Jimbee68's blog

Like I keep telling everyone in my life, first and foremost, I want all my medical consent restored to me. And I never want it ever taken away from me ever again.

Second on my list in priority is the car. My guardian will always make sure I have one, or face the legal penalties. One with all the features I may need, now that I am permanently damage. Especially with the complications that will bring with my Cerebral Palsy. Along with the fact I was never given the status of Cerebral Palsy and given no special considerations or accommodations for that. And I want that right restored immediately. I want to have the same rights of driving in Michigan that everyone else has, because I clearly don't seem to have that. I don't know the details, there's no way I could. I know the sick joke that I look to mentally handicapped to drive began by 1995, if not before. (The whole sick joke that I looked very handicapped to other people began in that hospital in Dearborn in 1988 or 9.) Then around 2004 or 5, after everyone in my life drove me to suicide again, they started threatening me that they would take away my car. Even though I had every right to drive and was an excellent driver with good insurance. Good insurance living in a city where most people don't even have that, I learned just this year. Threatening I mean, because that's what it was. A clever new threat. But it was a horrible, violent threat to be sure. And I will keep repeating that in every new situation too, so everyone around me always knows. But I want whatever limit of consent I have that makes taking my car away so easy restored. Everyone was talking about it around 2005. So that leads me to believe I had limited consent by then. But I don't know. I'll never know for sure.

And I want my freedom of contract restored to me. When I enter contracts, I think they are valid contracts but they are not. That is why that board could drop me so easily in 2022. I thought I have a binding contract with them and they could never get away with that. The fact of the matter is I had no such thing. They were just part of the deception. That is outrageous. Like I said, we should always be able to trust the integrity of our legal system. Sworn affidavits should always be real, court proceeding should never be play-acted and contracts should never be make-believe. Because where would that logic end? For someone who didn't know what was even going on in their life while that was the case. I want that right restored to me immediately and at once.

Of course everyone in my life will have to somehow prove to me that that has all been done. And they'll never be able to do that, because I'll never trust them. They are all not to be trusted by anyone, and they are capable of great evil too, all of them. So I don't know how they could prove it to me. And so far they haven't even tried once. I just know I will probably stop signing those fake consent forms. With my next medical proceedure I have scheduled this year, for sure. I don't know when I start signing them. Probably never I guess. But like I said about things like the suicide one, whose fault is that?

It's still very weird, those three eternal talking points. The car thing, and how I was treated unfairly and even unjustly for decades with that. How I clearly driven to thoughts of and feeling I had to plan suicide. At least since childhood like I said. And people knew they were doing that. Again, how could they not? And my Cerebral Palsy, obvious at least since I could walk. The comments I heard people say since I could walk make it obvious at least some people knew. I seem to have really caught someone, though I still don't know who (apparently more than one group), in flagrante delicto with all of that. I'm even not only getting progress done by bringing up all of those, but the progress is so great even I can see it now. But I won't stop bringing up those three points. Everywhere I go, every place I am, and in every new situation to be sure.

And I know someone will try to talk me out of bringing them up some day. Fat chance. They may even try to coerce me. Again, fat chance. Then after psychology and reverse psychology fail, they may try to use reverse reverse psychology. Like of like Commander Data in Peak Performance in July 1989. But again, I'll never let them talk me out of. And I'll never drop the issue ever.

So just to repeat, and to make clear, there was no other reason why attempted suicide twice. There was no other reason why thought of it on and off and seriously contemplated it at times, since July 1988 like I said. It was due to the extreme mental abuse I was receiving. There was no other reason, there will never be any other reason. I am not suicidal by nature. I have always been the opposite. With a strong will to live and the ability to find happiness and enjoyment in almost every situation. And there is only one solution to the abuse ever leading to that again. It is that the abuse stop at once and all the people responsible are held accountable for their actions, and never allowed to do it again. That will always be my position. And also, if it seems like I am not being abused in the future, or if others think I am not because there are no signs of it, that will never be true, and that seems to be the case again. It will just be that the abuse has been well-hidden. Or like I've said, because it has taken some clever new form. But that will always be the reason, there will never be another.

So I better not be hospitalized ever again for that, like I was in 1989 and 2004, in a psychiatric unit for that. Or have my rights limited because of it, because I am morally weak that I won't accept people's abuse. Like that psychiatrist in that hospital in Dearborn told me in 1989. Because that will be the only reason, and it will just need to be uncovered. And I will be carefully collecting dates and other information and forms of evidence right now just in case. I hope that I won't ever end up in the emergency room again because of all those people. But if I end up in any of those other places or situations I just described, that will be the first thing I say and the first thing I demand. Just to make clear.

Just to be clear my main concern now is whether I have something serious wrong with me that needs attention now. Because that one doctor let slip that either my kidneys may be failing or that I am at risk for that. He didn't make clear what. And you do realize now that that is part of my legal claim now. My legal claim against that court, my claim against all my doctors, my claim against the mental health authority in Michigan, my claim against former psychiatrist and the corporation he was affiliated with, my claim against all the long list of people who mentally abused me over the years, my claim against legal guardian too. Misconduct in office, and any legal or civil action that applies. I charge all of that and want charges filed on all of that immediately. And I will include that now when I get that letter notarized for that man at the judicial tenure commission too. Either it's an emergency, or at least it is a matter that needs to be treated now. And I demand action immediately. Before this turns into a negligent homicide or case of manslaughter for all the people I just mentioned. My doctor was very evasive yesterday, clearly like he was hiding something and trying to hide the harmful or criminal things he and those others I just mentioned did.

I also think I have the right to know how much damage was done to my feet and hands, what exactly is even wrong, if it will get worse and if it's treatable. He was very evasive about that too yesterday. Saying silly things that were unlikely or untrue, and even contradicting himself at times. Like I've said before, now is the time when damage to my body and more harm can be avoided. And for that reason I demand action be taken immediately. Certainly by the end of the year. But it's getting ridiculous setting deadlines for this secret guardianship nonsense and game of pretend to end. I want it all to end right now.

There's more with driving, the bathroom and Detroit in general. All three of those things and how they became an important medical and legal issue, and form of abuse, around 1990 as I've said. Around 1990-3, my urinary problems were very pronounced. Even by 1994 or 5 I remember, I'd stand in front of a urinal and nothing would come out. And so I spent a long time in bathrooms on average. That, and the fact I take a very long time to clean up after #2. Literally at least 15-20 wipes under the best of circumstances. (Which has a tendency to clog toilets too you know. Making me even more unpopular in people's public restrooms. FWIW, now I try to wait till home for that. But my colitis did flair up. In 1993 and around 1998. And not to get graphic, but I am going #2 more now for some reason. And around 10-15 years ago I was losing control of #2. Which last one has gotten better now though, for some reason.) But around 1990 or 1, this form of psychological abuse began of denying me access to strategic bathrooms. Like I said, I thought at time some people just don't understand. People with medical problems like colitis, frequent urination, being confined to a wheelchair, loss of control problems, etc. need almost unlimited access to bathrooms. And many businesses don't provide them, and some of them become very obnoxious about them when people use them often, spend a long time in there or make a mess. And like I said, that c. 1990 form of abuse seemed to start when I feared someone would deny me all access to bathrooms some day. Maybe on the road, or I vaguely recall something about mental hospitals like Northville. And that is when that all began for some reason. But that is actually a good point by itself if I didn't have a car. Walking around my neighborhood in search or restrooms, especially late into the evening after 9 PM and late at night, waiting for buses and missing them for that reason, dirty and unsafe bathrooms. And now some of the businesses in Detroit like restaurants have closed their bathrooms for good. They tell me because patrons abuse the privilege. I tell them that the MI board of health requires restaurants provide bathrooms. But they tell me they just don't care. And now my guardian and my neighbors are still thinking of that, taking away my car. I know they are still thinking of that, because they'll always be thinking about that. It has something to do with taking away the rights of the disabled and mentally ill (and BTW, I still demand what I just said about that be investigated thoroughly). But like my mother told me when I was carjacked and had a large caliber gun jabbed in my back in the Summer of 1991, that is all the more reason to consider doing absolutely nothing in Detroit. And then in 2005 the police, my doctor, my family even, started saying, well maybe you should lose your car, even though you are an excellent driver with a license. Just to make the police, your neighbors and your psychiatrist feel better, was all I was told. I think like my friend across street once told me was closer to the truth. The less I do in Detroit the better. Don't even mail a letter here, like he said.

Anyways like I've been telling people, and read this carefully so there is no misunderstanding. This is an official demand of mine. I think my guardian should spend at least one night in a jail cell for contempt of court. (And I told you, the next time one of my neighbors claims that a fellow neighbor who is minding their own business and doing nothing wrong should not be driving, all while they have no insurance and a suspended license, I think they should receive a warning. And then jail time after that. I think that should the rule in Detroit and Michigan. But I demand it as part of my legal case at least in my neighborhood.) Now I am sure my guardian would be sent to a nice one near him home in his affluent suburb. And I'm sure he'd fare better there than I would in one. Or in a mental hospital, or group home or wherever he was planning on sending me. Maybe even worse than that. Because the last Christmas I was at him house he play acting, in an obvious way this time, like he was racked with guilt over something, obviously to show me he had done or planned something horrible towards me, but wouldn't go into detail. But I think if we did this, just once like I said, that would solve everything. Because not only would he see we mean business, but so would everyone else in this situation. My doctors, all the other people in my life and the police and first responders. And, the police and first responders are protected by sovereign immunity. My guardian is not. And like I was telling that doctor yesterday, that would make my guardian serve as a good example to all of them and focus their mind on what is important here. That is what jailing for contempt of court is used for, I was just talking to another person the other day about. It is a psychological tool to show everyone in the situation that they are to stop what they are doing to the defendant or the victim of their abuse, and that the court is not playing around anymore. Or like my 2011 therapist added to that movie that ironically came out in 2004, paraphrasing Shakespeare now. Sometimes the quality of mercy IS strain'd. So anyways, people all my life have bullied and mentally abused me. And when I got them in trouble, they claimed I was being too cold-hearted and clinical about it. But in any event, that is my new legal demand. Focusing legal attention on the one person who did the worst the of the offenses like many in that situation, but is not protected by sovereign immunity, is called legal expediency. I already knew that word, and I looked it up. It is the correct term, and I will use it from now on with this new request.