I am going to kill myself.

its a bit harsh for you too make comments like thatnaykedape people can be suicidal for ages and dont forget lizardman could be reading your comments and he needs understanding wether he is depressed or it is a teenage depressive state it has to be taken seriously.lizardman if your ok could you let me know as it is a bit worrying when you dont post for a while thanks sweetheart

 

95% of people who commit suicide tell somebody before they do it.

 

Last cry for help

 

i hope he's ok =/

 

i always thought it was the opposite
if you tell somebody then you've thought about it too much
then you don't do it

ya know
which is good

 

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listen to my bro's radio show on www.esher.ac.uk/radio (Hippy FM)

that is jokeeesss

 

Suicide is pointless. Yes I have thought about it, but not seriously. I mean you only live once, and if there is no heaven , you basicly just fucked yourself over. Why kill yourself when you can just do so many more things.. " I wont hurt myself because I know how much it would hurt them" some qoute I heard once. If your felling down just get a good night sleep, wake up and walk out side. Look at the sunn and cheer up. You can find Beauty in everything.

 

i think taht if you care enough to make this post, you care enough to live. life does get better though. trust me i have been there. people who are depressed are not weak at all, its kind of a way of coping. but like i have said i have been through it so if you need to talk, you can pm me.

 

instead of hating yourself you shoud hate everyone else. Be proud of who you are and fuck everyone who doesnt care about you or would care to know you. Everyone has been depressed and thought about suicide, including me. I was in the exact same postion you were about this time last year and im so glad i got out of that shit. Life is a hell of a lot better, even though im not really that happy, but i dont want my life to be over yet, because i still have many many years to change and grow ... its gonna be one hell of a trip so dont miss it by offing yourself

 

Thank you everyone who posted something positive. I have read all of your replys. I'm not dead, but my problems have not gotten better. They have gotten much worse, though depression isn't my problem (it is a symptom of a much more complex issue).

 

I've read the first post and the last one of this thread.

So, dear author, it's almost 2 years and you still have the same problems? And you're only 15?
It's ok in your age. I mean your classmates are basically your potential friends. And it may turn so that there's no right person in your class.
So, try to find friends outside of your community (school, neighborhood).

Btw I'm future spychologist and if you want, if you would I'll try to help ya.

Good luck!

 

oh please don't, dear!
all you need is a change of scene, a change of scene will do anyone good. Death will come for you when he feels like it. So if you are still breathing, living and loving, death is definately not ready for you.
suicide is not the answer,dear.
I love you!
*hugs*

 

Dude, life is amazing. Get out ride a bike hike in a local park. Getting Sun makes you feel better no matter what, its a natural life giver.

 

Life is for living...not existing, not waiting to die, not moping...

So it looks like 2 years have been wasted. That's 2 years of your LIFE! You can't get those back, hon, but you can make a decision to spend the rest of it living it up. You can't let yourself be controlled, you know? And I agree with walkongreystreet. It's a proven fact that exercise and sunshine lifts depression significantly.

 

i want to kill myself but i cant .
i havnet have kids , never been mom yet .
still not been to my dreamland ==> Greece
still not baptizd yet
and most of all . Not Married yet .

 

froma community that one would expect love and understanding,,, some of the posts here were everyting but loving and understanding... telling someone who is depressed to kill themselves is sick whether they are serious or not!... you should all be ashamed of yourselves. lizardman... i have been where you are two years ago... i waved a bottle of pills infront of my moms face and told her i was going to killmyself she lookeed at me and said "do it" and walked away... and so i did it... luckily i had friends nearby that made sure i threw everything back up... it was a stupid thing to do... and that wasnt the only time i tried to do it... but im not dead... and im glad... i hade two terrible years... the worse years of my life... but i came out alive and i am glad... i found my comfort and sanity in nature... i started to get out of the house a lot... spend time outdoors... away from people... who at least where i live are generally jerks. it will help... admire the beauty... please feel free to message me i would love to talk to you.

 

dude, i think no one in this world should be forced to end their life because of something that has made them upset.......







BUT yoooooouuuu make the exception... i think you should go for it... dude shut it and work it out, there is much more to life than killing yourself.... i understand, its because
A) your a 30 year old virgin
B) your parents have left you
C) you have no friends
D) you have no life anyways!!
so good luck in making the right decision

 

dear author of this thread:
I am sorry that youre feeling so down right now, and that hopelessness is blinding your vision and making you think that death is the only way out.
But dont let it trick you!
Ive been through little bouts of depression and shit, and while Ive never seriously considered killing myself or anyhting like that, I can still understand your feelings.

I think you need a change of scenery, something new, something!

If youre willing to do something as crazy as kill yourself, why not take that energy and put it towartds doing something more crazy and better?? Just go travel, or go live in the woods for two weeks alone, or start up meditating, even if you feel like its "not helping." Your mind is in a mindset now where it will always be playing on your doubts- you have GOT to be stubborn and determined not to let those thoughts have power over you- if you need to, get pissed at yourself, get pissed at those feelings, but hwatver you do dont let those negative thoughts control you and make you feel hopeless.

Ive learned that whenever im upset, that its because Im just "not seeing something." I know that while I am depressed, sad, angry, confused, lost, scared, hopeless, that it doesnt HAVE to be that way, and that I DO have the power to change those feelings.

Take it easy man. In times like this maybe itd be good for you to also indluge in yourself. Take baths by candlelight, meditate and burn insense, read...

anotehr good thing is to start community service, or something like that- for example, Amnesty International. Ive found that once Ive started focusing my energy on other people in need, that I let go of my problems, and I feel good helping the others, and I see that we just all need a little love.

One of the most important things to do is just keeeeeeeeep onnnnnn lovvvvvvving! Maybe youre feeling a lack of love right now, but as long as you persist, keep on loving people, try and spread good vibes as much as you can, itll all come back to you.

It may not seem like it right away, but just keep on fighting. Just tell those negative thoughts to "shut the fuck up." Tell your thoughts to "stop bitching." In doing that, you are separating yourself from those thoughts, and gaining control over them.

Just remember man, nooo matter how cold hte winterrrr....
theres ALWAYS a spring ahead.

Dont hesitate to PM me or email. Id love to talk with you and try to help out.

cheers and much love,
dylan

 

Things always get better. high school can be a great or awful experience, its all what you make of it. please go to therapy or see a school counseller. You need someone to talk to who can help you. depression is a serious condition.