I seriously wanna wake up to a woman sucking my dick one day. It's always been my fantasy to get a blowjob while I'm asleep!
Seriously, get a man to do it, Keep your eyes closed and imagine it's whoever you dream about. Besides, men are far, far better at giving head because they know what really works. Women, in my experience, are like chooks pecking at wheat in comparison. :2thumbsup:
I've masturbated over pics of a female relative (not blood related) it gave me really strong orgasms but I feel so ashamed
Why? Do you have a strict religious background? A more important consideration than feeling ashamed for an action which is harming no-one is what your relative's partner, if she has one would think if they know of your desires. Howevre, it's only if you actually have sex with this woman behind her partners back that you should feel ashamed otherwise this is really only between your imagination, your hands and your ****.
Since you asked so nicely, I have spent the better part of the past two years homeless, having lost everything in storage that could not be paid, living in a car. Reality is not pretty, is it?
Having dealt with far more severe forms of mental illness in my day I have no qualms about dealing with yours. However, you self diagnosis, presuming it is such, is being presented to us dressed up with veiled threats that indicate your condition is more serious. If so, do seek professional help.
Funnily enough I was brought up a Roman Catholic lol, but haven't been to Church since school days. I've no interest in taking it further and I'm sure she'd be positively repulsed at any attempt to on my part. Luckily it seems to be out of my system now.
Sociopath: Glibness and Superficial Charm Manipulative and Conning They never recognize the rights of others and see their self-serving behaviors as permissible. They appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering, seeing their victim as merely an instrument to be used. They may dominate and humiliate their victims. Grandiose Sense of Self Feels entitled to certain things as "their right." Pathological Lying Has no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for them to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about their own powers and abilities. Extremely convincing and even able to pass lie detector tests. Lack of Remorse, Shame or Guilt A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at their core. Does not see others around them as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, they have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always justifies the means and they let nothing stand in their way. Shallow Emotions When they show what seems to be warmth, joy, love and compassion it is more feigned than experienced and serves an ulterior motive. Outraged by insignificant matters, yet remaining unmoved and cold by what would upset a normal person. Since they are not genuine, neither are their promises. Incapacity for Love Need for Stimulation Living on the edge. Verbal outbursts and physical punishments are normal. Promiscuity and gambling are common. Callousness/Lack of Empathy Unable to empathize with the pain of their victims, having only contempt for others' feelings of distress and readily taking advantage of them. Poor Behavioral Controls/Impulsive Nature Rage and abuse, alternating with small expressions of love and approval produce an addictive cycle for abuser and abused, as well as creating hopelessness in the victim. Believe they are all-powerful, all-knowing, entitled to every wish, no sense of personal boundaries, no concern for their impact on others. Early Behavior Problems/Juvenile Delinquency Usually has a history of behavioral and academic difficulties, yet "gets by" by conning others. Problems in making and keeping friends; aberrant behaviors such as cruelty to people or animals, stealing, etc. Irresponsibility/Unreliability Not concerned about wrecking others' lives and dreams. Oblivious or indifferent to the devastation they cause. Does not accept blame themselves, but blames others, even for acts they obviously committed. Promiscuous Sexual Behavior/Infidelity Promiscuity, child sexual abuse, rape and sexual acting out of all sorts. Lack of Realistic Life Plan/Parasitic Lifestyle Tends to move around a lot or makes all encompassing promises for the future, poor work ethic but exploits others effectively. Criminal or Entrepreneurial Versatility Changes their image as needed to avoid prosecution. Changes life story readily.
Don't know if you took those definitions ( diagnostic criteria?) from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV) but several of those behaviors appear to be mutually exclusive. What I'm more interested in is why our friend wants to tells us he(?) thinks of himself as a borderline sociopath .Also we should note there's a difference between a borderline sociopath and a full blown sociopath. From my observations borderline socialpaths are so common in the world of commerce, politics and the military as to almost be considered normal in that context.