My story isn’t about love. Anyway, it’s kinda…love The 1st time he entered the gym room, I did not think he was my type. A couple days later, while walking along the corridor, I looked up and caught a strange guy’s eyes from a level above; I thought this guy is my type. A couple days later, while standing at the doorway, he walked down from 4th level and said “hi” to me. From that moment on, I know the two guys are actually one. I liked him partly because of his lovely confidence. So, I liked someone again after a while having no such feeling. Last year, I knew what love was. I felt in love with a local guy. At last, nothing happened; we didn’t even talk to each other once. A Friday afternoon, I was in the gym room when he came. I turned to him to say “hi” but he turned away. I was a little embarrassed. I couldn’t understand why he did that. My best female friend, who knows I am gay, told me maybe he didn’t remember who I was. It’s difficult to remember a foreign face and vice versa. Yup, maybe she’s right. A couple weeks later, going back from a canteen, I was behind him. Finally, bravely, I started a conversation with him. We talked for a while. A day after, at the gym room, I saw him and….didn’t speak a word to him…stupid me!!! I don’t know why I didn’t open my mouth, maybe I was so scared he might turn away again. Normally, in front of the ones I like, I become very shy and very stupid… I really don’t know if I like him. That sounds stupid but true. The thinking about him sometimes every strong, I even can’t focus on studying. Other time, I have no feeling for him. I really hate this mood of confusion. I wont go to the gym on Friday again in order not to see him there. I have enough confusion. I don’t want to let my feeling grow. I am so afraid that I may like him more and can’t do anything to help myself. That’s gonna hurt so much. Anyway, at this moment, I hope he likes me a just a little….He likes me, I guess… Sorry for my long and confusing post.
Well, the friend that I have had the longest, first started hanging out with me in first grade... I grew to love him, but, was always afraid to tell him; a girl took my fancy later that year as well. The girl moved, and my friend still doesn't know about the feelings I have towards him... It's difficult for me to not reveal them; he is strictly heterosexual and relates his orientation to physical sex. So, I wouldn't even have a chance to begin with...
i was standing at the doorway, he got up to his room, he saw me..and said "hello" to me. We had a short conversation.
i asked to view his webcam. He started talking to me first. We talked for many hours abt a situation im in. He gave me advices. He and I are so alike. A day later, we talked again. This time we talked for 9 hours. He told me he had AIDS and he just can be around for another 6 months. He told me he loved me. We continued talking about everything, esp abt sex. I asked him to told me abt his best sex. He told me his story. His story drived me crazy. I wished i was the guy who was with him coz i want him, i need him. But i dont wanna be the guy who was with him, coz that guy infected him with AIDS. I told him that his face was not my type. But now, that face i wont ever forget. Im so happy I had him. I wont ever regret i had a chance to talk to him. He is the man i ever want. I cant stand the fact that he could never be my man. I love him! I know that sounds crazy. Two people, who just talked to each other online only for 2 days, fall in love. But thats true. I do believe you are in love with me. I do believe I love you. You said goodbye to me, coz u did not want to hurt me. I wish you could believe that you did not hurt me. You made me happy. Iam affraid that I hurt you. I m a free thinker, but i'll pray that there is medicine for AIDS. I love you sexually, spiritally. I love everything abt you. I'll go on with my own life but i'll never forget you.
Aw, that's so touching... I, myself, carry a very deep attraction to both tranny boys and tranny girls; because, they can truly empathize with me...
