosen to smoke cigarettes regularly (and more than regularly), and now I don't. I've chosen to smoke pot, but generally choose not to, simply on account of money - I can't put weed in my gas tank, even though I love smoking it.

I'm no model of recovered addiction or anything, but I suppose that's the point. You can do things without being addicted to them - even if some of them are dangerous and damaging and a bad idea, simply because you did them and liked them and even used them when you knew better (and pretended you didn't want to), does not mean you are addicted or that you need to live like some sort of sober addict. Even craving things sometimes doesn't make you an addict, it's the thought process that follows the craving that determines that. Just don't do it.

From what you said, you don't have a problem. You've made some questionable decisions - we all have. Just don't make them in an ongoing way.

 

I hope your session was a good one for you. I like being honest so I'll tell you that I was surprised to read what you shared. I even hesitated for a second, wondering if you were only playing. It doesn't change my feeling or opinion of you in the least, I like you lots. And even more so now. I know what you mean about getting in with the wrong peeps .. not an excuse, but it does factor into it. It's just part of how it began, and it will factor into quitting because you'll need closure with those people. Quit them, too.

 

No judgements brother. Hope you can do whatever is the best thing for you.

 

im not addicted to any drug

my problems are mostly obsessive compulsive thoughts and actions...and I have a hard time coping with change

 

Yeah change isn't easy. Ever notice how often social media changes, and when one changes, they all do? Well, not all, but more than one changes at the same time. Their changes aren't even all that great. Life changes .. different ball game, I know.

OCD! Do you do the hand washing / light switch thing? And counting? I know someone who has to walk up and down the steps to turn the light on and off so many times before being able to move on to the next thing. That's gotta be a hard life.

 

this may be so, but those things taste like shit for some reason and dont seem to be far off from camel hair tobacco brand. they send me free pack I give it away all the time.
ryo brands rizla tubes dont have flame retards in them. http://www.amazon.com/Rizla-Concept-Tubes-Roll-Cigarettes/dp/B003YKSJNI
when you buy tobacco in PA you can not get it rolled in the same location. you have to take it to another store. it cost me 20$ for a carton /10 each place I pay. I belong to a club. it would be 30 otherwise.

 

no

but i think about doing it all the time

then i think about it again

then i think about how to stop thinking about it then about not doing it then about why im thinking about thinking about not doing something that im not really doing anyway

 

lol

I think I get ocd sometimes but not to a debilitating degree. But if I'm honed in on something, I might be ocd about it.

 

mechanics should have ocd.. never leave a bolt loose and such. but it would be a problem when your customers drive away and you call them back ever minute. hold up let me check that nut..

 

caffeine

 

yeah, except i can go months without using and cocaine actually gets me high for real, physically, not pseudo-high into some lame ass barely detectable flutter that is deleterious more than it's ever worth anything.

 

I've had good cocaine.It' fucking amazing.Good thing for me I never got too close to The Real Thing.Ephylphenidate comes close.Can't quite believe I can legally get the stuff here in the UK.

 

I have been struggling with my addiction for about 7 years. I have been smoking pot for much longer. I tried cocaine for the first time about 7 years ago, and I really liked it. I also started cooking my own crack to try, but hated the way smoking made me feel. About a year after that, I started taking xanex and doing a lot more coke and smoking more pot. I also tried heroin for the first time, and when I snorted oxycontin, it was amazing, but I knew then that I was hooked. I was snorting at that time, but a friend of mine introduced me to the syringe soon after that. I started shooting up coke, heroin and oxycontin like there was no tomorrow. I struggled off and on with this, and about 8 months ago, I tried injecting meth for the first time, that's when things really started going down hill, and I started injecting heroin and meth speedballs together. It was an incredible high, but it's too addictive and very dangerous. I just have to tell you that shit gets real. I ended up scoring some fake dope, and spent an entire night trying to get high, and when I realized I wasn't getting anywhere and was really just hurting myself, I decided to put the needle down for good and flushed my pot down the toilet.

I have been clean for about two weeks and I am really hoping and praying that I can make it at least six months this time. Yes, I am an addict.

 

Hi polishman

Someone in the family recently died. She had been drinking rubbing alcohol, that's how bad things got for her. She was a spiritual woman, so lovely and kind, but lost in the pain of addiction. When I think of it from a spiritual perspective, I think her death was a blessing in disguise, motivating others to strive for sobriety. You're very correct, "that shit gets real". I hope you stay connected with the right people, the ones who know how to get you through .. supportive. All the best to you :daisy:

 

Because Marijuana is actually a plant my drug of choice are pills mainly narcotics but occasionally I'll drift away from pills and back to my old drug of choice that controlled my life for 3 years and that would be the lovely Cocaine and occasionally I still smoke Meth or Heroin and Crack but mainly I just snort my Coke and my prescription medication except last night when I decided during my drunken and high out of my head stupor I thought I would experiment with The Crystal Form of Molly for the first time in my life and 5 hours later I'm still on this Molly high and I haven't been to bed yet... Is it possible to become addicted to a drug your first time using it

 

The old MDMA honeymoon, it happens to us all. You are not addicted in a physical sense but mentally don't you want to feel that way forever?