Anorexics

Move over Michale Phelps... we have a new backpeddeling champion of the world!

 

Wow. Anorexia is an extremely complicated mental illness that has nothing to do with being fat, or skinny. At least those aren't the real reasons. What people have to understand is that yes, it's about control for some people, and yes, it's about perfection for some people, but it can't really be fully understood by a person who doesn't have anorexia. Anorexia makes you insane. It replaces realistic goals with unachievable ones and spins your mind in circles trying to get there. It doesn't matter how hard you try, you will always fall short of reaching the goal. The feeling of resisting and restricting food gives you an indescribable feeling of accomplishment, one unlike any other in the world. That is where people don't understand the illness. You literally become crazy and obtain feelings of euphoria from your food and exercise "accomplishments". It all boils down to the real reasons why you started becoming obsessed with food and it is different for every person. But basically, you're doing something physical to fix something internal, and it doesn't ever work. I can't believe people can be so insensitive to people with any mental illness at all. It's not their fault, although there are conscious decisions made by the anorexic, its just another mental illness, however superficial the disease may seem to those who don't feel like spending the time to understand it.

 

I had an eating disorder, it wasn't pretty.

 

Rosie O'Donnell has an eating disorder. It's called forkitis- "use a fork, girl. NOT a forklift."

 

it's neither of those.
different people have different reasons for why they have anorexia. for me it was because it was the only thing i felt like i could control in my life at the time, growing up i was bullied. :/ that was four years ago

 

dammnn, people i understand your views, i thought similiar things when i was younger but there's a lot more to eating disorders than "omg, i feel fat, i'm not going to eat!", people with real eating disorders don't "do it" to fit in or some shit.

no, people suffer for all different types of reason. i think for me, it first started as a sort of escapism. i wasn't happy, i generally thought that getting into shape would make me happier, and it would help me get my life on track. so, i started making an effort exercising everyday, eating healthy, and went from being slightly overweight to a healthy weight. i felt good! not for attention, i didn't care what other people thought about how i looked, fuck them!, i just felt better and in more control of my life.


i just got sucked into it.. started cutting down more and more of my calorie intake, became completely obsessed with counting calories and exercising. i remember bunking off school to go to the gym.. i just felt so guilty and awful if i didn't. everytime i ate i felt so bad and guilty, like i'd let myself down. all the bad things going on in life, i displaced onto food.

then i discovered making myself sick. then binging. then became addicted to it.. staying up all night, binging and purging. it was my life! i couldn't stop. when i ate, i was like a monster. my head was not in the right place at all. i wanted to die so badly, i wanted it to kill me.

i never, ever let on to other people though. it was a completely private thing. i remember people asking me, everytime i felt so ashamed. i'd always lie my ass off and cover it up by acting happy and wearing baggy clothes. if anyone found out i would be so ashamed. i never wanted sympathy, and i still don't. i do feel bad for wasting food on binging and purging, when people can't afford to eat. i really do. but it was always out of my own wages. last year i was homeless and just couch surfing around really. i had no money at all, had to go hungry because i couldn't afford to eat.. but still, when i got food, if i felt too full i'd make myself sick.

i don't know, i'm rambling.. just, you shouldn't judge people for having mental disorders. people with eating disorders are not happy people, they are so fragile and in their own world of self distruction.

Rugor, it's great you enjoy being able to eat well, are happy and feel great. but for others it's not that easy!

anorexic people are not selfish, or fools, or attention seekers. they are troubled people.

sorry this is so long.

 

i think every point of view on this issue has been represented here.

closing it before it turns into more of a fight.