Do you deserve to be happy?

{{{{{HUGS}}}}} Boogabaah...

 

i'm just a whiny baby.. i think i'm sick of myself too

 

I think somebody needs to be burped. She's fussy and gassy.

 

Well Boogabaah, I'm not sick of you, and I'm sure there are plenty others here who aren't sick of you either. So vent all you want.

 

i've said it a million times before.. life is just not what i expected it to be at 29


i feel so.. out of touch with "normal" people.. it's making me all confused in the head.. i can't read signals anymore.. people lie and i just believe it

just not where i want to be.. i feel like i want to run away.. but i have no where to run to.. it'll all still be there with me anyways

 

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better...I'm sorry you're feeling this way. But you know, I still think you're a dang good person and a wonderful mama, and I have a lot of respect and admiration for you.

 

I am happy almost all of the time, and its a reason for it: I study music, I have much money, I live in my own appartment and I have great friends

The bad thing about this is that it can only go downwards now :&

 

thanks.. beginning to think maybe i'm depressed, i don't want to go see a doctor.. because they'll only give me meds to take.. and well i just won't take them.


i'm not happy at home.. not happy at work.. and things that do make me happy.. soon start to turn to shit

i'm so confused as to what went wrong.. and when? i feel shitty that i have no one to talk to.. and here i am online trying to .. i don't know, get some help?


maybe i'm just bored with myself and my life

 

"The bad thing about this is that it can only go downwards now"

That's the biggest problem with happiness right there.

 

Well you've got a lot on your shoulders Boogabaah. It's really no wonder that you're feeling depressed right now.

I know you don't want to see a doctor because you don't want to be put on meds, and I totally understand and support that. But, maybe it wouldn't hurt to at least talk to professional, someone who might be able to help you work through these feelings without meds? Like if you told them upfront that you're not looking to be medicated but want help dealing with issues or emotions you're experiencing?

 

DAMN STRAIGHT. bravo, hillbillie.

 

i dont agree with HHB though i can see his point... it depends how given person is thinking "i deserve to be happy"- there are at least two angles at this...
sitting around weeping about "oh i deserve to be happy but im not, whoa is me"
is different then getting out of a funk and realizing "i owe it to myself to MAKE myself happy by working at it"

 

i probably dont deserve to be happy but i am. i suck at life, i havent ever done anything the way i was supposed to. but i still enjoy every moment and have a lot of love for the people in my life. but if someone didnt seserve to be happy, you would think that would make them unhappy.

 

happyness and deserving are probably less related even then apples and oranges, which are after all both fruit and both grow on trees.

what relates everything to everything else is the universe of probability. how some things can make other things more and less probable.

happiness is of course the biproduct of living as you personaly happen to believe in and 'feel right' with living. something few if any of us really even alow ourselves, let alone each other, to honestly and truely do.

what i don't think anyone deserves is the unhappyiness we all make for ourselves and each other by adamantly refusing to analyze objectively the kind of incentives the priorities we live by acutaly create.

if i COULD live utterly and completely alone, out in the woods, with just me, my toys, and all the little furry creatures, who i'd rather have tear me up then have to live with the unhappiness creating coerciveness of gratuitously pseudo-conventional human society, i could and would, be the happiest i have ever been in my life. indeed the few times i have been able to do just that were indeed and precisesly the times in which i were.

now there's nothing wrong with huggs and snuggles and scritchies either. just that even that ain't got all that much to do with happiness other then those rare and fleeting moments of satiated bliss.

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.../\...

 

do I deserve to be happy? probably not. am I happy? sometimes

 

I've finally in the resent days come to terms with the fact that damn it I am a good person and deserve happiness in every aspect of my life and I'm going to go out there and get it and not let a damn person/thing/my doubts get in the way of it.

 

right on, exactly

 

I have chosen to be ignorant. Ignorance is bliss.

So, I guess I deserve to be miserable or dead, but I am too dumb to be anything but happy.

YAY!

 

I deserve to live the rest of my life with a tattoo of something stupid across my forehead

 

I'd go with the BIC image in your sig...

Not that the image itself is stupid, but it sure would be if it were tatooed on your forehead.