I am going to kill myself.

another child relating to a child.

 

just trying to help...i might not be very old, but i know what ive gone through. maybe if i share my experiance, he will see that there is hope. please dont be so negative

 

I hope he kills hisself

 

nice

 

how many special people change?

 

.man dont kill yourself" you will just be as depressed in the spiritworld .search for people/ things that can guide you through life . life is precious and physically only lasts a short time. yeah the world seems a cruel place at times " we can sink or swim"keep afloat man and find a purpose in life.if you do decide to top yourself can you send me that 20 dollars i loaned to you 4 years ago .sometimes we all need a sense of humour to get us through the shitty times .chin up ......../ peace/

 

where were you while we were gettin high.

 

What kind of stuff interests you?

* I may be going to hell in a bucket babe, but atleast I'm enjoyin' the ride, atleast I'm enjoyin' the ride, atleast I'm enjoyin' the ride..*

:H

 

I read it a couple years ago. I hate the ending, what is over the hill?

Crummy you are a dumbass. You say everybody understands but as far as I am concerned your about the only person on here who doesn't understand. 95% of the people who commit suicide tell somebody before they do it. All suicidal people just want attention (the ones who really kill themselves). Those people tell their friends who then ignore them and then they kill themselves. You don't understand how I feel. I didn't cuss at you last night but you started it, so fuck you. Nobody in my real life knows.

I withdrew from my friends for many reasons. It started a few years ago, probably when I became more mature than them. I just couldn't get into Yu-Gi-Oh. Others are into dating, stupid dating; meaningless relationships that fail after a week. "Oh, so and so is hot so I want to fuck them!". Girls do same but insert word "cute" where guys put "hot". My best friends moved. I grew a foot taller than everybody else and got pimples, yes? I can't find people to hang out with. It may be my fault that I don't like to be mean, smoke pot, or materialize wemon, but if that is what I have to do to make friends so I am not speaking to anybody.

1 in 6 people die between the ages of 15 and 24.
25% of all wemon are raped.
1 in 12 men will admitt to assisting in or raping.
5 to 7 out of every 10,000 people are profoundly gifted (IQ 160+).
29% of all teenagers think about commiting suicide.
14% attempt suicide.
49 out of every 50 suicide attempts are failures.
Girls are 4 times as likely as boys to attempt suicide, but fail more often.
25% of all wemon are abused by their husbands.
90% of all rapes are not reported.
95% of all sexual assults happen to wemon, but 5% happen to men. 80% of assults on men are by other men (usually older men malesting young boys).
1% of all sexual assults are by wemon to men.
50% of the people in the world have never recieved or sent a phone call.
54% of the U.S. population is wemon, 46% is men.
In ancient times 35% of the population was wemon and 65% was men.

 

50% of all teenagers have tried an illegal drug, 47% haven't and 3% don't know.

 

Freakin sad you categorize life into so many labels and numbers. With this 1 dimensional attitude. Think for yourself!!!!

 

K, Lizard... I think you have way too much time on your hands... I mean so do I. I actually checked your stats. You need some books to get started on this journey you call your life. Man, You need to read Denis Johnson's Jesus' Son. Also you should read either Paolo Friere's Pedogagy of the Oppressed or Randall Robinson's Quitting America. In a place like America, where there exists such a subtly oppressive (and the more subtle, the more successfully oppressive) society. You don't even know the reason why you feel like there should be more. You have to do something or else. If you are having problems with thoughts of self-destruction, maybe the problem isn't with you're thoughts... do you see where I'm going with this. YOu need to do what it is that you think will make you happy, without any limitations on what that may be. I mean, please don't kill anybody. Anything else though

 

OK just don't. First thing about conditions, they too will pass. Lao Tzu.

It's a rough ride we all embark upon when leaving the birth canal and all that, good and bad are things that are not actually real. Beyond Good and Evil is a book I would suggest. We all leave the cave sometime and realize that it's pretty strange out there, not for us, not what we want, etc.

But everything has it's place. There are indeed great times ready to be picked out of the ether and taken into one's self to be experienced in full.

I won't go too far into this, other than to say that I too have been where you are, exactly there as a matter of fact. Close enough to the edge that I could almost feel the nothingness below my feet. But you can, and will survive. There isn't a good reason to ever end anything before it's time. Your time isn't now. Mine wasn't then. Staying alive, doing good, adding yourself and what you can be to this boiling pot of people, good and bad people, is a good thing.

It can be hard to do, it's a rough ride indeed sometimes, but we all can do it, especially if you have the will to realize that you could end it. Anything is possible at that point. Going on further from there is the logical step. If you can go on, and all that will come is more life, then it's worth it. Simply ending it to no longer experience is not a real option. It's hollow and offers true nothingness. You will realize that is not a good path compared to letting the possibility of something decent and good happen.

We all can have that goodness, and a random person comes along, the patterns change, you set out on a new path and like that everything is incredibly radiant all around you. A thousand roads stretch out at that moment and you move ever closer to the Truth.

Like I said, I have been there, probably worse than most, but I won't get into that horrible story of wasted time and all. PM me if you want to talk about it, and realize that love is all around, and it is ready to be taken in, every part of your soul has a hole just ready to receive it if you find the right place in life. And we all can find that place with some help and through will.

 

things will get better, I promise.

 

i know how you feel.
i started being depressed when i was about 13 yrs old and it got worse and worse and lasted for a long time. the truth is that being happy is a decision that YOU make, i know that it sounds to simple but its real. everyone is going to be depressed now and again its a part of life, but when u feel yourself getting in that slump for a long time you have to just say FUCK THIS SHIT what good is it doing me to sit around being depressed all the time? do i want to be depressed? you dont have to if you dont want to. life can be shit, the world can be shit, but killing yourself is not going to make anything better. just trust me on this one.. you are going to see see things everyday and think what the hell is wrong with this world?? but the longer you live the more things you will see that are beautiful, and right and worth living for. 3 yrs ago i was 15 just like you and shit im only 18 now, and just in those 3 yrs so much in my life has changed that i cant even imagine all the things i would have missed if i would have killed myself. great things are going to happen to you, and great experiences also. pain is a part of life, and if you never felt pain, sadness, fear or depression you wouldnt be able to ever feel real happiness. if you just hold on i promise this will make you a stronger person. i know im just rambeling but i thought maybe i could help.

 

this is really strange, so many coincedences happening lately, just this post in and of itself, i keep getting these really strang efeelings, anyway
but man, so many people get depressed like you wouldnt believe... even the people who appear together, just sooo many people get depressed, look around. you can tell, people just are not happy, a lot of them, can you blame them though? look at what were given in life, just take a good long hard look at it. theres so many things really the human brain has to work out in this world, and sometimes it seems like its too much, and when one thing clicks you have a million other things you have to open your mind to and take a really close look at it, and something in you thinks, hmm why is this so complex and complicated? isnt something wrong with this? stare reality in the eye, in its many eyes, and see what we have made of it, and what we COULD make of it. its sad, the truth, but you they say you get used to it... its something we all go through and have to in some cases, unfortunatley...

but dont fret, all good things in all good time, its really all just a big misunderstanding. not so far from now relatively speaking you will probably look back and slap your forehead thinking why didnt i see this before!! and it will all probably click and youll get so excited and feel like everything is coming together and perfect now, and then life will throw you for another spin and teach you something else probably. your on a journey, and your going somewhere, and if you just keep paying attention you will get somewhere. and if it feels like sometimes theres not a way out, maybe there isnt , go with where your at. sometimes hell is a place for us to experience, and if we ride it in there we come out a lot better and wiser in the end, pain is what brings forth positivity in people.

 

That is like reading my mind. Life is this major mind trip in itself. I fear it and love it at the same time.

 

hmm lizard has not come back...did he do it?

 

Noone will notice either way.

 

blah blah blah. you are an attention whore. I do understand, I just dont care. but since you chose to share with me how fucking lame and pathetic yo find your life, I chose to share with you my opinions. sorry if I didnt say please dont die, I swear it will get better.

it wont get better and your a pussy if you end it.
DEAL