I am going to kill myself.

All people feel like that suicide is the only way out so what you just said is pretty pointless. I am 15, I can't move or go somewhere else to meet new people. I can't even drive by myself yet.

 

I'm pretty much in the same situation, tired of my life, same shit, different day. I am homeschooled (I do online courses through keystone, but I'm on a short break at the moment), which is great. The public school system is fairly obsolete, in my eyes. Most administrators take advantage of their power here and it's fairly corrupt. But, I'm just waiting it out. Every one of my friends have 1) changed 2) moved... the only person I have here is myself, most of the time. I feel like living here can be a ball and chain, most of the time... I realize I really don't have a choice at the moment. I've had people offer to put my music on radio stations and all kinds of things but I can't do it because I can't get anywhere because of my age, and there really isn't any opportunity here in Eastern Virginia, unless you're working on environmental studies with the bay or, god/krishna/etc. forbid, the military... Nothing would make me happier than to get out of this town and find somewhere with some different minded people, somewhere a little warmer, and love.

 

You have us!!!

 

Dude! You've got too much to live for!
Think: You'll marry, you'll have children, you'll skyrocket in a career...
Think about it!
YOUR death will DESTROY the lives of others!
I KNOW FROM EXPERIENCE!
Somebody looks up to you.
Don't deny them their hero!

 

Yeah, that's pretty much the extent of my freedom. It is depressing, sometimes.

I've considered those before... that's why I never really consider suicide a way out but giving up hope. I really wouldn't want to go out like that knowing it doesn't cost anything but waiting...

 

George, there is so much special about you - let the depression go. You have great talent and you are neat. In a few years, the freedom will arrive and the sky's the limit!!!!!!!

 

I know, haha, plus, I wouldn't want to be so selfish as to kill myself and do that to people. I mean, I wouldn't waste my life like that just because of ignorance and selfishness. The way I am, I'd rather do something to help someone and die trying than do something for myself and actually succeed.

 

I would rather be homeschooled on the net than have to go to highschool.

 

it was actually sorta neat half way enjoyable seeing as i met my soulmate there cus we have the same issues we helop each other so much

 

People want to make everything about weakness and strength--'suicide is selfish and unreasonable'. I think people who say this just cannot cope with death, so they cover it up by saying that living is the noble thing to do.

 

No, I just generally don't care as much about my own being, most of the time... I really don't want to "die" as I believe nobody ever proved that death exists anyway. I believe it is an unproven concept. For all we know, it doesn't. So what's the point in doing something we have no understanding or reasoning of anyway when you have other things to look to. Generally that, but I've had a few people commit suicide on me... it's not really a thing I want anyone to have to go through.

 

Lizard, let's not just talk about stats. Let's talk about feeling better. Have you read anything else I posted? I'm just trying to help you bro. I had a very troubled teen life and can say I understand some of what you're going through? How? 'Cause I lived it. I'm trying to get your mind open to other possibilities. Please help me do that.

 

ohh cut the self pity crap, your quite aware that you ain't gonna be 15 forever then you'll have the freedom to make your own decisions, so if you wanna do that you can.. I'm quite sure you can entertain yourself in the meantime... you have no way out??? what is it your stuck in that's so bad. Pull your head out the sand and maybe then you can start to see

 

Okay.
^
I spelt Okay right.

I am starting to not care about my family. I feel like they all died and I don't care even though they are still alive. I want to help them but I can't so I feel like they are torn away from me.

In 3 years I will get to leave home and have my own family. That is a good thing. I don't feel like my parents can take care of themselves right now.

[Almost] every day my sister comes home and complains to my mother (who I think is depressed) about how mean people are to her at school. She lets people do things to her and never does anything about it. I told her to do something about it, and she told me to go away whenever she complains (literally). Nobody in my family respects me. They all see me as immature, not to be taken seriously. I don't even want to be with them anymore. Its like "They are your family they are the only ones that care". I don't remember ever having a serious conversation with my parents on any normal subject. I spend so much time doing work and while I am working I am wishing I wasn't working but once I am finnaly alone in my room with free time I do nothing.

 

I wasn't talking about me I was talking about people in general. If you weren't so high off your ass maybe you could THINK. Damn, I really did not like your post.

 

How do you know what most other people think... eitherway, if you are feeling so detached then you are able to get away, if your willing to go though death then I am sure you have the strengh to move away, you are not that young.. everybody has there shit to deal with when they grow up to a lesser or greater degree and it doesn't end there, but you have to work things out and find ways through... if your gonna take offence to my first post it's obviously hitting a nerve with you. There is a simple fact your ignoring, your not the only one who has to put up with family problems.. your bascially saying everybody feels like that except me because I am different.. well, your not so different

 

If you have the same negative attitude, how can you expect three years down the line to be any better?

Come on, now. Think positive.

 

Do you live in a big city? If so there are support groups around to help. I know anonimity is of the essence in alot of these groups.

 

How big?

 

Santa Fe? Alberque? We can find support groups online.