I Want To Kill Myself

It's miserable how people buy into this gimmick.

 

Isn't it though?

 

I once thought about suicide. I decided to wait. I am just, you know, not going to off myself today, so I can see what happens next. In the 25 or so years since then:

1) I have gotten laid two or three thousand times, fallen in love (more than once), had ten girlfriends and one wife (we're still together), and made many, many friends.

2) I have learned what creativity is about. I have mastered the guitar, written a couple dozen songs and have perfomed on stage maybe 40 or 50 times. I have gotten good at making oil paintings and have even sold a few pieces (and I will paint and sell many more in the future). And, correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe I am becoming a good writer, good enough make a living at it.

3) I have travelled to India, England, France, and most of the U.S. and have seen and experienced things that my parents, and grandparents, could only imagine (and many things they couldn't).

4) I have learned far more than I ever thought anyone could learn. In fact, I have learned more than just a few things that I had not yet even imagined when I was 13. Most of it is pretty good stuff to know and I now have an abundance of perspective, which makes life a lot easier than it once was.

5) As I continue to go on living (far longer than I once thought I would) I find that my experience of everything - life, love, fun, God, sex, humanity, nature, awe, play, wisdom, pleasure, pain, wonder, thought, knowledge and, well . . . everything, my experience of life just continues to get deeper.

I can't tell you what your future has in store for you, but if you can put off killing yourself for a while, you know, just to see what happens next, chances are good that you will experience a lot more good stuff than you have before today. One thing is certain, whether you like it or not, everything changes, nothing ever stays the same. Whatever you are going through, it will be different once you have gotten through it. It won't always be like this, I guarantee you.

So, see you next week?

Peace and Love

 

Is kid allergic to kittens? I'd say diving into a pile of kittens... It'd at least be a cute way to die.


Hey DL, how do you feel about hippies?

 

Varuna put it in the best way describable. Your still young and you don't know what life holds for you. Find beauty in life... It's real.

 

First of all.... DUDE THAT WAS FUNNY AS SHIT! That mental image of someone diving onto a bunch of small cats, thus crushing them, then shortly after spassing out and chocking on their own tounge... priceless

Second, my old sig said it all. They traded free love for free checking. Most hippies just cut their hair and got lame jobs. Today's "Hippies" arent even real hippies (with FEW fuckin exceptions) but illeged anti-materialistic capitalist anti-capitalists who have never actually removed themselves from this society and have been living off of said capitalism their entire lifes. There are no hippies, just whinny angsty teens who think their ellite or sophisticated or hip or cool or even just different. They wear a uniform, they are no different

 

I once heard about this guy who was suicidual but came through it.
people had said how can you do that to people you love and his reply was 'when you feel so worthless inside its impossible to love anyone else' cause love starts from within.

S

 

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youre 13. a majority of kids your age want to die and hate life. a few years from now youll look back and realize you hadnt even lived yet. just hang on and hard times will pass. they always do. its just impossible to see at the time.


if nothing else look at it this way: fuck them all. killing yourself means they won. live your life, do great things, and rub it in their faces when youre happy and they have no one to belittle and theyre miserable.

 

You want to die at 13? Try living a little first, go climb a mountain. Say you did something first. What have you accomplished at 13, learned to jack off? Seriously, give yourself a chance and actually live, even if it sucks. Be thankful you weren't born in Iraq or somewhere getting the shit bombed out of it, you ungrateful little fuck.

 

IF HE WAS REALLY GUNNA DO IT HE WOULD NOT POST ON HERE FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE, ITS A CRY FOR EITHER HELP OR ATTENTION. aaannnd I'm spent.

 

Or he may genuinely be seeking knowledge to minimize the pain felt during self-termination. If you were going to kill yourself, wouldn't you first seek knowledge on how to do it well?

 

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Well when you think about it, 13 year olds dont have anything to live for. You got a small dick, your not getting any (Save for a handful of people), you got no money, no car, cant drive, your breaking out like air bubbles on a pizza, have to live by your parents rules (at the time it seemed so horrible didn't guys?) and your fashion sense is like Vanilla Ice meets Fred Durst. Shit if I had to go through that again I'd try suicide too

 

Skateboards got me through it

 

dont take the pussy way out, i thought you were a soldier...

 

"my life is so shitty in my 20 dollar beanie and 40 dollar hoodie, and the digital camera I have... Its all so horrible... "

 

Damn straight we are, and we wont make a difference either. Life it up in the now I say... I'm on a soap box tonight

 

oh, I thought that was becuase of the weird fish eye lens thingamabobbber.

 

E you are such a bitch you have much to teach the gay community

S