i want to be too mysterious for anyone to believe whatever assumptions about me they might otherwise make. i want to be unseen, and far enough away from anyone speaking a language i can understand, to not be robbed of my own thoughts by whatever they might happen to be saying. i want to be loved and hugged, without being prevented from being able to be alone in order to do so. what i want has very little to do with my being, and everything to do with where and what i am surrounded by. i can live without people easier then i can live with not being able to be without people.