Hip Forums Kinda does my heads in.

I recommended meditation to a friend last night who was having trouble sleeping.But apologised to her and admitted it was a sucky idea.Thanks for your advice and concern,but I really can't meditate much anymore.I used too,a long time ago,but frankly I need distraction,not immediate focus on the anxiety that is a prelude to and within meditation.I don't want to experience my thought/non - thought.Meditation can be very beneficial for the right people at the right time,but my meditation box blew a fuse.

 

There's only one other forum I know of that has a community anything like this one... figures they're both unhealthy addictions of mine. It is pretty unique. What you di is ultimately your choice though

 

It's completely ok, lots of us here for similar reasons. I can't sleep either sometimes, a night owl, but once asleep I am out for the night usually, sept the other night. Some assholes knocked on my front door at 2:30 am, twice, then I got up, put my cameras on and caught them scoping out my back yard with flashlights.
Dunno why but I didn't think to put the cams on record or call the cops but instead in my stunned half sleep mode I watched them. They were less the five feet from my face but couldn't see me in the window because the back yard is lit up pretty good and I was in the dark. I thought to scream and scare the shit out of them but they heard my dog and left so the next morning I called the cops just to see if any others spotted them in their yards, same description and 3 other homes called them in. They weren't caught by then so they might be back to steal something. Cops said they probably knocked to see if an answer would happen and woulda just said they had a flat tire and asked for a phone or something but if no answer would and did scope out yards.
I was up reading the forums till about 4am that night till I passed out again. Can't wait till BF moves in. Usually I read the forums after BF leaves till about midnight or 1 or 2am.
What was there before Internet huh? Hahaha.
I don't read or watch much tv either.

 

This is kind of how I feel about chat here. We're like a family in there. Some days we love each other and some days we want to choke each other. As long as there are more days that we love each other I'll continue to be here.

 

I think of mental connectivity and engagement. It's sort of like XTC's Generals and Majors .. (generals and majors always seem so unhappy unless they got a war). Intellectuals are the same way, unhappy unless they have that mental engagement. This is, after all, Random Thoughts...

 

TV, radio, music, movies, videos, books .. none of those things are people. We need human contact, human connection. The internet is strange because it can be isolating .. sitting in front of a computer instead of sitting across or next to an other human being. But this is how people connect now so even though it's isolating, it also keeps us connected. The internet has transformed life.

 

Yes real connection with people is so important,which is why I try and make myself do things.Even simple transactions,chance conversations with strangers,someone asking me for spare change like today,talking to two guys in a pub I will never see again.My real close friends are all spread around the city,and we're such known quantities to each other that there is sometimes little impetus to actually meet up.I consider myself to be a very verbal person,so I get a good sense,I think,out of textual relationships.But I would certainly like to make more new friends...But life before 40 is the prelude,and life after 40 the examination?

 

Generally I think this is a good place - definitely the best forums I've located on the net.
It can get a bit frustrating at times I find, and sometimes need to take a break from it for a while.

 

I just noticed the thread title, how many heads do you have?

 

One of course.It's a metaphor.A lot of regulars here know I'm Schizo.hope that's not too much of a problem.I will try to act normal from now on.

 

Lately this is a feeling I have had more often than I wish I did. Not sure if spring fever or cabin fever applies.

 

You're very normal lol

Maybe you're like a multifaceted gem ..

 

normal is subjective

 

Monkey man, every man has two, one he thinks with, the small one and one he bangs into walls with when drunk. Ya didn't know that?

 

I like this place just like most other things in life-in moderation. When I'm here too often it can start to get to me in various ways. When I'm not here too much, this place is cool. But that is really just how all things in life are...moderation is key.