so was this just a friendship or an attempted romance? if the latter, it could be the mention of drinking with another guy, although not necessarily. if the former, i couldn't imagine that having anything to do with it. could be any number of things. maybe he just didn't feel like you were hitting it off as much as you did.
good mood someone just offered 1200 bucks for my rotten old car that already saved me more gas money this winter than it cost me to buy it
i was falling for him. i know he was interested because we hung out (on the internet, i know..i know). every day for about 3 weeks. I was showing interest in his music, he recorded music and i listened to it on utube while chatting in his chat room with him. We never spoke romantically to each other, but, i could feel a vibe(if you want to call it that). he is younger than me, too. so.. i don't know. maybe he was just wanting something platonic from me and was feeling a stronger pull from me. I don't know. the thing is now, i want closure. i know that sounds dumb. i want to know the reason why he is out-of-the-blue not speaking to me. should i write him and ask him, or just let it go??
I swear if you poke me one more time........... My mood is unstable right now, perhaps some sleep might help. Going to work on that.
I guess relaxed head hurts though at my sisters house dad coming by to visit and drop me off at home latter bad weather coming our way. I asked him to bring me a couple brownies
Trying to relax from stress. I am having surgery soon and it will be the most dangerous of the surgeries that I am having in a life time. So I am scared. I am trying to make arrangements for the teenagers in case anything happens. At least the two boys are 18 and can handle being co signers of the lease. I am sorting through things and keeping myself busy. I am sure I will be fine. I am just a little scared.
I find it kind of funny... I find it kind of sad.... the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.