Not really. If I have to give a speech I have a confidence level of 9. If I have an interview for a job? About a 5. Confidence with who I am as a person? At the moment...11. It changes.
I shop and demand lots of attention from John, without really "demanding" but he better pay lot of attention to me I dont think that's a good way to deal with it at all, because it's not really dealing with anything, it's just creating distractions from MY problem. I actually was talking about that with him a day or two ago, he said I should meditate more. I think he's right, the thing is that when I feel like that and I sit down to meditate, the first that goes through my mind is everything I DONT want to be thinking about, so it makes it harder, but after that it's usually blissful.
I shop and need attention too. I ask everyone 'is this the best you've ever seen/tasted/read etc' I have to be the best and if I'm not I think about it all week and fixate on it and drive myself nuts.I could never meditate. I have tried and just can't stop my mind from racing.
I have my moments of self-doubt but I'm usually around an 8. It's not that I think I'm great. It's just that I generally(not always) don't give a fuck what other people think.
That's how I feel as well. I do think I'm less confident now though, compared to what I was in my late teens or so..