HOW IS YOUR INDIVIDUAL LIFE ( at the moment )

sorry to hear about that KC. *hugs*

 

Right now I feel like kicking Gadget right in the back and spraying my cousins face with pepper spray (cousin Stuart Little)
I have just had a mini row with a friend of mine. He don't want to hear how someone I knew landed me with debt. It is strange, you think you really know somebody and then they stab you in the back. It wasn't bad enough that Rosemarie broke my heart or abandoned me. And then she had to fucking leave the bill which we agreed she would pay. She left it on my doorstep. All my love and respect just suddenly stopped.

Life at present is like another god damn suffering suckertaz. It really is like the end of days and Stephen King's Desperation. I feel like Carrie White, hated, despised and the odd one out. I feel this anger inside me that will one day explode and everyone who ever hurt me will feel my wrath. I am captivated in sorrow, torn apart by heartbreak and as confused as a duck with slippers.

Unemployment is still sinking its bloodstained fingers into my womb. Taking out the happiness, confidence and the person I once knew. I feel as empty as a fortune cookie without a fortune and as lonely as the moon.
Last night I really wondered what life would be like in ten years time. Whether I would look back in bitterness or whether I will really become as dark and gothic as Manson himself.

 

john hopefully things will get better man ..........a new chapter of life could be waiting on the horizon for you.