3 things you did today

1. Read
2. Wrote
3. Ate

 

Ate sprouts
Argued with a chasier in Boots
Began the jobsearch once again

 

1) Phoned in sick, I felt horrible but bad at leaving them one staff down
2) Felt a bit better
3) Got my head together, told myself I can to it and planned to show them tomorrow that I am good at what I do.

 

1. Cycled
2. Revised
3. Bought loads of food just before supermarket closed.. nice and discounted

 

so far I have:

1) Been shopping for fruit and soya
2) Threw everything back on the floor despite spending hours picking it all up yesterday
3) Realised I hadn't done my 'homework', I haven't had homework in about 6 years! So this is what happens in a full time job.....

 

1. Spoke to Dave
2. Gave my last lecture for about 6 months
3. Sniffed my cat

 

Cheesing again eh?


1. Got fucked over by the time change.
2. Did some more holiday planning.
3. Tried not to laugh at my sister having a huge screaming fit over not being allowed to stay up to watch Skins.

 

Huh?

And huh???

 

today i:

1. woke up at 7:00
2. went to school until 12:00
3. went to the doctor.

 

1) Went back to work
2) Felt out of place at work again and had no-one to turn to for 'reflection'
3) Thought that maybe this isn't the place I should be working, then felt sad, then thought 'no, sod them' and then thought 'oh'.

 

Hmmm, this could take a while...
Friday
1. Sat on a mini bus to the brecon beacons
2. Night navigated in the dark (well, duh) and got very cheesed off and emotional
3. Got yelled by an angry Welsh female farmer because we went the wrong way and ended up at her barn.

Saturday
1. Got very, very, very, very, very, very, very wet and soggy in the tirrential downpour, soaked to the skin is NOT fun
2. Got moaned at for crying because I was wet freezing and couldn't reach my food for the above reasons.
3. Finally got to the wild campsite and pitched up whils it was still raining and went to bed at 6pm without food in a soggy sleeping bag.

Sunday
1. Had a REALLY lovely day walking in the sunshine
2. Got moaned at because I have a small stomach and like eating seeds
3. Camped on a surprise proper campsite with toilets and ate tomato soup mixed with rice, Yummy!

Monday
1. Did a really, really hard trek up 3 peaks and spent an hour walking back to the mini buses on a never ending path.
2. Had a veggie burger at the bottom, burger king chips at the services and bought a gaurdian. Oh and I was wearing a pink fleece pyjama top, tracksuit bottoms, socks and a headscarf thing, scary attire which caused a little girl to hide behind her mum's legs(!)
3. Had a bath and discovered I ahve 3 bruised vertebrae, a swollen ankle, an acne type rash on my shoulders, rubbed hips and numerous blisters.

and for all days 4. Saw sheep!

 

1. quit smoking
2. started again
3. saw Kris Kristofferson at the Dome concert hall, he was excellent, really moved me with his emotional lyrics and performance.

 

1) Dawn had not quite come, yet it was nearly twilight. The smell of sweet metal and oil, lingering on suburban air. Aah, the industrial revolution, the whirring mechanics of a damaged and somewhat mashed up psyche. So what became of your humble narrator, oh thy brothers?
I self harmed and took myself to A & E. Sat next to a few foreign speakers. Couldn't quite make out what language. But thought about Polski for some inane reason.
I was laying down looking up at the bright light. Just wishing that I was somehow looking down upon my own body. But no, I was ball and chained to this tired old body. The Doctor floated along and began sticking needle with anaesthetic into wound. It hurt slightly, but emotionally, I was comfortably numb.

2) After I was sown up, I waited for two and a half hours for a psychiatrist (Steve), to hear my plight. But he didn't materialise. Instead, I sat on a hard chair in a cubicle, facing a magnolia painted wall and a fake marble floor. Whilst listening to the common yelps, groans, snoring and profanities of the other patients. Somehow, my life has taken a tumble.

3) Only three years ago, I came to this very hospital. Eroded into a drama, while kinder slept blissfully unaware accept one. Then trojan warriors came and escorted me, to the guardians of freedom who cuffed my wrists and led me away into darkness. Three years later, I can see just how I fucked up my life. Perhaps when I am gone for good. May all who reside in the world, truly rejoice. But I forgive you all thy brothers who sit for days, reading my threads, posts and true insights into the world that I exist in. One of cold, isolation, loneliness and bitterness. I fear not death. But the process involved. I went to the library, shortly after seeing probation at 10am. I feel tired to the bone. I didn't sleep. I plan to stay awake to reset my body clock. And oh yes. We are now officially in British Summer Time.

 

1.got woken up at 8am by electricians, grrrr. Was barely able to move and watched the house being taken over by carnage. Watched daytime television, urgh.
2.Went food shopping and treated myself to corn nuts, ginger beer and grapes. Had a good time hobbling around in my crocs until my legs unseized up.
3.Made a really yummy quorn stifry, mmmm.

 

1.Counted the number of subjects that are going down the plughole.
2.Gasped audibly at the Reading lineup.
3.Ate a box of Frosties on the way home.
4. Felt a little ill.

 

2.Gasped audibly at the Reading lineup.

Ditto. My sister and I looked at all the festival line ups and got severely pissed off at our lack of funds for Reading.

 

Still, Shambala should be good, it's becoming the go-to for those unable to pay /out of time for Reading tickets.

 

Don't be TOO vocal about it, it's supposed to be a strictly close friend word of mouth things! Nah, more the merrier. Anyhoodly, it's not as crowded, there';s more to it and there's CLEAN BOGS!

 

It won't be crowded, just about 5 stoners. All the rich/non-stoners are ponsing off to Glasto or Reading.

 

1) Went to work and was abused and threatened by patients, no support from the other staff, in fact it all could have been avoided is a certain nurse did her job correctly.
2) Got a call and have to see the big manager, am thinking of looking for a new job already, so maybe will tell him tomorrow.
3) Realised this was heading along the lines of one of j0hn's posts, so stopped myself.