the white binder cont. from old journal days

My girlfriends brother left Wednesday. It's amazing how the atmosphere has changed. It's like we can breathe. The experience wasn't bad but I guess something weird was going on to make us feel this way afterwards. A strange thing happened... I woke up this morning with a book that was flung from my book shelf and landed perfectly on it's page end and I know the gf wouldn't do that. I wonder how many other strange occurences like this happen across the world...well what do I do from here since my time is free now...I guess I will have to wait and see...

I haven't been on in awhile. I've been helping my girlfriends brother out because he was having some trouble with life where we live. It's been about a month now since I've been on frequently. I've been playing video games mostly but the main influence is her brother. Influence...it's funny, it's a word that's an everyday word but it has new meaning for me now. He has a problem with the word "influence" and now he wants to run home to his mom because he doesn't want to work, provide for himself, wants mostly everything regarding money to be done for him. If he's "influenced" he doesn't do anything, I can't even mention the word around him or he gets upset. I take a closer look around me and us as humans and I can't find one thing that doesn't have some sort of effect (or otherwise put: influence) on life. It's strange, the word "effect" or "suggestion" is acceptable but not the word "influence" to him which all essentially mean the same thing. Kind of like "war" is acceptable to most but "murder" isn't. But they are the same thing when you think about it.
In any event, I expect now that he wants to run home to mom and her "lying" problems...when he leaves I expect to be posting more poetry and such here on the forums. I now see much more clearly that one thing or being can have such an influence to the point when you're living through it you don't even realize how badly effected you really are.

for those of you who do view my journal and don't read my first posting and also to keep the definition fresh in my mind, here is the definition of instinct:
instinct (n. in'stingkt; adj. in*stingkt') n. 1.) Biol. & Psychol. An innate tendency or response of a given species to act in ways that are essential to its existence, development, and preservation. 2.) A natural aptitude; knack - adj. Animated from within; alive.

"Creating reality with your thoughts is a fundamental ability of your consciousness. You are born with it, however it is not part of our education yet. Statistics on rich and successful people show that simply shifting their thinking was the major key responsible in changing their lives.

Manifesting your dreams does not depend on your education, on your ethnicity or heritage, and in no way is it determined by your environment. It is only the result of how and what you think!"

This was taken from a quantum theory site. In simpler terms quantum is the study/theory of possibilities. The documentary/movie "What the Bleep Do We Know" explains a lot of this well. If you haven't seen it I highly recommend it. We have the voice and intention, we have the power to make a great change. I say we should do it instead of intending to look away. I encourage any to look into quantum physics/mechanics/theory. It is a vast field that staggers the imagination and mind.

I've been attacked again for my point of views/intelligence and again I see the limited amount of responsibility and intelligence in some people with their actions. Calling names, anger, telling one's to commit suicide...now I seriously question that type of intelligence in some. Where does this type of attitude really get people? My protest of humankind was stating numbers, yes, duh, because it's in the numbers to make a change. The fact is, is that we are all responsible for the way things are. Anger breeds anger, hate breeds hate, war breeds war, violence breeds violence. The problem is that no where near enough can agree on anything really beneficial or because of greed and to conquer. It's sad, so maybe instead of attacking me to grow up or wake up and smell the roses, the people who say that should take their own advice. This is why I no longer protest, the stupidity of mankind just sickens me too much. Maybe the quick trigger would be better.

"Laughing and crying both happen when reason can go no further" - Ashleigh Brilliant

So I changed my idea on keeping all titles as numbers only. I figured I'd have a hard time remembering where exactly things are within my thoughts. Best to label it out.