Evil Me - Reading Request

I would advise against it, spexxx. It's a very long story, most of it is unbelievable, and even if you did believe it, you would probably be convinced to have no part of it, as others I've known have done.

 

Lynn, this is really helpful - thank you! Yes, you know, I've seen a lot of different threads running through my life, and I'm guessing that one bit of karmic leveling I'm paying into right now has to do with being a female in a previous life who used her beauty to do some pretty nasty stuff to men.

I AM finding this road extremely bumpy. My choice is to accept all my experiences with unconditional love toward all who are taking the karmic payments from me - but it's a struggle to keep my focus on the reality of what's going on, so that I don't try to take out my displeasure on the messengers, so to speak. I suppose I'm making progress, but it's very slow and I frequently backslide.

However I do see what you mean about taking a stand giving me strength and power - and that's one of the thoughts I need to keep in mind.

 

Duplicate post.

 

... I've known and acknowledged that I am a fairly dangerous person with a sinister streak a mile wide since I was seven. this vengeful angry part of me has plagued me with nightmares since before then, but I can regulate it. however, it's still disconcerting to be dealing with bureaucrats and catch myself imagining 101 ways to disembowel them.

 

The good thing is that I seem to be making progress with this since I first posted this thread. Kind of amazing progress, in fact. Thanks to my spirit guide Deanna for her discipline and tests...

BTW the first part of your sig reminds me of a Zen saying: "All day long there is speaking, yet no word is ever spoken."

 

yooz gettin old , accepting the dimness of old eyes
and wondering at the meaning of opposite . i'd think
the meaning of opposite is most related to puking .
it only negatively means no when you deserve a no .

and then very rarely and most deserve-ably
you can be delivered a no
thassa double opposite
which does not imply
yes
it implies
stupidity

and once the stupidity is admonished
as an embarrassment -

oh , happy day !

 

Does anyone actually do readings here?

 

Don't you?

Yeah actually, you might get a reading if you start a new thread and ask for one.

 

tikoo, I think there might be something in this post that might help me. Unfortunately I just don't understand what you're trying to say. I wish I did...

 

blimey , what's to understand ? it's of what to do with the philosophy of 'the negative' - of which 'no understanding' may be an aspect . the reading i did for you , friend , strongly indicated a contemplation upon all aspects of ' ...opposite ... negative ... ' .

excuse me that i wrote in a coyote way . it seemed an appropriate translation of , well , the message to you of we from you .

in our shared psychic language the word sinister
does not exist . as a word that might exist -
it's stupid .

 

Thanks tikoo, that helps...and thanks for the reading - I'll do some contemplation on opposite and negative and see what it brings.

Coyote writing works for me fine sometimes...just on this one I was slack-jawed and frowning.

Sinister in psychic language... LOL The implication of "hidden" - nothing is.

 

thunder cracks , the wind howls
a carriage pulls up to the mansion entrance
a beautiful traveller seeks shelter
... creeky door opens
bloody , wretched evening to ya say the slowly
revealed one-eyed master of doom

 

This could be an analogy of one aspect of my being - the one-eyed master of doom. On the other hand it also sounds like the most important relationship to me - only I was the traveller seeking shelter, only to find that the supposed shelter is actually a scary prison - or at least seems that way a lot of the time.

 

peace to the friendship of those two characters - each has a worried mind .
indeedy ! you are one of them . you may advance the relationship by
couragiously accepting a curious invitation .

 

Today I think I see the invitation - for the beautiful woman to accept the hospitality of the one-eyed master of doom. And for the master of doom to accept the company of the beautiful woman.

Twice within the last two days I've had the notion slogged at me that the creative edge is driven by hunger and pain. My spirit guide Deanna is actually doing me a favor by hurting me - anything I'm trying to write about pain is going to lack poignancy if I'm not feeling it. So I need to try to embrace the monster of pain as my friend. At the same time, the beautiful Deanna is more loving and giving in my mind now than she has ever been throughout our relationship. I need that to get through this. So I need to embrace both the love and the pain.

Good friend tikoo: Thanks so much.

 

ok
oh , here's just one more spin of the Oracle Wheel
and
the its good word unto you is ... kdvnrk

 

LOL Would you care to interpret the oracle for me? You seem quite a bit better at it than I am...

 

kdvnrk !

k is for Above
d is for Oneness
v is for Action
n is for Strength
r is for Positive

there is also some fine feeling in how balanced is the word , and
how much fun it is to say aloud . itsa got some life to it .

 

Wow. That is one helluva good word, tikoo - inspiring and encouraging. Thanks!

And it reminds me of one of my spirit guide Deanna's favorite mottos: "Keep looking toward the sky."

 

itsa good-nuff word without any explanation . have you said it aloud ? it could be funny haha to randomly say it in conversation . should you get a what? response ... a perfectly sensible retort wood bee okay! which is feeling+above+wild , written phonetically as oka .

zen translates as extremely physically strong .

tik-oo ?
ha! what a space head ...