Eating Disorder

Hun, it's okay, remember tomorrow is a new day. Sooner or later you will feel more relaxed and okay again.

I know how that is, and it always passes with time, and I know that it's hard to realize that right now when you're upset. Go for a light, scenic walk or something to blow off some steam, it really helps a lot. Don't get carried away and walk like 10 miles, lol, but do what you need to calm yourself down a bit.

I know how that feels to see yourself differently everytime you look in the mirror, I do. It's confusing, and frustrating. I think we see ourselves as "fat" when we look in the mirror because we get so upset and unhappy with ourselves, that we EXPECT to see some big ugly person in the mirror, so our mind plays tricks on us, and shows us just that. But, try to remember that, and try to remember that you probably don't really look like what you're seeing in the mirror. I know it's upsetting because you want to see yourself for what's really there, but with patience I think it will come. Just take it one day at a time. I wake up everyday and feel differently, and that always reminds me that tomorrow I can wake up and feel better, and start over.

Do you have the sort of mind that can picture things easily, and sees things in pictures instead of words? Just curious.

 

sorry if i caused offence to anyone.......but I found the the best way to get over my problems was to be told bluntly.

Im not saying obesity is healthy. But this isnt about health anyway. its about body image. All im saying is that everyone in this thread has a beautiful body and shouldnt feel this way.

But im not to nieve to think its that easy.

Im not judging anyone for this.....if thats the impression i gave

i just think i need to understand

 

is it innappropraite for me to say "you're hot"

oh well .....said it now

 

what do you mean im 'hot'?

yea thats another problem i have. me and the is guy broke up a while ago and since then, guys have been trying to pick me up. all of these guys are really nice and sweet and its logical for me to like them but i dont. and its because i feel embarrased that they'd have to be seen with me. i realized that last ngiht when i was with this guy whose so sweet and cares a lot about me. i needed to go to the stroe real quick and so he drove me and asked, "want me to go in with you?" and i told him no. looking back now i know its stupid but i really didnt want to embarrass him by being seen with me. i wish i could wear a bag over my head.

 

To some, this is such a 'fragile' topic. Well, newsflash, you wouldn't be fragile if you didn't starve yourselves. Sorry if some people don't want to play baby with anas. If I were to treat you like you treat your body, then why should I be nice? If you want someone to baby you, It's called a shrink. First of all, quit reading magazines, as I suspect the majority of teenagers do. They only create a lower self-esteem.

 

hahaha, ok.

because magazines cause eating disorders? *laughs* I don't even look at magazines, PERIOD. I don't compare myself to models and actresses and the like. You need to understand how different it really is from what you perceive it as. Some girls might struggle with the media, and others don't... I don't. I barely watch tv, I don't read magazines, I just don't care period. I am NOT fucking vain, it has nothing to do with a fucking beauty contest.

And if you had something in your head that just keep plaguing you and repeating itself no matter how hard you try to stop it, I'm sure you would want some comfort too. I didn't fucking ask for this.

I'm glad you're happy with your ignorance.

 

Oh and please don't call it fucking "ana" that drives me nuts.

That's what the little 12 year old Nicole Richie wannabes call it, like its some cool thing to have...

Honestly, just shut up.

 

I don't understand eating disorders and don't really think highly of those who suffer from it as a result (of my own ignorance) but at the same time why are people coming in here to flame when all these posters want is a "sanctuary" as someone else mentioned? If they want to be "babied", then fine. If they want a sympathetic ear, that's wonderful too. Just stay the fuck out unless you really want to learn without being abrasive.

I've had friends/coworkers in the past who went through eating disorders but we slowly lost contact as we couldn't relate anymore and their thoughts were so consumed with this problem that only seemed to be in their heads (or something that others couldn't get through their thick skulls - mine included). Is there any way you (dietcoketree) speak to a councellor? Most campuses have free services like that or workshops and support groups outside of that.

As convenient as it is coming to the internet and writing about it here, I'm guessing one on one interaction with group leaders and fellow others going through the same thing will help much more.

 

I love you

 

I was trying to help dietcoketree. Are you a little dense?

 

I really admire people like you, honestly. I give you a lot of props for being able to say you don't understand, but still have a good amount of respect for the whole thing.

And, I agree that there needs to be some other support for those who are struggling but not seeing a counselor.... I just started talking with my counselor about it, but I have seen a counselor that specializes in eating disorders in the past, and she was basically my best friend during that period of time. It's a good thing to follow through with, but many people with eating disorders put it off out of fear... It takes a long time for most, before they think about recovering.

Anyway, thank you for your respect, it is appreciated.

 

I actually interpreted that as being fucking rude adn annoying......


ill just leave now

 

Obviously so

 

im sorry, i was not trying to whine. i was letting out some instences that i thought were very disturbing. i think everyone should know that i dont think highly of what i do either- it wouldnt be a 'problem' if i was inducing it and being proud of it.

would you honestly make fun of a heroin addict? im sure they dont enojy sticking a needle in their arm. or would you ask an alcoholic to just 'stop drinking?' it seems logical to do so but it just isnt that easy. im not good with analogies but i hope that you get the point im trying to make. i dont wake up in the morning wondering how i can bother hipforums members with a post. this thread is for people who have experience with eating disorders and anyone else who cares to respectivly talk along.

go ahead, ask questions, give your opinion, but DONT come here and tell myself and whoever else that we are whining and looking to be 'babied.' i come here for the very reason that i dont want to be babied- i could get that from my mom and friends who 'feel bad' that i dont love myself enough to nurture it with food.

im sorry, i just cant sit here and let people tell others that they are just looking for sympothy. eating disorders are serious, not a 5 year olds idea of getting attention.

 

thank you for breaking that down better than I could...

if you don't feel comfortable posting here anymore, feel free to PM me, I am here for you.

I won't sugar coat things, but I empathize and understand. And I think you know that by now.

This thread was doing so well before...

Comments made like the ones today, are something I get to deal with everyday, and I was hoping this place wouldn't turn out to be like that frustation I have to deal with day in and day out from people who don't get it.

It's not about being babied, it's about finding people who actually understand, and knowing that we aren't alone.

Trust me, anyone with an eating disorder beats themself up enough the way it is, we aren't asking to be babied, but comfort is nice sometimes. I don't need to hear how fucking "ridiculous" i'm being for suffering from a mental illness, when I already feel fucked up enough the way it is.

We aren't fucking stupid, we know this isn't right, or healthy, or safe or whatever... it's not something we can just snap our fingers and be done with though, either.

I really fucking hate it when people don't treat eating disorders as an illness. You think fucking schizophrenics try to become schizo? Do you think they like it? Do you think they chose it? NO... and it is on the same level as that.

Something goes fucking haywire in our brains, and it's not our fault. I feel crazy enough, and I don't need to be told that by 100 people a day aside from how terrible I feel already about how I can't seem to get my shit together.

Anyway, sorry dietcoketree none of that was directed at you, I'm just venting about that misunderstanding the majority of people seem to have that, we're just being "dumb" and starving ourselves because we enjoy it or something. Oh yeah, I love feeling like I can't even walk up the stairs because my body's too weak, it makes me feel all fuzzy inside... [insert sarcasm here]

Anyway yeah PM me if you wanna talk and dont feel comfortable coming on here anymore.

<3

 

thanks apples.. i will take you up on that.

iwill continue to talk on here because i think that for every person who chooses to be ignorant about the topic, there are 10 people reading it and benefiting. i have no doubt that there are people who read these posts who DONT post, simply because they dont want to awkknowledge haveing the problem or dont want it to be known even online, which is totally fine. thats what this is here for.

 

I like your attitude.

I think it's great that you use your experience to try to help others...I'm like that too. I feel like if I'm going to go through this much hell, I might as well use it for some good, if I can't for myself in the meantime.

 

Just out of interest, watching what you eat is often a wise thing to do. When does watching what you eat become something more serious? I understand the chemical imbalance thing but does it start with that?

 

Like I said I'm not really sure... I'm always sort of this blurred state of mind when it onsets... it's weird...

I am not sure whether it happens gradually and I just don't realize it, or what.

 

Thanks again for that. Looking at it from the outside are there any signs apart from a drop in weight?