How do you think you'll die?

hmm.

its hard to say, really. i mean, every time i get in the car, i COULD die.

then there are wars, diseases, the ever present "bad guys" lurking in dark alleys ready to kill for the ten dollars in my wallet........

but ideally, i've always envisioned suicide. nothing morbid, something painless if possible or failing that at least quick. no time soon at all. many, many years down the road. i just have always had the feeling that any number of people who are alive at a very old age have been ready to go but too afraid or too opposed to the idea of taking their own lives.

i figure sometime in my eighties i'd probably just feel tired enough to go gently and in a dignified manner, rather than wait to go to the hospital. if i still feel this way down the road i'll make sure the people around me that i love know that this is my intention so they are not surprised and distressed by it when it happens. i'd like to tie up loose ends before going. certainly i doubt all this will actually take place, but its honestly what i hope for - i like making decisions for myself, and death in the abstract doesnt scare me....just ways of dying and timing....

so how i'll probably go is up in the air. could be a plethora of things. how i'd LIKE to go is suicide - several decades from now.

 

i think someone will kill me

or

i'll end up being a crazy old man oogling at the young ladies

 

like grandpa fitzy?
he still hasn't called me back ya know....

 

exactly like him...

he does have memory problems though, probably why he didn't call ya back. most likely i'll inherit those memory problems too

 

well considering my family history, and the tendacncy to live quite old. I'll probably get to enjoy the long journy into abys of altimers sometimes my late 80-90s. then get finished off with a heart attack. that seems to be the way to go in my family

though do to my moms side of the famlily, I have to figure in a chance of getting lucky and having a massive anurizm or something in my 60s. anurizms have knocked off more than a few relatives on that side of the family.....thank you mom

oh, couple cases of lung cancer in my family, but they smoked freekin 6 packs a days. oh and one case liver ciroses....drank a case a day

and then there was great uncle stubby. he had a couple a farm accidents over the years. Getting wrapped up in combine is what finally did him in though...we tend to joke about him. He was missing 6 fingers and a leg before that last combine incident..hence the name uncle stubby.

 

I never used to be afraid to die until i divorced my hubby. Now, i think about how I dont want to die all the time. I mean my two younger girls have great relationships with their donor, i know they would be well taken care of. I have not doubt about that in my mind and could rest easy if i died.
Its my other daughter I worry about, she is going to be 18 in May, and i realize that she will be an adult, but damn, she has had nothing to do with her dad since she was 12. I hate the thought that she wont have anybody as a parental figure in her life. I know my brother, my sister and my parents would step to the plate but i dunno, it would just seem strange leaving this world and her not having me, i dont think i could rest easy.

I have never thought of suicide. There is cancer, heart problems, diabetes on both sides of my family. mom's had quad bypass, both bro and sis are insulin dependant, grandparents (heart, cancer) aunt had cancer (she is a survivor though) , etc.
So i am going to have to say hopefully I will break the trend and just die a happy old lonely bitchy lady.

speaking of deaths, has anyone seen the new site my death(insert word we arent supposed to use on here. ) Now talk about some strange ways to die.

 

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