Hang in there sweetie. By now you've probably gone to the wake. Hopefully you had your chance to say goodbye. I know it's hard and I don't know what your beliefs are but try to think of it as not an ending to Matt's life but maybe to this journey and that he has moved on. I like what that person said about God not being able to have them apart for any longer. When my Uncle died,(his last words) he was talking to someone that wasn't in the room, almost like there was someone on the other side waiting for him. Maybe Matt has someone like that too. I know it hurts but remember that the hurt will fade and you will still be thankful that he was in your life at all.
my god wakes are horrible..I went to one for a kid who died around here...car crash right by my house...I didnt know him..but I went out of respect and to help out the friends who did know him...it was one of the most emotional experiences of my life and all I can say is try to be strong and hold onto the fact that you gotta keep on living..my complete condolences and if you ever need someone to vent to...I'm always here my dear
well im leaving now to get ready. im so scared and nervous but i think im as ready as ill ever be. after the wake theyre showing a video documentary of his life. this is so hard. i just cant imagine seeing him lay there. i dont no what im going to say to him and i cant really think straight now. so far the hardest thing to do today was to open my closet doors and take out all my black clothes. i just hate this
It's ok my friend... Let your spirit just speak to his. Even if physical words don't come out, just let the emotions speak to him.
the wake was very emotional. towards the end they played the mini film of his life..it started out with baby pictures of matt and ended with recent ones. everyone was huddled together crying..i didnt even no what to say to his family (especially his older sister who found him). a piece of me died with matt but i do feel like ive gotten some closure this kid mike who sold matt the drugs that day showed up to the wake. that day mike and matt were getting high together and then mike left matt there alone. i couldnt believe the nerve of this kid...he wasnt there for the right reasons. when he got there he looked high as a kite.
