the white binder cont. from old journal days

I've noticed that a lot of people want to be like each other and do the same things as each other to fit in or be liked. I'm the opposite. I want to be different, so from now on all journal entries will be numbers instead of titles of feelings. What's in a title anyway? Are people trying to have their stuff read to feel acknowledged of their feelings? Or for some sort of number on their thread/post, etc. I don't get it. If I write it, I should know how I feel. If people read it and agree, good for them. I shouldn't have to title it an emotion. Besides, if people really do read this then whatever, let it be some sort of instinct of a favorite number and see if they relate to what is said in the numbered journal entry.
I also wonder why everyone wants to dress similar to each other. Hell I want to dress like a Jedi, a Hobbit or a Wizard. I don't feel like everyone else so why dress like everyone else year round? I think I might stand on a street corner with signs of some sort of wakening thoughts or encouragement dressed like a Jedi one of these days. I don't know, I'm just tired of being like everyone else.

instinct (n. in'stingkt; adj. in*stingkt') n. 1.) Biol. & Psychol. An innate tendency or response of a given species to act in ways that are essential to its existence, development, and preservation. 2.) A natural aptitude; knack - adj. Animated from within; alive.
Today I posted 3 new poems and decided to begin this journal. "Planet Suicide", "The Life Of The Heart", and "Love Is Like An Onion" are the poems I posted. I am now deciding to post 3 poems every 2 weeks (let's see how long that idea lasts). I have too much I want shared and the more I write the more I feel like sharing. Things get shuffled around in the forums frequently and wonder if my old poems will ever get read upon like I do to the older one's that become forgotten by people who just want to post and have their threads read. I don't understand that, if you have a passion for feelings, why not read all you can? There are many great poets in the poetry forum, too bad many don't want to discover them like I have or have tried. Years of poetry here to read.
I have also posted some protests. All I ever hear in them is complaining and not enough action being taken. The people protesting have the knowledge right in front of them but it's just bitching. So I might give up on that forum, I kind of now see it as protests=bitching. I wish it could be another way like protests=taking action to prevent the wrongs.
Well, time is running out. Back to the life of observation and instinctual behaviour until the next journal entry...okay, so I've gone back and changed some things in this entry. Sometimes things don't make sense in your mind after you read them and sometimes it takes time to realize your errors (ie. spelling). The computerized update malfunctioned the last time I updated this entry so the original entry was lost, can't remember all of what I put. (damn it!). When you live a life of instincts, things can change rapidly.