I don't know what to do with my life...

hey, i'm in the same situation

 

That actually was kind of uplifting...in an odd sense. Thanks, babe.

Welll...the thing is, my parents will not pay for me to go to school out west or up north, which is what I'd really like to do if I choose to go to college. And if I don't go to college, I'm on my own as well. It defeats the purpose, really...If I do end up going, I'll still end up having to pay for my own education. It could be a good thing, but I think my main problem is I don't know how I'm going to manage it. I've never had to manage money in my life, I've really never had enough TO manage, and now I find myself a little over a year away from (inevitably) being completely independent. It scares the shit out of me...I was thinking bartending would be nice...It's easy enough, minus belligerent drunks and bar fights.

 

Because going to university at eighteen to early twenties is a lot more fun than going in the late twenties. Whereas I'm making the assumption that the innate funness doesn't disappear as you get older.

 

im in my late twenties, going to college, and I am having a blast. A lot of people my age went to college after high school, and most of them are still in school for masters programs, or got a bachelors that they arent using and are working on something else. If you want to go to college at this age simply for the social experience, just go move to a college town. I did. But trust me when I say that waiting to go to college (if you dont wanna go now) is the best thing you can do for yourself in the long run. By my soul I swear it!!! But, hell yes the fun is still the same as you get older.

Krys....you are very intelligent and smart...I can get that from you by just the way you interact on here....take some time for yorself, and do what feels right. No matter what you do, I trust you will do good for yourself no matter what.

 

Maybe you are having fun, but I guarantee you it wasn't the same type I had during my first year.

 

Maybe you are having fun, but I guarantee you it wasn't the same type I had during my first year.

All those things that are hilarious to do when you're 18 such as drinking for 30 days in a row, wake and baking every day, sleeping with slutty girls from frat parties, the whole "college bit" is a lot skeezier at 30.

 

Haha... sometimes you don't seem like the bartending type, but I never met you when I was down there.

Then again, yes you do.

 

and how do you know?? all my friends were in school...i was the same age.....i did the same things with them, i partied....but i didnt have a class in the morning, and grades to keep up....i did my own thing...i didnt want to be in school, i wanted to do my own thing. man, i cant even begin to get you to understand with what i am trying to say...............i guess youll see what im talking about when you are ready to understand

 

............you've been watching too much "Old School"

 

Oh I think she's the bartending type.

If those belligerant asshole types gave her any trouble, she could just spit in their drinks.

 

I know what I want to do with my life, but it's illogical.

My mind changes every day on whether I want to go to college or not. One day I want to start this fall, the next day I want to take a few years off, and the next I don't want to go at all. Today, I'm thinking of majoring in journalism with a minor in history (if that even exists). I just feel that college will bind me in too much. I want freedom, I want to experience raw life. Sure, that can come after college, but then I'll be starting my career and will have lost the time to 'live my life'. I know I'll go to college sometime within the next 5 years, just not sure when I'll start.

I think everyone goes through this at some point. You'll figure it out eventually, don't worry about it

 

The fact that you haven't seen this sort of proves that you're missing the experience because you came too late.

 

Better than being a pre...


You know what, nevermind.

 

i would start an army of anarchist partisans ....destroy the rule of law and property and usher in an age of volentary cooperative libertarian bliss....but im afraid im asking what am i gonna do with my death at this point ......dont settle for borring shit u dont wanna do .......go for the novelty n adventure thing

 

What if that eventually turns into boring shit you don't want to do?

 

ok i can't tell you want to do, all i can tell you is what i have done..i went straight from high school into college, for a yr program i pretty much fucked around and got a certificate out of it..it also helped me grow emensely and figure things out, the program was just the basics in art, and from that i've gone into a university and am trying to get a degree in film and photography...but i too change all the time, so on the side i went to bartending school...with bartending it's something i absolutely love to do, i love the drunk people the party enviroment, i get paid to have fun...and you get paid well..i didn't go into for the money, but the money helps..it means i can go traveling, i don't have to worry about how i'm going to pay for school, and many other great things come out of not having to worry about money
in these years..these formative years if you will, we change constantly, and we're ment to..we grow as individuals, find we want completely different things than we did a yr ago, a month ago..yesterday even.. this is the way it's ment to be..whether going to college right away is what you want or travelling, getting a job and saving up money while partying..everyone has different paths to take, and the roads go off in different directions and we make changes all the time...take the time to decide for yourself, nothing matters about what has been done..because people don't follow the grow up, go to college, get a job, a wife, a car, a house, kids, die mentality anymore..
do whats right for you..whats in your heart, your soul

and simple enough FUCK what anyone else says

 

All I want to do is become an old, wise man. Go with the wind, let my sails carry me to wherever I need to be.

A man is a success if he wakes up in the morning, goes to sleep at night; and does everything he wants in between. -Bob Dylan

 

You sound the happiest out of all of us here.

haha.. I originally typed " 'eel' "

Actually (with the quotations substituted) it was: "Eel"

 

Jess... wanna be my sugar mamma?

 

I recommend moving to whatever place in the world your heart beats loudest.
My parents aren't well off, and so moving to California for school seemed impossible (Note: i'm originally from California, I'm not one of those people who make it sound like this amazing place I need to be although I've never been). So I figured out a way to make school cheap and rent/life cheap, and I followed my heart to the bay.
of course, than I moved back to Idaho a year later... But that was just cause my mom became handicapped. I'd still be following my heart out there.
Where in the world do you feel at home, even when you dont know anyone around you and you're lost?
(and definately don't do the sorority thing...).
Just follow your dreams. Happiness will find you.