First love

I will never get over my first love.

and i am confident that i will never love another person as much as i loved her.

it definetly hasnt gotten any easier over the years. but i have long since accepted it.

 

i never had a first love but in my opinion the first is everything. Anway, i got a question about my sexuality. A couple of years ago I used to like girls. Now, I think i'm going throught this transition as im currently in my teenage years. Ive been turned on by my friends lately (who are boys). I need advice because im not sure if im gay or not. I had a conversation the other day where my friend was acting gay and it was supposed to be funny but i was turned on by it. CAN ANYONE PLEASE TELL ME IF IM GAY OR NOT?

 

I'm struggling with this at the moment, I was with my boyfriend for 3 years, I thought he was my best friend, my first love. I believe that true love, in whatever form, friendship, family, relationships, can withstand alot of struggle, a lot of life's tests, I am struggling because his love for me couldnt stand up when finally tested. I know we're not supposed to be together romantically, but I thought that true love surpassed "relationship" and was undefinable. Maybe I'm alone in this theory, or maybe we just didn't love each other the way I thought we did. I think your first love will always own a little peice of your heart and you can only continue to grow from that, and its your job to keep those memories safe and not allow it to taint your future love. I dunno... my thoughts are everywhere on the subject.

 

First, second, third or last - it doesn't matter. Each event is to be appreciated, it is full of wonderful memories and the good times are the ones that should stay in our memories.

 

No, Thats why if your a guy you have to KILL your gfs first love, if not you.

 

I am completely over that guy... gross!!

 

I've just felt my first real love. We're not in a relationship. He was my friend first, then as time went by, I fell for him. Hard.
Things happened and it's pretty obvious that he likes me more than just a friend, eventhough he won't admit that to me, or to himself. More than a year ago he got out of a two year relationship, that ended really bad. He has some family issues and he said to me that he 'isn't thinking about that stuff right now'.
Anyways, this has been about two-three months ago. And I find it harder everyday to let go. This is the first guy that I care about so deeply, I've never felt this before. And it also feels like I've lost a great friendship...I just wished it never happend and things were back to normal...'cause I feel wrecked

 

I gotta say I agree with pretty much everything on this subject that Libertine has to say. lol You sound like you have your shit together. Life's a bitch sometimes, but that's what happens. We all need to stop being damaged by every shitty event that happens in our lives. You NEED to pick yourself up and walk away. Take with you the lessons worth learning, but leave the past where it belongs, leave the shit behind. It makes us stronger, makes us better. We all hurt, life's full of hurt... but we're the ones with the choice to move forward from that hurt and learn from it.
I know its cliche to say "you have to be your own best friend" but that's what you find out when life gets messy. You need to be able to count on yourself first. If you have that foundation, and you get let down... you're not left empty and destroyed. If you accept and see let down for what it is and fall back on yourself, you'll survive it all. Where would we be without the hurt of losing that first love? We need it.

 

I first loved the man wearing the black sunglasses despite the dusky hour who was sleeping peacefully on his back in the grass in the middle of a Pearl Jam concert. I thought he was beautiful. It was my 12th birthday. He shook my hand after the gig was over and it made me want to cry. I've never felt another hand like his.

 

Nah!!! Never...

 

I randomly ran into the first guy I was in love with last year. We hadn't talked in years. I immediately got that little rush in my stomach! It's not like I want to get back together with him at all - in fact I had my boyfriend with me and I was weirdly anxious, hoping they'd like each other. I was just happy to see him. I feel like we have an extra-special secret little bond.

Definitely all positive feelings!

 

Well my first love was when I was 15 we dated for 10 months he cheated on me and I was heartbroken then after a couple of weeks I started getting over him and felt better mentally physically i was gettting sicker my dad took me to the doctor and behold I was pregnant. I chose to keep the baby and I told my ex he never called me, wrote me, or approach me about it. I remember passing him in the halls of school and he would just act like I didn't exist. It hurt really bad. I was a freshman and he was a senior do at the end of the school year I heard he had join the navy and his friend told me that he said the baby wasn't his and he didn't care and neither did his family. Well eventually I had my baby girl right after my 16 birthday. And I thought she was the most beautiful thing in the world. I ended up having to get a paternity test done and of course it came back 99.99% it was his but he still made no attempt to have anything to do with her so I pretended like he didn't exsit just like he did us. I later met my husband whom I love and took my daughter in like his own without questions. My ex started making child support payment sparatically since my daughter was 6. now she is 11. I have no love for my ex what so ever but I am grateful for my daughter. I also seen a recent picture of my ex and man he got a little chunky. I found this too be highly amusing. lololololol

 

I met Diane when I was 15 and we dated off and on for the school year then her family moved. Now 36 years later, I still think of her multiple times every day and pray for her daily. We have not seen one another nor communicated with each other since 1979. To this day, Diane has a special place in my heart.

 

Some people can get over it, but with others there will always be a hole in they're heart.

Peace

 

Sadly, I don't even remember her name or what she looked like.

 

Wow, so weird that i just saw this thread...
i reconnected with my first love just wednesday...we hadnt talked for a year and we ended up talking in my car for like 3 1/2 hrs...he has a new gf, and we both have stuff going on in our lives but it felt so good to let everything out, on both ends...i actually told him he was my first love (well, my 1st real bf, which is just as special cause unfortunatly we never had the chance to fall in love but who knows)

 

I'd have to say no for me.. I married my first love.. now we are in the middle of a divorce but I'll never stop loving him just don't want to live with him lol..

 

Oh, I'm sorry you're going through a divorce, Green It's really cool that you're able to keep good feelings for him though.

Ad, that's a really sweet story.

 

oh its ok.. we are both much happier.. and yeah it was really hard at first to even like him anymore but things are better and for our son we are getting along pretty good now.. what's funny is my car wouldn't start yesterday and we had to go to court for the divorce and I rode with him.. I'm sure that doesn't happen often lol..

 

Wow...serious awkward potential.