I am going to kill myself.

come on man lets not be depressed lets just go look at the sun its so bright man am i rite

 

You have a connection through this site, therefore you have many brahs that care for you, and want you to live, and live life to the fullest.

Bliss.

 

All my earth-schooling was a total waste. And worse.. it was brainwashing too, conditioning, that I am still unlearning. Thankfully I had a very resistant mind and lots of wisdom 'accidentally' falling in my hands when I was 14, so I started knowing what was going on before I was hopelessly lost.

Everything is hopeless to me now. But I continue. Killing myself wouldn't 1) Kill me or 2) Get rid of any problems. It would merely postpone them, and one of the sanctions might be that I have to reincarnate again almost immediately... how would you feel if you had to be again in a small slimy body which cannot even stand up, losing all your memory, getting extra karma and facing the same problems again right away? Would you still wish you had killed yourself at that point?

Still, if you want to be stupid to kill yourself, I am not going to tell you no or stop you .. I would even say 'go ahead then', if this world hadn't become so neurotic that everyone's suing everyone and everything for all they money just because they said something somewhere. I mean, if you kill yourself, then someone finds this page and then they decide it was my fault for giving you a green light (yes, they could have that stupid logic - anything goes when money is involved).. I could be in even worse mess than this tangle that I call life already is.

Just know you are not alone feeling out-of-place and desperate about this incarnation.. if you go through the crap now, you probably can have very great and luxurious 'rest-life' in next incarnation, 'cos you earned it ...

I sometimes think in the worst moments.. 'just this one more day' ..

- Vortac

 

This thread was started two years ago. Is the OP still alive? Is he okay?

 

Well he was online as of Febuary 3rd, so I think he's OK. It would be nice if he would come on and tell us.

 

hmm I wouldn't kill myself, so there's no reason for you to want to go that route.

 

when you say that it makes me sad. because you have given up looking or waiting for life to happen, somebody else missed out. get it? people say that everyone has a soulmate... you just have to find them. and by the sound of it you havent found yours yet. wel mabye you just need to keep looking. you should be excited about the outcome and what you looking for. and when you find that youll wonder why you ever doubted life. all im saying is give youself another chance. its sad to hear about suicides... because whenever somebody kills themselfs there is no doubt that sombody misses out on you.

 

Life is in motion...you may end up happier than all of us here, someday.

My life a s a teenager sucked badly then I discovered rock and roll and that got the ball rolling (Pun intended) and that wouldn't have happened if my mother had not been miserable with my father, and had stayed with him.

He kept us prisoners in a world of no choices.

 

You need more drugs. Or a shrink. Or both.

 

Its obvious that the majority of people in this thread have never experienced mental illness or distress from their replies, I'm happy for them as it is not something you would wish on your worst enemies however the ignorance and malice displayed by many is astounding. I’m not saying that the original poster has an illness but he is obviously experiencing some for of distress and this ‘attention seeking’ that people are so quick to condemn may be the only way he can express himself and try and get some form of help. Condemning this as merely attention seeking can be a key reason people do not seek help. Yes a lot of teenagers feel shitty and that they hate life however suicidal thoughts are not a normal part of growing up and anyone experiencing the symptoms of depression should seek some form of professional help – it can be treated and there is no point living a life of misery.

The idea that people who are seriously contemplating suicide do not talk about it is a dangerous myth and in fact the majority of people successful in suicide made their intentions clear to people.



Sorry my first post had to be so preachy but it’s an issue close to my heart.

 

Well said Amazingqrace31. Beautiful.

 

Well said Amazingqrace31. Beautiful.

 

its not preachy,certain things must be said

 

People who are depressed are connecting with a very deep and profound place in themselves....

I too have had depression and felt suicidal....

Anyone who calls it weakness or advises you to take more drugs deserves to feel the extremes of this pain....

Weakness is not admitting to pain. You are admitting both to yourelf and to the world that you are in pain....that is strength.

Taking more drugs masks the pain....if you dare to feel without the mask...you are indeed an awesome person.

You are honest and true to your deeper and finer feelings...

Feel them.....live through them knowing that when you come out of that dark place, you surely will be an even stronger person.....

Choose your company carefully....sensitive souls need understanding people around them....

For now, be kind to yourself and be truly grateful you can FEEL....tis a blessing in disguise...

love
xxx

 

I agree. My adolescence was no walk in the park, but not once did I ever seriously think of killing myself although I did wish more than once the world would swallow me up.

 

life is to precious to take. there are many people here who dont want you to do this and lots of people who are willing to help.takee them up on that. you may be going thru hard times but believe me when i say ,your life is not pointless and if you kill yourself then you will just be letting the people who hurt you the most win.beat them at this, i know you can do it

 

Lighten up, sister. The dude needs prozac or zoloft or something, and to see a shrink. Good advice for you, too.

 

Hang in there man, I'm sure things will work out fine. I hope you feel better.

 

No, you don't give a shit about him. You pity him - Don't lie.

 

I used to be depressed an suicidal. After I chickened out of the suicide thing, I decided to get pissed off about stuff. I used to think that was wrong, that I wasn't allowed to be upset, but I've accepted getting angry as healthy.

During my depression, I was told by a councelor that depression is anger turned inwards. I remembered this when I decided to let my feelings out. I still have issues to deal with, but the depression is manageable, and I'm not depressed all the time. It comes and goes, but that's not the only feeling I have anymore. I don't take suicide seriously anymore. I've developed a temper, but I'd rather get angry than depressed. If that makes me a jerk at times, so be it. I can live with myself now.