At an all time low (depression and feeling of pointlessness)

go swim in the ice cold sea

always works for me

 

newreality, i feel you 100% and am currently in the same place

 

the best exercise for pretty much anyone who really does not want to exercise is walking, be it on your own lot in a square or in the woods or in a park or on a treadmill or whatever. running and full-on exercise routines (however difficult, or not) generally only serve to deter these people from exercising in the first place, and generally aren't even necessary, again, in the first place.

i can sympathize with a lot of what's been said here. a problem i've found in my past struggles for happiness is that we don't live in societies that bend much for those who have a desire to truly use their brains. "There is in every madman a misunderstood genius whose idea, shining in his head, frightened people, and for whom delirium was the only solution to the strangulation that life had prepared for him. - Antonin Artaud, of Van Gogh

i had to shed my best friend, my brother and my parents as they all have bad values or none and all, are stagnant in thought and perpetuate mediocrity, depression and guilt. best moments in life i feel are when we are able to find those with whom we can reciprocate and who can level with us in the deepest senses.

but there are more practical matters that sometimes need tending, such as physical health. nevertheless, quality social interaction is above all else... and sometimes drugs are worse than merely not being the answer....

 

Right, to be honest I don't know where to begin. I know many people say I know what you going through, well to the best of my knoledege I do and I am. I found that I never get a connection between people like I assume others do. I finding that life is, quite sadly, pointless. Nothing we ever do will have much affect on anything and to make things worse I have become a fictional caracter leading a pointless life. And no i do have a loving family and great friends but yet something is still missing. so far this is what I have been able to do about this condition.

First of all you said that you haven't felt happy since you were a kid, same here, only reasoning behind that I could find is in when you were a kid life could still be anything you wanted it to be. Yet as you grew older limitations were imposed upon your perception of reality. Then our isolation between people I thnk is that they have yet to repose how futile everything is. That why I often have to force myself to late at my friends jokes. When you tried LSD you could finally minipulate your reality again making life once again seem tolerable, why however it didn't work again is beyond me. My poison of choice was alcohol, but soon the effects began to fade and te freedom got less intence I began drinking and smoke, which even now I continue to do. But again these are other forms of minipulating reality or at least an escape from it.
When alcohol stopped working I moved away just so I could pretend that it was because my physical distance I had such mental solitude however it's not working. So all in all I have no good solutions however what keeps me sane yet teetering on the edge of insanity is that I try ways to give my life prepped inorder to make my existence bareable. So if you find your condition getting worse try to find perpose to make it worth while. If you find a solution let me know.
Oh, about the excersise thing I worked 10hr days while working in construction and it didn't help me, but maybe it'll help you. Good luck.

 

here. i'll provide a possible point to your existance. whatever you experience in your life and however way you deal with those experiences works to improve the human species. it all gets recorded in and by the human collective unconscious and used by the human gestalt. even your present depressed state of being is useful information and your quest and eventual success at having discovered your version of the expression of satisfactory (or even excellent) Selfhood will be very useful information indeed. thank you for all your intellectual studies and emotional experimentations. keep up the good work!

 

Me, I would have begun by noticing that the original post was Oct 24, 2008, and that the last post before yours was Nov 8, 2008.

 

ROFL I know right.

I took to this thread because it seemed like something I've dealt with in the past, was gonna just check it out. Saw it was a lot to take in, then saw the date. If it were within the past weeks I would have been far more curious. Hope it worked out for this person though.

 

LOL oops! i didn't notice the dates. lol

 

Me too. Although if it did, it would likely really suck to have this brought back up again.

 

I'm so there right now. Not sad, just pessimistic about life and myself. I'm not sure that I care that much to see a therapist though. *shrug*