I'm A Drug Addict. What's Your Drug Of Choice?

^ the squirrel in his avatar is in a bucket of weed

 

Hi everyone, my name is Steve

"Hi Steve"

So... I'm addicted to collapsing buildings

The last time I collapsed a building was...

9/11

 

The last time I collapsed was about a month ago. It was in public. I barely made it thru the parking lot .. don't know how I was walking at all. I could see only ALL WHITE. I had a good time LOL

I wouldn't have a good time if a building collapsed though.

 

nicotine and coffee ARE NOT HARD DRUGS.....heroin is a hard drug...cocaine is a hard drug

you are equating your addiction with an opiate or hard drug addiction?...are you a moron?.....do you rob your family to buy coffee.do you steal from cigarette dealers to support your habit....when was the last time you sold blood to get a rock of crack.........thats what hard drug addiction can do to you.....are you a functioning addict who's life revolves around your drugs????

and the ONLY thing separating medicinal weed and the weed I grow is the word ''medicinal''

do you actually think we guerilla growers cant grow the same shit as the knobs in California?....think again gina

 

the bucket is recycled tidy cat tub.. Im sitting in.. http://i.walmartimages.com/i/p/00/07/02/30/01/0007023001669_500X500.jpg yes full of weed. open image and see how stoned the face of squirrel is....

 

There's no squirrel in that link. ?

 

I was always adequately directed to the courage for the gift of gab at the group rather than individual members. Public, like Mannfred Mann says has some hope for being looked into for more fun at group communicated experiences. "Blinded by the Light"

 

I never shut up. I'm like the Energizer Bunny. Can't help it.

http://youtu.be/lcWVL4B-4pI

 

http://youtu.be/KUmZp8pR1uc

 

my drug of choice is cannabis. but since it's more like an herb than a drug...for my drug, i will choose LSD.

acid simply makes me feel amazing - makes mostly everything pretty damned amazing but i would not say that i am addicted to it. weed on the other hand...

 

cocaine. my true love. till death do us apart.

 

Anything can be used as a crutch, people are very plastic and especially if you have a personality that is predisposed to handle stress in such a way, things don't have to be particularly addictive, in order to develop a massive dependency.

Nicotine is maybe somewhat addictive - not really. I greatly regret having used it as long as I did, hopefully it doesn't contribute to my demise.

Being free feels a lot less stifling than not having nicotine.

I have to carry sugar and equipment and hormones because of my body. That feels stifling too.

Carrying things you love, like pot, is one thing. Carrying things because you have to is another altogether.

Perfectly fine things, like caffeine, can also be turned into negative and unhealthy addictions, if you treat them as such.

The problem is not the caffeine or nicotine, the problem (or problems) is what you are using those things as an outlet for. Simply having a problem is much better than having a problem and thus, choosing both less control of your own brain and life, and a shorter less healthy life - while telling yourself that you have no control over it. Pretending to have less control can feel freeing, but it is fake freedom - you know that you have the control. It can become a sick cycle, where you are addicted because you want to be addicted, because it is easier to have a problem that you can't help, than thinking about your real problems - even when those real problems are the nicotine addiction. Passive aggression is seldom helpful, but when it's directed at yourself, and killing you....

Maybe you should take some hallucinogens, and go from there.

 

I've never used it. I was first exposed to cocaine when I was 8 years old. One of the kids in the neighborhood had a parent who sold the stuff. The kid asked the others if they wanted some coke. I thought they meant the drink, coca cola, so I got excited and said yeah. Got told off and ridiculed, told to go away. I decided to stalk them. Heh. Well they blew their faces out, blood pouring down the faces of ten, eleven, twelve year old boys. Felt bad when I witnessed the ass kicking that followed after my tattle-tale reporting. That shit terrifies me. But I think I have jealousy, like I'm missing out on something. It's strange to me, something that has no place in my life, actually has HUGE meaning. Disgust, and jealousy.

Cocaine to you is cigarettes to me.

 

^^^sounds like built to spill lyrics:

"trying not to solve this, doesn't mean it's not that bad"

 

When I was growing up, nearly everybody smoked. And at the time, people could smoke anywhere .. including stores and hospitals and public buildings. It was a lifestyle, and still is. The kitchen table coffee & ashtray scene, women gathered and chatting.

There have been times when I've been super Health focused, motivated to be a non-smoker .. join the gym .. create a new lifestyle. But I realize my personal truth: I really do love my coffee and my smokes. I just won't say that I'm not an addict because oh hell yes I am. No doubt. I don't let the truth of addiction overshadow the fundamental truth: I don't use because I'm addicted. I use because I love it.

Coffee is sometimes called "the Devil's cup" (read it in a book about the history of coffee). I figured out why it's called that: go without a cup of coffee, once addicted, and instant Hell is discovered! On the floor, migraine and vomiting. Hmm, yeah, I'd call that a drug addiction.

Hallucinogens. I can reach that state with just enough sleep deprivation.

"Being free feels a lot less stifling than not having nicotine.

I have to carry sugar and equipment and hormones because of my body. That feels stifling too."

Yeah, the things we're bound to. To replace the word addiction. Bound to something. Well I think I'll be truly free when I'm dead and gone. What I need and want to be free from though .. ha. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

 

Nowhere Lullaby.

http://youtu.be/iRNNeUw_cP8

I want to see that: this waste, it shines in every way. I want to see what he sees, the way he does.

 

hey! did you know that song just from the lyrics, or did you look it up?

that's my favorite band.

 

So many Angels .. come to Earth .. do what they need to do .. then they leave the House. Some stick around though, for the long haul.

http://youtu.be/_Qr7__eFQuI

 

I abused pot. But then I figured out the best way for me. I don't think of cannabis / marijuana / pot as a drug .. probably similar to the way some or most people don't automatically think of coffee as a drug. I think MJ is pure medicinal magic. Had severe bronchial asthma, which is very painful, since I was very little. When I use MJ, I don't cough at all for hours. Nothing else provided that sort of relief.

Used acid once. Was okay but not for me.

 

I looked it up.

I like them, will probably explore some more. From Idaho, I read. That makes me giggle .. Idaho means something to me. lol