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There's another troubling thing that my doctors may be lying to me about. In addition to clearly lying to me about my neuropathy. My neurologist says it doesn't even exist, which is clearly false and which my other doctors confirm is false. He also says he never said I have Cerebral Palsy. He clearly did in 2011, like I said. But there might be something troubling going on with my eye symptoms. I've had glaucoma for about the past 20 years. Under control with eye drops. But it was always kind of high. And like many of my medical problems, I am sure it was brought on by those unnecessary psychiatric drugs. But my eye doctor told me last time that my eye pressure is back to normal. I don't think that is true because when touch my eyes on the sides I see prominent blue spots. Plus they just seem to have the symptoms I have associated with my glaucoma. And my eyes feel weird now and are very dry sometimes. I was reading online recently a dryness feeling could be due to damage to the outside the eye too. I know in the past I already suspected my eye doctor was lying to me. 20 years ago even with what she said. I even told my primary physician about this then ironically. I was reading online that if eye pressure is under control but tends to be high there could be damage going on right at that moment. Damage to you peripheral vision and optic nerve. Sometimes more medicine, different medicine or more aggressive treatment is what is needed. And yet she keeps telling everything is fine and she sees no need for any of that. I don't have any other eye doctor, or really any doctor now, to go to. I'm slowing down now, I'm getting older, I'm preoccupied with all kinds of things. And I think my eye doctor is lying to me about losing my vision on top of that all. Since at least 20 years ago ironically, like I said. And if I lost my vision there is just no way I could live independently. I don't what I'd do. I certainly couldn't take buses. I have less feeling in my fingers, so braille is out of the question. I have problems with memory and attention, making getting around and mapping a room in my mind to get around very difficult. And certainly there is no way I could drive (although I can still drive just fine even at night now, which is reassuring). No way I could drive that way or live any kind of independent life free of a place like a Detroit group home or hospital or other place like that. And like I said, I think the court has been ordering my doctors to lie to me about my eye health at least since the Type 2 Diabetes and neuropathy began. I'm not going to let them get away with that. Or all those other people who took part and were fully complicit for what they did with the car and other things, like the police and Eric.

I am going try to call my eye doctor Monday and ask her about this. Why I still have the symptoms of high eye pressure if she claims everything has returned to normal and has never been better. This is very serious.

And like I've said although officially none of these things are true, my doctors have confirmed all of them. My doctors all freely admit Eric is my legal guardian and has been since 2011. There's no doubt about that because they have said it. But if you go to the Wayne County Probate Court website is does say that my case was adjudicated in 2011 and is now closed. Judge Milton Mack of Wayne County Probate Court told me that when I reached to them a couple of years ago. He also called my cousin Eric my brother, even though the information was right in front of him. But he and they know is a total lie. A lie that has been now exposed, and yet still continues. And Eric and the court still want me to play along for some reason. But I refuse to do that as I've said. I've been damaged, I've been harmed. And now something is very wrong with me and my future is very uncertain because of that, and all the abuse I have received up till now. And my former therapist freely admitted to me that there was a plot, an ill-conceived one he admits, by the police to take away my car even though I am a good driver with good insurance. Good driver with good insurance in a city where most people aren't, and many people don't bother to follow the rules or the law. And yet they focused on me. I think that all of that ended 2014 with that guard being killed at that pharmacy in my neighborhood. That was to be my drug store, even though I still don't know how they expected me to go to my psychiatrist, or really anything else, without a car. In 2014 people in my life started telling me, why don't you just stop going to that drug store. It's too dangerous, and you can drive. There's no need for it. But again in my life, it's hard to tell. Because the abuse continued long after that. The abuse that I looked too mentally handicapped to drive, that I have the secret status only of a normal person with full rights, and that I was going to lose that all soon. Like with that one doctor of mine who a couple of years ago was pretending like he thought certain groups shouldn't be driving. Even if they legally can and are good drivers.

I just texted Eric now about a letter I got in the mail from my insurance company. They are no longer covering any of my prescriptions at my pharmacy, starting January 1. If I got anything there it would be all out of pocket. And I take at least 10 medication, some of which are very important. Heart medicines and glaucoma eye drops my doctors told to never even skip a dose. And Eric is ignoring me totally now. He is not taking care of me and neglecting me. And I told him, I can live independently and take care of myself. Until I become a quadriplegic I guess. I just need a little help, I have always agreed. Right from the start with the trust 30 years ago. Before then, really. My parents were talking about the trust when I turned 18 forty years ago. And why is this all my fault? Why am I suffering because of all of this? What have I done? As I've told you all, I've done nothing. I've lived a spotless life. While other people around me did things like this. Making my life a living hell, trying to take away my car, threatening and psychologically abusing me, telling me I was a very bad person when I never even broke the law. And I am not imagining any of this. My doctors agree Eric is my guardian. They are obviously lying about some of my medical problems. My former therapist admits much of what I thought was going on really was. He admits with a look of disgust the car thing was an ill-conceived plan of the police.

Like I told Eric as I finished the text: "I still think legal and even criminal options might be the best thing in this situation. The situation is not getting better, it seems to be getting worse. And things like this are beginning to happen. You are not going to get away with this. None of you will as long as I am alive to see to it."

I was going to say about some secret plan that the courts in Michigan and the police have surrounding the mentally ill and the people who can't legally can't make decisions for themselves. Even if it was well-intentioned, it failed miserably in my case and almost led to disaster. And I think it probably did lead to disaster, and tragedy, in other cases. But even if it was well-intentioned, I have a way of looking at that. A chain is only as strong as its weakest link. A group of people, even a group of very decent and moral people, are only as decent and moral as their most evil member. And a plan that allows the police and courts to do things like that in secret and get away with it is only as good as its most lawless police precinct and worst and most corrupt court. If that makes any sense.

I just know I am going to spend the rest of my life exposing it. Exposing it and exposing what they did to me. And ending it too, whatever it takes.

And the all those people, including the police and the court, are involved in all of this. It doesn't matter if they started it or wrote the legislation or whatever for it. They are involved, they are complicit. And people like the police clearly never objected to this horrible system in Michigan that secretly hurts the most vulnerable, because they took it in a whole new direction, what they wanted done with it, with the car thing and me. Me and possibly others I have theorized for 20 years, as I've said. They hurt people, the hid what happened and what they did, people are damaged. And what was going to happen to me? With the damage that they were hiding from me? Was I going to become blind or crippled that way? All while they lied to me and told me everything was fine, I was imagining it all? No, not if I can help it. I am going to expose it all, I am going to expose them all and how they took part in it and supported it by keeping the secret and doing their own wrongful behavior thru it. And I don't care if things have changed with this system or if the original people involved have retired or moved on. The damage was done. The damage was done that this could happen, that it did happen. The damage to me is permanent and I am going to be dealing with it for the rest of my life. Dealing with it for the rest of my life all while I'll never know what is going on, what is wrong with me or if there is more damage. I'll never know when people are being honest and truthful with me. Because all the above think lying that hurts people and treats them like objects is all right. I am going to expose it all, and top of my list of demands will always be that they admit to it all. Admit to what they did to me, how they abused me and made my life a living hell for years, doing things like endangering me trying to take away my car. While my neighbors got away with abuse and murder. Admit to the damage that was done to me, the harm that was done, that they did it to others and that it is still going on. To our most vulnerable as I said. The handicapped, the mentally ill, our elderly. All while they take part and support that system. And in addition to taking responsibility for their actions and admitting to what they did, they are make sure I live the limited time they left with with a good quality of life. Always a car, whatever the cost. After the 20 years of abuse I went thru from them with that, like I've said. And everything else too. And I am going to spend what limited time I have left exposing them and making sure they take responsibility and face some justice, all of them. I may be old now. Old, damaged and alone, with nothing changed that I can see. But I may still have many years left in me. Don't count me out. Others have before, and they were always the ones who lost.