3 things you did today

Oooh, I missed skins And thanks for thinking I'm a horrible person

 

What? Don't be ridiculous, we know better.. it's the arse that failed you that deserves a good smacking! Preferably with some sort of sharp object.

 

yeah, but hey.

 

Oh fer goodness sake, it's not your fault.. it's way out of line cause nowhere in the D of E rules does it say you have to be Little Miss Popularity to pass it!

 

Realised EXACTLY what i want to happen, where i want to go from here, how i need to get there. Itll take patience and hard work, obviously, but its still do-able! Hope isnt lost...it was just delayed a little

Played indoor football semi naked (because the heating was on full blast to dry clothes) with a beachball we got free with our hoover, Henry. Its yellow and has Henry faces all over it Narrowly avoided breaking things several times and fell over a lot

Daydreamed about how life could be, and getting the parts of myself that went missing back

 

I've done a lot already:

1) Went shopping and bought loads of fruit in attempt to feel less guilty about the chocolate yesterday. Was back by 0930
2) Had a shower, a nice breakfast and saw I have 3hrs to relax
3) Paniced because I need to phone payroll and fill in my supervision forms, which I have avoided to the very last minute.

 

1.Decided I 'coudln't face' Ethics this morning and fell asleep on the settee sleeping through second lesson. When I woke up I truly did feel rough

 

1 As I said yesterday, I went to see my father. I walked from Oxford Street to Queensway, where I met my old man. The old man in Whiteleys with a large sombrero hat and a brown overcoat. Looks around 64 and pure Turkce. He is my Dad who works at the Jewellers in Whiteleys. Just outside Marks and Spencer. I felt kind of guilty when he gave me the last ten pound note he had. How I look forward to Summer, then together we can start selling icecream. I caught the bus from Paddington station. I went to the loo first and noticed yet another Great Western pulled up alongside platform. Only this time, there was no display of next departure. It was deathly quiet. Just the whispery echoes of passengers on the other side of the station.
Took 436 back to Lewisham and went to Tesco. Got some food for the week.

2) I woke up this morning after having two bizarre dreams. One being in prison and they were doing a raid on sleeping prisoners. Apparently milk had gone missing. I waited for my room to be raided next. I heard two knocks, but nothing more. I woke up. I then fell back to sleep and suddenly I was in my apartment. my neighbour, Satan's Daughter was over on my side of the balcony. She put up this net which seemed to attract birds. I suddenly saw a magpie flying into my flat, then on the floor, tiny chicklings. I let the big bird fly away by launching it into the air. I then let one chickling out, dropped it, it flew away. I then did the same to the next chickling, it simply plummetted to the ground. I then found myself in my t shirt, all my scars visible to the world. In my road I saw a massive crash. A bus and a car. Therre was glass everywhere. Also there were policemen swanning about all regally and official like. I awoke. My stomach was playing up. I feel like I have high acid indigestion. Who wouldn't after eating two bars of chocolate, six packets of crisps and three glasses of cola?

3) I had a bath after I felt smelly. I then walked down the road. The sun is shining, could be another glorious day. Went to probation. Gave her the gift of the gab, the rundown of my life's torment. I have a feeling like every other day; I wish I hadn't woken up. I wish I died in my sleep. Now I am at library. Whilst I type, I have some person blowing nose like a trumpet. They are just being brass.

Additional: Eh Eh Eh!

 

Read the above as I'm lazy and now have a valid reason not be at school. wooo.

 

1.Woke up later than planned
2. failed to do the work I wanted to do.. will do it later, promise
3. Came on here cause I have an hour before I have to leave for uni

 

2.Recommendedv a 14 year old some psy-trance an got a bit sucked into a 10 minute shpongle video on youtube.

 

Went for a lovely walk in the SUNSHINE and spotted some beautiful butterflies and sweet little bluetit while i nicked the kiddy swing

Daydreamed there and let my plan become clearer in my mind

 

1) Time of the week where yet again, I crawl out of my bed and put on my same tearstained clothes, the same bloodstained t shirt, the same jeans, the same shoes, the same costume of woe. I had a dream about my Dad last night. He seemed interested in renting a video from Lewisham library. I gave him a hug and for the first time we laughed together. It seemed strangely new, but perhaps this dream signified an inner yearning for peace with Dad. Despite his flaws, he is the only Dad I have(apart from the Almighty Father of course). I walked down Suburban streets toward the jobcentre. I could feel the air of defeat and the smell of depression. I could see other people together, but as I walked past a car window, the reflection on showed me as a single man. Before I left for the jobcentre, I could hear the bloody neighbour, you know Satan's daughter who should be at school, but is quite happy to listen to garage all day long in her little spoilt bedroom. Am I missing something here? Oh well, such is life.

2) When I got to the jobcentre, I could still feel the air of defeat, but there was a smell of disinfectant that had been scrubbed over pine wood flooring. The same depressed clients, the same apathetic jobcentre staff, swanning about the place as though they owned the Ritz. As long as they are not unemployed (one of us), everything is tickety boo. But once they find themselves out of work, it is by a miracle of God, that their eyes are opened wider than ever to the real issues facing young people under Labour.
I signed on, knowing that in a few days, I will be getting some of your hard earned cash. Someday I will repay society. Having said that I have made contributions to the tax system for years. The situation I face each day is like being dead before I lived. As they say, The Good die young.

3) I passed the Rising Sun pub in Catford. It has been closed for many years due to police uncovering a terror cell network in its basement. Plus the dogs found lots of drugs this side of Marrakesh. I checked out some freezers across the road. 150, 70, 75, 60 quid range. I left with nothing.


Additional: True, it is Sunny and beautiful outside with bluetits gracing the skies like a dove of peace. Where butterflies rest gently on a bed of nettles to lay their eggs. Where the sun reflects its rays across a strewny backwater. The flowing of the water that laps up against the shores of a topath. Perhaps later, we can all go out for a cycle ride

 

1) Had a very very busy day at work, decided to do a long day, felt good once my headache had gone. I finally found the pharmacy and felt proud of myself.
2) Realised it is only a week and a half to go!
3) Waited for a txt from a certain person but it never came, found out the beautiful man has a girlfriend, thought about how much I wanted to see someone and how I could really do with a hug.

 

1. Came back up to Lincoln
2. Didn't have to cook for the first time in ages
3. Wondered where everybody is

 

1. Drank coffee.
2. Had a go at tree ID in Stanmer Park with "Collins Complete British Trees" book.
3. Ate a pizza.

 

1.Went to school and had one sodding lesson
2.Met Fin in London
3.Got hopelessly lost chaing blue sky, tried some salvia, ate sandwiches and had a good (lost) time. although it wasn't in that order...

 

Oooh back in my day it was penny sweets-chocolate mice and those little paper and sherbert saucer things...tutz

 

Yesterday:

See Ny's post. Not sure if it was the salvia, but I had a bloody weird dream last night.

 

oo, strange. don't think I dreamt last night, well not so I remember anyway. Maybe the dream'll come back to me later.