My mom died when I was 12 so I know what you're going through. When I heard my grandmother receiving the call in the living room, I remember pounding on the door because I knew by her reaction what had happened. I couldn't believe it and I was furious. It was something as silly as pneumonia and she was in her early 40's Turned out doctor gave her wrong medication I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. Best to stay around friends. Just know it gets easier. You guys will get through it. Wish you and your family well.