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dude, you're blowing my mind.

this Tom Jones is a dis ease. you're killing off all my heros !

 

my own fucking family called the cops on me after a heated conversation and I left the house to go back home to the crazy bitch.. WTF

I told the police about the Rm and all that and they understand and this and that throwing jokes FUCK YOU DUDE

fucking 3 cops show up cuff me and I refuse to get in the car... we talk bullshit for 1 hour and they let me go.. they know whats going on with this roommate and shit... seriously wtf... cops know I got guns in my car, told them they unloaded, they just question...

so fucking ;osdh;fhasd

so fucking livid right now

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RM1avmMR84U&sns=em"]Tom Jones & Janis Joplin - Raise Your Hand (1969) - YouTube

 

fuck I cant stop shaking..

 

suicide is the only way out for me in this life

 

i retract my earlier statement, that's so fucked

 

Just Because You Made The Mistake Of Taking In A Bad Roomate....???

Kick The Loser To The Kerb And Get On With Your Life....



Cheers Glen.

 

cant just kick them out after admitting they paid rent

usually

 

Your roommate will be gone soon broony patience :grouphug:

 

sorry to hear broony.

it sucks to feel as if you have little control - as that is what the goal of cops is. and often the 'goal' of life - to be working against you. at least that is how i often feel, even though i know life is all a recreation of me.

i'm feeling out of control in a lot of things my self. my plan is to be saving money and gtfo of this place.

i thought that coming to colorado would alleviate a lot of my stress/worries. i have found that they come back in different ways - stress levels will always be the same if you allow yourself to be stressed at all.

mostly money for me. money and mobility. i have little of either. mobility in the sense of social mobility, physical mobility, mobility in anonymity.

bleh...i've been feeling like making art, but i stop and question myself too much. or feel too incomplete in my own rights to continue art-ing.

i really am just seeking connection with the right-minded peoples.
i am realizing a lot lately. i seem to attract people with dreams but no motivation, or no dreams and motivation to do anything but something productive.

friends are like the stress statement - i keep attracting the same friends in my life that i become unhappy with - or bored with. maybe this is telling more to myself - that i'm not a good friend or that i run through people...i just feel different constantly. not different than others, but different than myself previously in time.


life is interesting.

i've been losing a lot of things lately, and it makes me feel less and less attached to most things - not just material things - and i am wondering more and more about the way i present myself.

i believe that i am fundamentally good, but i know that i am perceived in ways that are categorically not myself.

i'm also realizing - with the loss of my things, art, and projections of my self - that most of what i do and what i am is disposable and, specifically in art, mean more when i do not have possession over them.

suicide is taking control of life in a negative impacting way.
i'm still out on whether or not it can be a good decision - i've thought about killing myself several times a year since age 13

 

thankfully the crazy one is not here, she moved most of her shit out, so im home alone tonight... I think... pretty sure.. thankfully I have weed, probably gonna smoke it all but a bowl tomorrow, wake up tomorrow and go work then..

get

some

hookers

I wish

 

And How Much Of "Your" Shit Has She Stolen....???



Cheers Glen.

 

i miss my cat

 

she has not stolen anything GLEN, I don't believe she would

 

What Happened To It....???



Cheers Glen.

 

Goodnightalive, Broony! Sounds you are going through what I like to call character building (never a fun process)...this too shall pass...

but its hell in the meantime...

You ought to be able to count on family not to compound problems. Hate to hear about all this. I think we are living in strange times.

 

Purp :grouphug:
where's your kitty?

:sifone: have a smoke.

 

http://www.comedycentral.com/video-clips/al8qfi/crank-yankers-placing-a-personal

 

my god my sister is dumb...
She's constantly meeting guys on the internet. they end up being weird in one way or another. they all last only a couple months, they buy her all kinds of stuff, they "love" each other. sometimes she tries to get pregnant. and then she moves on!
by the way- she's married. her husband is a soldier in germany. she still expects to be paid for all the money she was supposed to get had things worked out. BUT SHE'S NOT A REAL SOLDIERS WIFE. drives me fucking nuts.
This current guy? Has a domestic violence charge. Is on house arrest. My dad forbid her to see him. She still is of course. She's claiming to live with him but where is all of her shit? IN MY HOUSE. And my mom and I are stuck with my dad who is giving us the silent treatment like it's our fault she a dumb fucking ****.
They're gonna let her come right back here when this guy is gone. So she can sit around and eat and take up space.

 

Ancient Chinese Proverb:

Don't worry, Be Hippy.

:daisy: