I think about killing myself.

I never suggested suicide is or is not morally wrong.

What i am suggesting, is you take responsibility for your words, you know what you're doing.

 

I didn't pass up anything to make it better. There hasn't been anything to make it better.

 

This video will change your mind.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a0fDsvIusbc

 

I know there is ways to make it better, but I haven't found any at the moment ok?

 

Dont feed him, by what he has written, it seems to me he is trying to make you feel even worse.

As i said this isnt really the best place in the world to get serious shit of your chest in a contructive way.

 

Ok stupid fuck, I have been working on my problems for fucking a long ass time. The first thing I thought wasn't suicide, I just said sometimes I think about it. Read the topic name. I am busting my ass just as hard as anyone. Just because I think of suicide doesn't mean it is the first thing that comes to my mind when I have a problem.

 

You will find it it just takes time. But xac is right, you would most likely be better of speaking to someone about what is bothering you. There are plenty of great therapists out there that devote their lives to helping people get through the worst times of ones life.

 

all it takes is one second, which u will regret on the other second...

 

Yep, the other side isn't that much better, with that attitude...

 

just remember to do it outside, Id hate to have to clean that up.

 

dont be a dick ghost !

 

Sorry I'm just now back, but pot keeps me floating on because I have insane anxiety issues and have been floating in a cloud of grief for the past 5 months. But I'm the opposite, my depression and anxiety is what fuels me to keep going.

I talk about it a lot in a lot of my posts and I've been trying to cut back, but I'll go ahead and tell you since you're new around here. My best friend, one of the people I loved more than anyone in the world, was found dead on the first of July. Ever since then, it's been just a massive train wreck of sadness, anger, and just plain confusion. Her dying, though, made me want to die that much less. The first couple of weeks, I did a LOT of prescription pain killers and anti-psychotics, and I spent that time in a retarded stupor. Since then, the pills are gone and life has returned to the same routine, and I have a lot of good days, but my bad days... Don't get me wrong, though, I smoke mostly just because I like to smoke, but partially because I'm either obsessing over something trivial or pissed off/sad about something stupid when I don't smoke. But I've had my share of prescription pills and can tell you any day, I'd much rather inhale smoke into my body if it has THC than ingest what's in those pills. Pot's way better for you than that shit. But I'm not saying you should smoke pot, it's totally your body, your decision. It's just what helps me.

 

My aunt was found dead like 2 years ago, Drug related.

 

dude, you ' ll die anyway one day, why hurry
but if you kill yourself now , you might miss some inetresting stuff, you know some good movies etc
i mean if you dont like your life, just re-arange it. imagine if you kill yourself, you ll be completely removed from everywhere you find yourself nowadays. so, just sort it out, keep the stuff and people you like and throw away the whole garbage that makes you feel bad. like if you hate your job/school/whatever, imagine you killed yourself, you aren't there anylonger- so just leave it, but keep your life for doing things that you like. play dead, but stay alive

peace

 

Kaylin was dosed. The very beginning of the murder trial is currently going on and hearing about it kills me. Because it's messed up so many people's lives. But not hearing about it would be even worse.

 

Yeah, it would.

 

But anyway, this thread is not about me, it's about you. It's funny how we're so opposite, the idea of dying scares me. I don't know...I don't want to know what lies after.

 

What do you mean? lol
Why don't you want to know?

 

Because I can wrap my mind around what's real, what the future may hold, what life has in store, but I can't even fathom wrapping my mind around death. Not to mention, the idea of it just being over in an instant and just eternal darkness scares me, too. But you know, when I'm dead, it's not like I can care anymore.

 

I see but do you really think it is just blank when you die? it cannot end like that. You don't just stop, Life goes on just a different one. I don't believe it stops.