Arguments

Me? As usual, things were looking up including my physical and mental health, I shot the moon, set myself up for challenges far to difficult to handle, suffered a lot and became shocked and overwhelmed by my emotions, sank into old patterns of fear, avoidance and depression and spent the first half of the year feeling helpless and numb.

I'm only just beginning to rectify the situation, and so far succeeding. Part of the problem has been existential. I honestly feel, as Camus puts it, like I have come to the absolute limit of knowledge. I have been sitting at the end of that terrifying desert of the mind, too shaken to go forth into it, yet too aware to turn back. I feel like this has perhaps been a necessary hiatus, a period in which to mourn the loss of my faith in anything. The grief is starting to lift now and I feel ready to make slow, mindful and deeply personal steps across the sand, avoiding both impulsion and compulsion where possible.

Or so it appears. I feel it necessary to always second guess myself. I have a habit for delusion. Anyway, at any rate I am finally acting (moving, making changes, branching out, socialising) and that includes closely observing my own behaviour and moderating it with both a firm and soft hand. Today, I feel like I let impulsion get the better of me, meh there is always later.

I don't know. I think I might be full of shit. I just don't know. I certainly read too much, and indulge far too much in romanticising my own situation.

Either way, I'm acting. And no matter what happens, I seem to get more chilled out all the time.

 

yes most of the times i am, but only if i have knowledge about the subject i am arguing. But i think even in cases when i am not really knowledgable i am capable of arguing if i have the desire.

 

i've been called argumentative a couple times. not a ton, but a couple. i dunno...i guess i go through periods of time where i kinda give a shit about the state of the world or whatnot and get into arguments occasionally about it. i dunno, lately i've been somewhat reevaluating some of my opinions and have come to the conclusion that if you get into a passionate argument, you sometimes fail to see the other point of view...which you might still not agree with, however, there might be some points the other side of the line has that you don't agree with simply because you don't agree with the overall stance. anyway, yeah...so i've been reevaluating my opinions lately, trying to sort of see things from different points of view. and i've gotta say...if you think about things enough...you can really lose your opinions. at a certain point when both sides stack up a mile high, it's hard to draw any sort of logical stance...i dunno, maybe if i put some serious effort into sitting down weighing the facts or something i might be able to draw conclusion using logic. but yeah...

i got high tonight. lol

 

No. I really really hate to argue.

You've probably seen me do it a few times on here, but that's only if it's something I really care about... Or if someone insults me or gives me a --> when I think I'm right.

Usually I'll argue for 3 posts then not reply, or say something like, "We're obviously not going to agree " or... On the rare occasion you'll see "Oh yeah, you're right :cheers2:".

 

that.

I usually TRY to see both sides of things.

 

i can be. but only if it's something i do care about. if i dont care, i would just lose the arguement so i never bother to begin with.
its different on the net though. people can't punch me here.

 

I like to frustrate dumb people, if that counts.

 

when i can be bothered, i'll argue with people just for shits and giggles. i'll even argue points i have no belief in.

at work, people argue about taking the trash out off the boat and too the dumpster...fuck arguing about it, i'll just do it so i don't have to do actual work on the boat and i get to milk the time for all its worth - possibly sparking up a bowl before heading back to boat as well.

sometimes its fun to just piss people off

 

No, I'm not argumentive for the most part. I will say my piece and if someone doesn't agree with me, I'm not going to waste my time trying to convince them over and over otherwise, because I know I'm right anyway, and that's all that counts.

 

Good for you. Persist. I do the romanticising bit too.

 

I'm gonna remember that one.