Sooooo much to read and sooo many words to look up! But I get where you're going. My dad started changing the day he started meeting that bitch to wife he has, ever since then he has started acting a bit aggressive towards me. And yes unfortunatly I remind him ALOT of my brother, make me a bit taller and change sex and people would think we were twinns. I know my mom n dad needs to go to therapy, mom knows so but we're living in a big economy crisis right now and I fear that we will have to move out on the street if it continues. But for now I'm just hoping we will at least get some money to at least get some food. Dad on the other hand has started to believe in god and he's trying to get me into it and I'm like FUCK OFF I hate god, if he fucking existed he would never had let my brother died. I know others have been through the same as me, loosing someone close is not a good thing that can happen to anyone. But I bet that they can relie on er families and that they take care of eachother, mom takes care of me, only her! Ofc I want my dad in the picture but he doesnt seem to give a fuck about me if he did he would do everything to make things work. I'm not really in a mood at the moment so sorry if it seems like I'm being meanish, but I'm having a really bad day.
it might be worthwhile working on your relationship with your mom maybe you could write her a letter and tell her how you feel about her, what is going on with you, what you would like to see change in your relationship with her. you might be able to say things in a letter that you can't say to her face to face
sure I can write one... n later I'll burn it! I can't tell her how I feel, about anything, she has way too much things in her head, I would be an overload.