Your first bi experience: Afterglow? Guilt?

Fellows:

After you climaxed after your first experience with other male, how/what did you feel?

Excited at discovering an entirely new side to sex?

Did you (despite the intensity of your experience) instead, feel guilty, and SWORE you'd never again have sex with another male, fearing you might be gay?

Did you, on the other hand, discover a long-hidden "inner side" to your sexuality, and want.....and, yes, even CRAVE more sex with other males?

Am interested in hearing of your personal experiences/feelings regarding that very first time, and how you "contemplated" the situation afterwards?

I'm sure that, for many males (regardless of age) this might have been all a bit confusing, at least at first...........

 

If I climaxed, I wasn't aware of it and chances are that I didn't - I didn't climax or ejaculate until a week after my first experience. Was I excited by find a new side to sex? You're damned right I was! The third question is N/A for me because I didn't ask myself if I might be gay until I was 19 and even then, I realized it was a stupid question; and the next question gets a partial answer in that I wanted to suck more dick and feel it in my ass. Was it confusing? It was but that wasn't necessarily a bad thing because it made me go get answers to the questions that caused my confusion.

How did I contemplate the situation afterward? I had his cum in my belly and still had some between my butt cheeks and I needed to know how something that everyone sad was so bad feel so cotton-picking good. I was off and running the very next day to (a) find my answers and (b) have sex with any guy with a dick and if he had cum, so much the better.

See, you're assuming that guys are adults when they get turned on - and turned out - by a hard dick and, as such, you're asking adult questions that I can answer today... but couldn't answer sixty years ago and I was nine when my first experience took place.

 

I felt euphoric and surprised it actually happened. I really wanted more, but just headed out to run errands feeling very relaxed.

 

Strange and pleasantly surprized. My wife was unable to have sex and encouraged me to try with our friend. The choice was a logical one, so there was no guilt or confussion about trying it. Our friend had already seen me have one of my very large ejaculations, with my wife present. There was no sexual contact between us. It felt strange and a little awkward the first time we were about to something with each other. We took our cocks out, played with ourself and then started stroking each other. He told me to sit back and he leaned over , took my cock in his mouth and lavished it with his tongue , while jerking me. He licked the drouling precum and sucked and stroked me until I told him that I was going to cum if he kept it up. He was in a craze and went wild trying to take as much as he could , down his throat. When he was sucking on my swollen head, he was jerking my shaft hard and cupping my balls. I unleashed a well deserved , long awaited cum shot , filling his mouth . He swallowed most of it and had some dripping down the side of his mouth. It was one of the better blowjobs I had ever received and I was glad to have tried it. I knew my turn was at bat, but he had already shot his load from the excitement of sucking me.
It felt great and I was glad I let it happen. Since my wife knew what we were going to do, she started with the questions as soon as I got home. I told her that it was a very interesting experience and that he gave me good bj. She wanted to know how I liked doing it to him and when told her that he came in his underwear while sucking my cock she seemed more disappointed that I didn't suck him.
I really never had any quilt feelings about it., because of my wifes encouragement and logic. Her logic was "Lighten up, its just sex". There was nothing to be guilty about other then not being able to return the favor. My wife eliminated that guilt, when she invited him over and sat across from us, watchin on the end of her seat as I took his hard cock in my mouth for the first time. I might have felt weird if it was sneaky but the entire experinece was just that, an Experience. I have no desire to go out looking for cocks to suck, but if the situation presents itself, I know I can feel comfortable about doing it.

 

Back when I had my first experience, I only knew a person could be either gay or not....I had not heard of bi then. Even though I had many thoughts about wanting to suck a man, I had gone no farther than masturbating with a couple of high school friends when younger. When the opportunity did present itself, it was from an unexpected situation that allowed me to finally suck and swallow. We both were chemically enhanced from smoking two joints which heightened the experience for me. After I finished sucking him, he gave me a blowjob.

After he dropped me off at my house, I replayed that time over and over again in my head. There was a little guilt, mostly about how much I enjoyed it and did it mean I was gay. The next day, with a much clearer head, let me assess it again. I came to the realization that sucking his dick was tremendously exciting for me. So new and different and nothing like I thought it would be. I had imagined that cum was vile tasting and found out first hand that it wasn't. I did struggle with whether I was gay or straight until I came to the conclusion that while I craved sucking men I still loved sex with women.

I was surprised at how much my desire to suck and swallow has grown over the years, though, and wanting to take a submissive role during my time with men. Totally opposite of my 'regular' personality

 

"Chemically enhanced!" I'm gonna steal that!

 

And I forgot to mention that I had no guilty feelings; my biggest worry was my parents finding and taking the $50 he gave me to have sex with him. They would have assumed that I stole it and would have beaten me for stealing and lying so, yeah, I had other major concerns other than feeling guilty about what had just happened.

 

I had amazing afterglow my first time fucking another man's mouth. It was the most explosive orgasm of my life, and it left me breathless.

He patiently waited for me to recover, with my cock still in his mouth. When my breathing slowed down, he hugged me and suggested we take a shower together. Even after the shower, I still felt stoned from the experience.

I slept on his couch that night. We had breakfast together the next morning. I resumed my travels and never saw him again.

There was NO shame or guilt. It was a perfect first same-sex experience. I was very lucky.

 

I felt fantastic the first time and after, I never had any guilt. I wanted more and more, it almost didn't matter what the partner was. I just thought how stupid I was for not doing it sooner and not doing it with as many partners as possible.

 

My first time was when a man fucked me. He was stroking me while he did. My wife had used a dildo on me and said that I should try a real dick because it felt better. Man was she ever right. It was one of the best experiences I have ever had. Never felt guilty about it. Been doing it a lot since then. Sometimes I top and enjoy that also. I'm larger what my wife would like in her ass, so I'm glad to get to do it with a guy.

 

Mutual oral sex with other men took place for me in my mid-to-late 30's. My wife wasn't sucking my cock as often as I wanted her too, which led me to discover Craig's List Personals. OMG, it was like walking into a buffet of cocks wanting blowjobs from other guys. I had an infatuation for big cocks and had been curious about sucking a cock for months. After having connected with several men and got some fantastic blowjobs I did feel guilty, but it never stopped me from returning for more. When I first sucked a cock, I felt shame afterwards driving home to my wife. Asking myself "Am I gay now"? However, I did enjoy what I had just done and continued to seek out other sexually neglected married men for mutual oral sex. Two to four different men each week for many months. Several became regulars as I lost the feelings of shame and embraced the feeling of "pride" knowing I'd just provided him the oral satisfaction he was so desperately needing. The evolution into a cocksucker can be a struggle for a heterosexual man like I was, but I continued to crave cock and there were so many big, sexy cocks available in my area within a 15 minutes' drive. Many days I'd suck of 2-3 guys in the afternoon and return home to have "surprise" sex with my wife with the smell of cum still on my breath. I could smell it, but she never did.

 

My first time sucking a cock (besides tons of childhood sex with my best friend) was in a video arcade through a glory hole. My adult gay desires had already been alive for a while, and I jerked off to a lot of gay porn and fantasies, before my gay desires drove me out to look for the real thing. I'm telling you, being in that booth was booth the scariest and most exciting moment of my life, especially when that cock came through the hole and I made love to it with my eyes, before using my hands and then my mouth. OMG, I had another man's cock in my mouth, finally! I can't tell you how much I loved it.

Yes, there was a little bit of guilt afterwards, but by the next day my gay desires were stronger than ever. Finally, again, jerking off to gay porn and gay fantasies wasn't enough over the next week or two, and I went out again, first to more visits to the arcade, but eventually to bathhouses, back rooms in gay bars and nightclubs, back patios in gay bars, nude dancing with men, and eventually to gay sex clubs and gay orgies. There was no sign of any guilt past that first time, just a process realizing more and more of the gay side of myself and accepting it. And loving it!

 

My first bi experience was in my late 30's with a work colleague. I am now in my early 60's. I think it is fair to say that I have always had a bi side.

Without going into the detail of how it occurred it is fair to say after several hours of exploring each others bodies and then sleeping together I felt that I had awakened a desire that I had always wanted.
In saying that I did feel a little bit confused! Feeling another guys cock in my hand and then in my mouth as I sucked him to completion made me wonder if I was in fact gay. I also did have a lot of thoughts about what we had done together. Why did I like it so much? Why was it so erotic, more so than with any woman I had ever been with? I guess I was confused and my friend was as well when we discussed it at depth in the morning over coffee. I think the reality was that the experience had opened up something that had been "hidden" in both of us for years.
Needless to say the earth didn't come shattering down around me in the following days. In fact it went on exactly as it had before! Even after all these years we still meetup for some M-M time. It has never lost its appeal. I have also done mutual masturbation and cock sucking with other guys at the nudist beach which was great fun!

 

I fantasize about having a friend with benefits. Another horny professional athletic married man. I'm way over thoughts of being gay. I know that I am a straight man with gay/bi fantasies who would like to, maybe, have sex with another guy again. I'm good with this. Even when I was a teen and having gay sex I knew I liked girls for love and companionship. I just like getting off with my buddy, as did he

 

The first time I climaxed in a bi experience was really the first time I climaxed with another person, as a pre-teen with a friend. I knew I liked girls. I got boners looking at soft porn magazines, I liked to see girls underwear when their skirts flashed up in the playground, I stared at the older girls growing boobs, I masturbated to my dad's soft porn mags, but I also got hard when I saw another guys dick.
The first time I had sex with a guy was at a sleepover on a type of dare, the old 'you first, no you first, how bout same time'. We got into a 69 position after arguing over who would be on top. He was on top.
I reached up and held his dick, looked at it for a second. It was tiny and thin but I just reached up with my head and took it into my mouth. It was too small to hold and suck so I just had the whole thing in my mouth. He was rubbing my dick for a while and finally put his mouth on my dick and it felt good but he didn't got at it the way I did. He was more reserved and just putting his mouth over my dick, just the head. No tongue, nothing inspired. But that didn't slow me down. He eventually stopped and I finished him, swallowing his salty cum like it was just what was supposed to happen.
That was the first of many times I would blow my friend and I would always swallow his cum. Once when we were out riding our bikes out in a field he asked me to blow him under a tree in the shade. I was jacking myself off while I was sucking him and I started to cum when I felt him start to swell up to cum. I jacked off onto the ground and kept sucking him until he was done in my mouth. Even after cumming myself all I wanted to do was suck another load out of him. No remorse. I was with a friend who never made fun of me for enjoying to give him blowjobs.
In the days when I was able to meet multiple men every visit to an adult video arcade, now and then I'd meet a guy who would insist on sucking me because he would lose the nerve after cumming. Happens more often with a guy who has to drink up the courage to put a dick in his mouth. It's a real thing. Not my thing but true for some men. I can cum and still suck and fuck with a guy and just not get enough. I know what I like.

 

There were a LOT of things going through my mind once the experience was over. After many years of being bicurious I had become pretty good at compartmentalizing thoughts and waiting to decipher everything at a later time when immediate emotion was out of it. I was however, ready for him to leave so I could get the process started.
It was exciting. Scary. I think most of the guilt was because I’m married. I’ve not really cared about the whole “gay” thing for many years. I’m not. I don’t care how many people would say “if you like cock, you’re gay”.
my absolute biggest issue with any of my sexual encounter with a guy was I worried I could have caught something. He went down on me and me on him. No cum. But still freaked out all the time of the what if. It’s been about 6 years so I guess I’m in the clear. So yeah that was my biggest and mostly only issue. It’s something I always wanted to try and I personally think a spouse should get to (obviously more safely) do.

 

After the first time I felt extremely guilty. As a married man it was difficult reconciling my feelings to have gay sex and also have a wife I knew wouldn’t approve. I was in my 40’s and had the attraction and urge all my adult life. I had tried to ignore it and it was always there.
So I gave in, it was very exciting and felt so good. But I felt very guilty and swore I’d never do it again, it had to be a one time thing.
Having been blown by a man, now the desire to suck a guys cock was even stronger. So I gave into that. I loved it! I loved everything about it. Feeling it grow in my mouth, the texture, it was just like mine but so much better. Finally his cum shooting into my mouth and the clean salty taste. Again guilt, but how could I deny this? It felt so good. Many years later my wife’s sex drive diminished to nothing and after many discussions with her about it she told me she didn’t care how I satisfied my sexual desires she just didn’t want to know about it. So I have.

 

No guilt. Not one tiny bit. (Sorry, Catholic Church.)

Don't really recall an afterglow, either. Unless an orgasmic, cum-fueled, burning desire for more is an afterglow.

 

In the moment it was Euphoric bewilderment..I finally had a real one in my hand, it felt so warm and hard in my mouth..It felt so taboo, I felt so naughty..That inner voice was saying "Omg YES!! I can't believe I'm finally doing this, this is mind-blowing "
Then there was definitely shame and guilt afterwards which was natural..I had a gf and sought it secretly on cragslist without her knowing..After years of cock sucking curiosity I HAD to know what it felt like..A lot to process..I remember saying "I can't believe I just did that" in shock..Then he said "Yeah, but you're gonna do it again"
I didn't believe him but I quickly learned the truth..You will always find your way back to cock! Once I learned and accepted that, those feelings subsided and I compartmentalized it as just something I HAVE to do sometimes..When the urge for cock comes calling, it doesn't take no for an answer until it eventually becomes all I can think about..That's always when I must give in

 

Yep, you found out what damned near all of us found out: Once you suck a dick, you can't get enough of doing it and the urge to do it is very damned powerful and hard to ignore. You can tell yourself that it's not going to be something you're going to do "all of the time" but the very next chance you get to suck a dick, uh, guess what you're going to be doing? And enjoying the fuck out of it... and you will be doing it again.