HOW IS YOUR INDIVIDUAL LIFE ( at the moment )

Why'd you think I was a wanker? :S

But yeah m.e is a right bitch but ah well just gotta put up with it and wait till it goes.. *looks at watch*

Ezzie

Ps: Ronald, your passion for free-speech and all is inspiring, but pretty hilarious sometimes too

 

sometimes i feel like dying, i just dont want to deal with life anymore, but i have a better life then most, so i should be happy, but i othen am not, i sometimes look at things and just think, why? why is all this here, what is the point, but then i guess everyone thinks that, i just want to be happy with my life, i think i will be when i get out of here, when i move, thats when my life will start, for the first time in 12 years i will love where i live again, i wont look outside and feel depressed, instead i will feel liberated and at peace, so yes, sometimes i feel happy, like things will go well, but the i know the world would be a better place without out people to hurt the planet and each other, i love certain people, but i hate some aswell, wow this is a true rant , just letting words flow from my fingers, life seems so hard sometimes, but when i think of how i want to die, usually something good happens after, and i am glad i didnt do anything about those little annoying thoughts, i will try in life, and i hopefully will pull through and find happiness, i wish everyone finds happiness.

thanks for reading

love to all

xxxxxxxx

 

I have a cure for M.E. - when u feel lethargic paint a swastika on your forehead and go into town then you will be in perpetual danger and will have to move about a lot and wont feel low on energy due to nerves

 

I've been in a really wretched mood lately, and I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been trying to hide it, and smile anyways, but it's still there. I hardly sleep anymore. Fuckity fuck fuck.

 

Life is Good...

I am Inlove and Loved...

Hopefully moving to NC this August...

Can Not be Happier...

 

Things happening in the world as a whole really get me down...such strange, strange times were living in

But luckily we have our little retreat, and in my personal circle im so amazingly happy i cant even believe it. Im engaged and so incredibly in love...i live in a pleasant area...i have a wonderful (even if exhausting) job...Life, at the moment and for me and my fiancé is amazing. Better than i could have imagined.

I know however that we cant stay in our circle forever...maybe a few more happy years...eventually i want to make a difference to the bigger picture, and its when we look outside things get worrying

 

Rofl.. hm.. possibly xD Mind you some of the people round here would probably hail me.. bunch of nutters.

 

well just write in black felt pen on your face "what the fuck are you lookin at you cocksuckin moron" that way it cuts across all creeds and colour - you'll definately have no respite especially when your mom or dad gets home from work !!!

 

I might not have buckets full of money but I think I am a rich man at the moment. Cheers!

 

thats the dope talking - I bet he smokes marijuana as well !

I feel great I've never had so many retards to take the piss out of

 

I am not that happy at the moment. I just did my guitar grading and I fcuked up like 100 times or somet. School has become a destonationless pathuntil the end of the year in 4 weaks time. My mood shows in my work, as my artwork has become encreasingly moody. I can't sleep as much and carry on getting up in the middle of the night. My friend recently picked up my mandolin and has descovered he can play it better than me.

So my life at the moment, is pretty ####, might open a cheery upy thread somewhere.

And ronneis sense of humour worries me sometimes...

 

jeezass fackin chariiiisssttt !!!! oh my god this should be called the absolute whingeing moaning minnies thread - goddam do you all really have so much misery going on - OMFG and there was me thinking you would all be so ecstatic because youre all rich overfed westerners - yes even you lazy gits who are unemployed - oh for once will someone just be happy !

dont let me get you down - just hit me in the face with some humour thats like a big sock full of cat poo ! I wont bite I promise - well ok i will bite but i wont rip yer head off

 

but aren't they actually oppressed minions, perhaps its proof

 

Life's good. It's the end of uni., so all my friends are coming home to party. But I'm still getting that depressed feeling that I know they won't have the time for me after they finish uni., and I've only just got into there. It's sad to see my friends settle down to 'real' jobs, in some ways. With my friends going into nursing, and social care, and one even going to Japan to teach.

It was my birthday yesterday, so we all went out for a drink at our local. Things are good, especially with Glastonbury on Tuesday.

My only concern at the moment is my writing (again). I'm thinking of writing abit in Glastonbury though, seeming it's a golden moment. Also, I've been thinking of hitching from Castle Cary to the actual festival. What'ya reckon?

 

Nothing you said - just the way you looked in your sig' .
You just looked like a smug wanker.
I'm sure you are a very nice person in reality.

 

In this life that I live, I have tried to find a solution to everything. Mistakes happen and one has to learn and move on as I have done. This doesn't mean to say that I am still not bothered by my many blunders, but it helps to learn and move on.

These days, I am simply marking off the days till my death. Like one would mark off the days till their release on a prison calender, this is a time dragger. Still unemployed and no hope, no joy of getting back into work. I have tried and will continue to try. I can only wish, hope and keep my dreams and ambitions alive even if they have been crushed by the way of the world.

As I open a can of cold Fosters in my modest apartment in Lewisham. I gaze up at the sky, frequent black clouds and white clouds float by. Sometimes I laugh out loud and other times I just muse on the meaning of life, the theories of the universe or simply watch tv. Life is probably better than it was yesterday, but not as good as it is tomorrow.

Either way, I am a survivor, a fighter and a lonely soul walking along that highway to I know not where. The desert winds stir up the sand, blowing onto the roads and then there is of course the tempests that echo in the secret chamber. Surrounded by four walls with many scriptures written on them of my life, my existence, what I think and feel and what I have been through. Written on these walls like ancient runes of the mind. Somehow I must go on. If I could make this world a better place, we can all be happy. At the moment I am a priority. Well Summer is coming and the days are getting lighter and longer and the mornings are getting earlier and earlier. The birds sing symphonies in the trees. The cats seize their fights and go back to their masters. As I awake from deep dream. I rise like yeast to face another day. Life is okey but it could be better....

and there you have it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3L29U_8c9U

fin de posta

 

life's good..... i'm with paul... quit worrying about it and let it aaaalll float past :spliff:

(actually it started pretty shitty, i pissed somone off last night...but she seems to have forgiven me )

and Murder she Hopes... erm Wrote... is pretty fekkin' boring....

 

Hmmmm.... how is my life at the moment? Pretty chaotic! I am just about to finish uni - well in August - and still have so much work to do! All my friends from other courses have finished and I have to stay in this annoying city for another few weeks!

Also at the end of this bloody degree it will be incredibly difficult to get a job, which means I won't be able to afford to stay in London and will most likely have to move back in with my parents for a while........ please god no!!!!

At placement at the minute I am ok - although some staff suck so that makes it hard. Getting the normal panic stricken moments of feeling not able to do this job and will fail terribly! But this also co-incides with feelings of loving the job and feeling I am good at it!

I just finished a week of nights and have come in with again no sleep to see my tutor who is away on annual leave! How typical!

But overall... I am doing pretty good! Just trying to get someone to come out for a drink, but to no avail. Oh well! This has been a good forum for a moan - but I am loving life at the mo and cannot wait to hopefully get a job! My interview is in 2 weeks - wish me luck!

 

ahh lol if you look on myspace i have some incredibly retarded pics of me using this image program.. me as a leprachaun and stuff.. i'm turning into a webcam whore i'm afraid =[

but thanks man lol I assure you i'm alright in real life =P

Going to change my sig pic anyway, my fucked up nose!

 

at the moment, it's a little sad. my grandfather and favorite cousin died recently, seperately. i only found out yesterday. NO ONE called me. so i'm a little angry, too. but i went out and got totally hammered last night, for free.