I am going to kill myself.

prop[size=-1]1[/size] ( P ) Pronunciation Key (prp)
n.

1. An object placed beneath or against a structure to keep it from falling or shaking; a support.
2. One that serves as a means of support or assistance.

Numero two. I think of terms in reassurance though. Bit of sarcasm thrown in with impressedness. Thats all.

I guess cuz suicidal people really don't insult me or making me need to say something. They do their own thing.

 

I'm a leave my crib, n take my ride to see my phat shawty, she's so fly.

Props to my peeps.

 

I am 15.

 

no.

 

yes!

apart from the time travel

 

I am about to get a new screename "Lizard still aint dead, pansy attention grabber" and re register. I will only post in this thread with that name. Now lizard, GO TALK TO PEOPLE. Dont kill yourself. but if your gonna beg for us to pay attention to you, kill yourself or shut the fuck up.

 

I can't talk to people. If you don't want to talk to me then leave this thread. I am not making anybody post here.

 

what if im just really bored with life and i want to see whats next? is it ok to kill myself?

 

Depends on what you believe.

By saying "I want to see whats next", it seems you believe that there is something beyond what is on this physical plane. And if by believing that there is something beyond, you must believe there was something before. And that something is where you were before you were here. And if that is true...then wherever that was, it sent you here to complete something in a natural progression.

Therefore it would be fruitless to end it early, you would still have to come back here and complete your purpose for being here in the first place.

To those who say..."there is no proof that we came from anywhere", I say this...PROVE that we DIDN'T.

 

Edit: Never mind.

 

there doesnt necessarily have to be something before--this could be the starting point

 

One of the strangest threads ive seen. If after all the positive responses people have given, you cannot find anything to feel good about I suggest go outside and just take in whats around you and really think about what makes the gift of life so important. Maybe try writing down the things you like and dont like in life followed by why. Look at your list and really think about your reasoning for each one. If there is anything you really like to do have fun doing it. I find that I can get through "low" times by finding something in the near future I can look forward to such as a trip or a concert or what not. Now, I just try to look ahead to the unknown. The fact that each person is bombarded with opportunities all the time (even though you dont know it) makes everything worthwhile. Im sure this will be taken as a grain of salt considering there seems to be an inpenetrable force of negativity around the author.

 

I understood about the "attention" thing. As for those who "hate" you on this board, it's not really the case. You've probably been on enough boards to know there are some people everywhere who like to see their snappy come-back, so-cool put-down in print. Ignore them. They are mosquitos in the wind.

As for people who are hard to relate to, I'd suggest that it is somewhat irrelevant. I know it's nice to have a guide of sorts in other people who you can relate to. But ultimately you take the steps forward, or backwards, you make decisions about yourself. Even if you had 20 people at your side right now that your "related" to, connected with very deeply, you still run your own life to a great extent. I suspect this has something to do with your statement that you've lost all your firends and have little or no contact with them. They will have, no doubt, stuck with you for a while but it was never their job to go through the depths of depression with you. Friendship is a two way street. At this point you may be unable to contribute much to a friendship. It's no-ones fault, much as you might like to think you were abandoned, or your friends may want to think you "grew away " from them. It's just the state- a lonely state no doubt- that you are in right now. This is not a cause of depression but a result. And that can change.

Now you can ignore everyone who tries to slam you here, you can also ignore those who try to support you or give you well meant guidance, if you care to. Forget the stigma of what is or is not "socially acceptable". This is the rest of your life we're talking about. What it boils down to is the fact that you need some professional's help, like many, many people do at points in their lives. As far as I know there are no professional psychologists, physicians,psychiatrists or counsellors in here. Most of us I believe are glad to give you encouragement and support. (Those who don't are mosquitoes, remember,lol?). But you do need to talk to someone who can actually help you. It will probably be easiest to get in touch with your school counsellor who can get things rolling. Please do that.

 

I hate myself for feeling this way. I hate myself.

 

what state u from?

 

How can I bring myself to talk to a counsellor?

 

I live in New Mexico.

 

Well at least youve created one of the more "popular" threads here...pat yourself on your back

 

I have made threads with tens of thousands of posts on other forums. I don't really care about making this thread big for bigs sake.

 

i offered my .2 and you responded "I hate myself"......only you can change you. so best of luck and i really hope u feel better.