Chatgasm

It's easy. A contact lens is nothing compared to being wide awake while they sew 30+ sutures into your corneas and you get to feel every tug, your eye moving back and forth. Back and forth. Then the drugs wear off and those forceps pulling your eye wide open, you feel those clamps. You start to even feel the stitches being pulled through and the needle in your eye. And that bright light you stare into, in my right eye, was so bright that I'm now 2+ years moved on from this event and I still have, what I believe to be now, a permanent water mark and color discoloration, as if that light burnt part of my pupil or retna.

Green looks light blue. Blue looks green. Gold looks silver. Red becomes pink etc etc. luckily my left eye compensates and I don't notice until only my right is open.

When you put up with that shit twice, and this has been going on for 6 years or so now.

When the stitches are everything that gets caught in your eye attaches to a stitch and drys to your eye. Every. Single. Movement. Can be felt. Like a spec of dirt that cannot be wiped away because physically you cannot wipe it away or you tear your stitches out. And then come the stinging eye drops to prevent the mucus built up. And then the steroid drop. And then the anti inflammatory drop. All up to 7x a day each for the first months.

you put up with this for 24, 30 months until your has healed efficiently enough for the stitches to be removed. One by one. And you're awake again, having complete trust that the doctor behind the microscope sticking a sharp pair of tweezers into your eye knows what she is doing and has a steady hand. And the ouch. Ouch. Ouch. 3 stitches at a time, every week until they're out.

And then you're left with an astigmatism. You see a lasik doctor. He wants you to undergo refractive LASIK. How's this differ from normal lasik? Simple. They burn away your cornea with acid first. And they don't have a big window. 20 seconds of acid and 25 secs of lasik to reshape. And then your eye burns. It burns for days.

Then you're given a soft lens to protect the cells while they heal over your newly shaped cornea. And the cornea has no blood flow, it takes a long time and they take your lens out, and three hours later the cells on your cornea pull away and it literally feels like someone is tearing your eye out. It happened to me two times until they decided to keep that contact in for 3 months while it healed properly.

Yeah, you go through all that and you won't have a problem sticking a flimsy lens in your eye ball. You begin to thrive for it. Thrive to feel that lens in your eye because finally, it's correcting your vision after a decade or more of poor site.

And then, it gets stripped from you. =[

 

The gift of vision is enough to warrant all that tbh. My left was done first and I didn't hesitate for my right. I'll admit, it ain't pleasant whatsoever, but it's got to be done. And you just pucker up princess and get it done and get on with yer life.

I don't wish it on anyone, but if you ever have to go through it, you jump at the opportunity with all you've got, because your vision is precious.

 

Irm, I hope you can get it resolved.

I called a couple of companies and they recommend flooding the yard with water as it kills the live fleas and also larva. They said to repeat weekly for a month to also get the hatching eggs that may not drown at the start. One said he could spray but it would do very little unless done weekly.

Any other ideas?

I am going to take the animals to my ex's so they will be safe and I have almost all clear to in the house to be bombed.

Other than ripping my skin half the night because of being an idiot, life is good and Lace looks at me like I beat her from the spraying.

 

trying to kill the fleas in your yard makes you sound a bit crazy


just sayin

 

Irmi, I liked your post because I feel for what all you're going through...and have nothing but admiration for your courage in the face of all your eye stuff. I didn't like it because I like what you're going through.

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Mama and I did our grocery shopping today instead of tomorrow. Tomorrow we go to the orthopedic doctor to get her cast taken off and her wrist x-rayed. We'll see what will happen from there...hopefully a removable splint.

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Its too bad doctors don't offer a splint for the mind...I guess that's where my firecrackers come in.

Oh yeah, its time to make some. :chef:

 

Yeah i couldnt do all that either. I mean sure i can get a contact if i am drugged and/or strapped to a table its a bit different when someone else is doing it.

 

Hey spaceman was I talking to you at about 8 this morning as I have a feeling that is exactly what they guy thought but was not able to say it.

I concur as $600 for three treatments of the back yard is rather insane.

The guy who bombed the house is the one who said to use the water. He said it would work indoors as well but no one want to try that.

I am pleasantly surprised as I was afraid it would smell like off or raid or something but instead it smells citrus in the house.

Once the sun goes down I will put the sprinkler on the yard, if it does not kill them my grass and flowers will still love the drink.

 

Lol Lynn. I wouldn't have thought that you were "liking" the fact I had to go through all that. nobody should like that, if somebody does like that then... I wish bad things amongst them. Like the pumpkin man to steal their eyes!

It is why I love the Blackbird and Crow so much. I admire their eyes, they look out for me in my beliefs.

 

Me too. I take two meds, and I have to take like 5 different supplements, and I seem to forget at least one thing every day.

 

thankfully my <3 pill is twice a day and I almost never forget it.

 

My friend takes/has a script for pain pills

she has NEVER forgot to take her pills. lol

I should take a multi-vitamin or something, but I don't. OTC meds for pain and an occasional valium as needed ...OTC as needed for the most part.

V as available.

 

My <3 pill is every evening, and I often forget it xD

 

I'd look for something with Steinernema feltiae (it's a beneficial nematode) in it, to spread on the yard.

I buy Gnat Nix from the local hardware store to put on house plant soil when I bring the plants inside for the winter. It has Steinernema feltiae nematodes in it. They attack fungus gnat larvae , flea larvae, and other things.

 

^^ something like this:
http://m.homedepot.com/p/LADIES-IN-RED-Beneficial-Nematodes-for-Organic-Pest-Control-361/100655849

 

ive that granular stuff in the yard.. i dont know if it works. heck Im so filthy, even the fleas are grossed out by me..

 

i need more beers.

 

I mixed the dawn with water and put it on the hose sprayer thing.. Im not sure that killed the fleas, but the dawn makes em sticky and they drown.. it take a lot to drown a flea., but they are stuck down with soap it happens quicker.. didnt harm the grass either..

 

that home depot stuff sounds better than what the other guys suggested (which basically was like paying for rain)

 

Thanks to you all. I did some initial looking up for places around here that sell it and I think I might have to go to a plant nursery to get it. I only found one for grubs. I will go on Saturday and get some and treat the lawn. It is not a huge lawn so it should not be hard to do. If I can't get it I will try the soap and water as that works on a lot of bugs as well.

Mia turned 21 today, not sure where all those years went.

 

It's a strange feeling, isn't it Heather?