i'm sorry...if you want, you can PM about it, but i do hope you feel better i'm still pissed about the shit going on at school, but getting it off my chest helped...i've talked to my roomate, and a bunch of my rook buddies it too before i wrote it here and i'm still pissed...i'm not a kid anymore and this place isn't my job, classes trump everything that happens at this school and some people in the corps seem to forget the classes are the more important than stupid room inspections and formations......
I hate the morons who go into a store, won't buy anything no matter how good a find they scour out, and make as big a mess as they can. It's like this personal challenge to see how much worse you can make a sales assoc's day, good fucking god
im just mad im just kind of remembering a lot. i couldnt really remember what happened in vermont untill a couple of days ago because i had temp memory loss from taking too many ambien...i guess it's common with that med. but god i just feel so beat down and used right now after everything kinda coming together and remembring everything ia m so sad that it went down like that. id ont understand how anyone can be so mean and fucked up ya know? and then try and blame it on me and once again act like im the one with the issues. i have seriously never been so mistreated in my entire life.
jeez, i don't know how people can mistreat others badly. i'm sorry you that had to go through these things and now feel this way. i hope you can have a lift of spirits in the coming days though. its hard feeling that way. its the reason why i'm maybe over-protective of my sister. it was hard seeing her struggle when she was mistreated and i can only imagine what is like for you. i do my best to help my sister...so yea ((hugs))
thanks i am just glad i realized it and id not move out ther only to be in an abusive relationship with no friends or family around. i tried for days to justify things in my own head and find myself at fault but i just can't think of anything that warranted everything that happened so yeah it's hard to realize thigns like this especially when you still love the person but luckily i am bright enough to know what is healthy and what i deserve in a relationship. im not perfect but i do not deserve anything that happened and for what reason...because iw anted to listen to a certain cd....ergh. ive pissed a guy off once but that was because i told him i loved somone else amd his reaction was not nearly as bad as what happened out there. plus i just realize little ways that he tries tocut me down and break my spirit an its really shitty because id ont deserve that i am a good person ya know? you sound like a great brother. i am way too embarasssed to tell anyone i know out here so it just feels great to get this all off my chest. i so needed to vent. thanks Chris and sleep well i a heading off to bed
you seem like a smart gal and its the right thing to do if you are feel you are in an abusive relationship. you know what is healthy for you. no one deserves to be treated shitty in a relationship and its good that you realized that now instead of later. i wouldn't feel embarassed either. i know its hard, but take this as a life lesson and move on and hopefully better things and better relationships will transpire. its the holidays, and you work with kids...that alone would make me feel better. get a kid to smile and you'll feel better, i'm almost positive
thank you I got pink poinsiettieas yesterday to put in my office and am doing my christmas shopping for the kids this afternoon...shopping always makes me feel better. And I am lucky I realized these things now so this doesn't happen again.
My aide and I went shopping for them the other day and got all the weird things they like but there parents won't get for them because they want them to play with 'normal' toys. So we got this one girl who's obsessed with eggs this fake birdsnest with fake eggs in it . She digs weird stuff like that. She pretends everything is an egg and sits on things wanting them to hatch. She also likes rocks a lot. I'll let her pick out a toy at the end of the day and she'll ask to go find a rock outside instead. We got candy and sensory toys and stuff like that too. Then we went to the company clothing store and I got the coolest shirts I got like black button up shirts and with the logo in hot pink and then a blue like casual long sleeve with the logo in rainbow thread. I just brought in a massive grant that lasts 12 months so I get to put cool thiongs on the comp credit card. its really fun
wow thats great. i hope the kids are happy with them, especially the girl with the egg obsession. that sounds like the greatest gift for her. now she can actaully "hatch" an egg. the shirts sounds cool. --- and great new for me...no inspection this saturday. he came to his senses after listening to everyone complain about not sleeping and havign no time to study for finals. yay!1
woooohoooooo that's great now you don't have to clean and you can study...and play on here I'm glad he was able to see things in a reasonable way.
well, i don't know about coming on here....unless i finish up my research paper, then i won't be on here at all the entire weekend. but yea, it was good he saw what was reasonable. i just wanna get out of here...to go anywhere - anywhere but here.
yeppers for sure for sure come when the weather is warm and with a friends driver's license and we shall eat cookies and pretend to know how to surf
only problem...i dont' look like any of my friends and most of them arent' 21 yet either, i'm kinda one of the oldest out of us.
hmmmmmm well then it sounds like we will have to find an 18 and up place and sneak you drinks...that could be fun breaking the law breaking the law breaking the law
i'm down for breaking the law...i'm not afraid to get another Minor consuming Alcohol type charge...but i do turn 21 in april....
