falling into depression

No worries - you're with us.



Yeaaaahhhhh!...

 

yep! and it was a great day in so many ways. Issues just dissolved. Money situations fixed themselves. Power of thought! I forget sometimes.

 

Girlfriend, do you want to schedule a free session with me? Give me a pm, and we can schedule a phone session. This is the kind of thing I can help you with. We can bring out the cards and do a little hyposis and everything. Doing free sessions will help me too because it will get me back into practioner mode again.

 

sounds very interesting

Look forward to hearing your voice again!

 

I pack a bag with a blanket and a couple bottles of wine and go to an empty field and chill there all night!! In the morning my depression is almost always gone!!!!!!!

 

that sounds lovely.

 

I sufferred from depression for quite a while.

Ask god for healing.... I did and it worked !!

Psychic

 

uSuck

 

Depressions are great , its a little bit like drugs, it changes your way of thinking, just gotta keep in mind that this way of thinking is influenced by your mind, just allow the depressed thoughts and feelings, and eventually they will dissappear.

 

oh my god that's the most optimistic thing I've ever heard!

Cheers to that!

 

I agree. I hate falling into them but love coming out of them. I always feel fresh, revived and centered again. :cheers2:

 

I agree with pellinore I sometimes get off on feeling depressed. it's weird but I feel so much and often it seems like the world has locked its feeling down so I'm psyched to just to be feeling... kind of masochistic I guess? when I was young depression was the only way I felt like I was alive.

also the collective mind/heart is going through some crazy stuff and there's a huge collective mourning that I feel. I think if you're sensitive there's no way you can't feel it. it's like we're letting go of everything we've got and at the same time seeing how much we hold onto things that don't matter and viewing what it's done to the world so it's this layered sorrow... very intense. I also think that as we peel stuff away we feel it as it leaves so it can be celebratory too!

btw kudos for putting this post up. vulnerable. courageous.

 

I can understand that....Sometimes being angry is my way of being alive.

Also agree with the whole group consciousness moving through transitions. It is a very exciting time to be alive.

Thanks

 

yeah I have probs with angry... I was conditioned so heavily when I was young that anger was bad that it's difficult for me to express anger. I'm getting better but I tend to repress. one of my life endeavors toward freedom.

 

a blast of good strong marijuana sitting in a room by yourself can do wonders at times

 

rygoody I am so feeling you right now

 

Anger is one of the major aspects of myself the spirits are pushing me to accept...when I was young I wasn't allowed to express anger...when I got to be a teenager I finally, finally let go and expressed my anger, calmly and reasonably, to my parents...and survived!!! LOL

Now my spirit guides are forcing me deeper, making me accept anger as a part of myself.

Not a pretty picture, a lot of the time. But once we accept our anger, it has less control of us...just like any other emotion. That's where I am right now, and it's a good place to be.

 

I had so much pressure growing up and a mom who would freaking rage as well as a stepfather who would rage back. I saw awful things. Fist fights. Guns pulled out. Car chases. Smashing of car windows. Police called.

Then after dealing with that mom was taken from us untimely but given back to us as an invalid. Taking care of her while only 13 and dealing with a raging asshole for a stepfather as he dealt with his own emotional burdens and loss didn't help. I learned the best way to be heard was to break shit up.

Then moved to my dad and stepmom where there was no fighting. My anger and pent up pain was never acknowledged. I was seen as a bitch and the black sheep in the family which just perpetuated the loneliness inside.

Thank god I dont hold on to those things as my life's mission but it created a very strong will and anger within....that I am learning through love, gratitude and centering to dispell.

Thats why depression scares me....my demons come out and they aren't pretty.

I am reaching that place zengizmo(what the hell does that mean) and it is helpful. All is choice and I don't need to choice that path Though injustice and inequality do get me.

 

Oh God, yes...

God put you here.

So fuck God. LOL

What you are is what you are. Fuck God, fuck the universe, fuck your fuckin' life.

And then just be.

You are what you are because God made you so.

So fuck God!

Who gives a shit? Everything is a pile of shit anyway...everything is the same thing pretending to be different things.

So just fuck it all off, and be at peace.

It's all about experience. Your experience is what the universe has given you for this life. So you experience all this, and then you fuck it all off and come back home.

So fuck it all off, dearest mariecstasy, and come back home, where love is all there is.



LOL

Love...

And I know demons, and yours are welcome here as well. Share them and thereby withdraw their power.

 

... this is so fundamental. Love is the only true reality and ones natural state of being. It's a shame that our natural state is such a rare thing. Crazy huh?

Fucking everything off? Sure, but we need a cure .. not a fix, so just be mindful of how ... in what manner, we do this, if it is 'anti' anything, then nothing is solved. If we can truly say 'it doesn't matter' in an embracing forgiving way ... because we see the truth of our pure, untouched being underneath ... despite the bullshit, craving, addiction, hating, and all the mind made demons that arise in this experience of duality and living in form, then we at least live with acceptance of our human condition, ...acceptance of the insanity of mind and it's tendency to make shit up. Knowing that the shit is temporary and unreal somehow makes it ok, but we really do need to know that ... not just intellectually, but really experientially .. otherwise we suffer.

Anyway, i'm feeling somewhat depressed the last couple of weeks. It's mild compared to what i've experienced before ... I've had worse, alot worse, a whole load worse. But it's real and yes it makes one feel alive on the inside and makes one look deeper for what is really there. I'm ok feeling depressed just that it makes funtioning in the world .. the world of ego, alot more difficult.

Reminds me of a 'who' lyric ... "Can you see the real me?"