Your Biggest Mind Fuck?

hmmm. i guess this is a mindfuck. when i was younger i was looking at some girls hair... and a strange thought out of no where came."why does there have to be hair? girls? people? why does there have to be exsistence? why do we have to be born? and how did everything come together like this, out of no where the world was created?" i started trying to imagine what nothingness would look like, what would the air between me and the wall look like if nothing was here except me and the air. it wouldn't be black or white because there would be nothing to illuminate or shade..i always think about that whenever i smoke, or am just bored now

 

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unanswered questions. every day i think of something that just can't be answered. but the one that fucks with me the most is why? and what if?

everything i think about i have a why? and what if? and the only questions i can answer is somebodys elses answer. but why did they come to that. and what if they're wrong?

what if there are no answers, just questions. what if we have to answer with our own perceptions. what if the every single individual saw the world in a completley different way. are we just agreeing to disagree?

 

For me death has messed with my mind on several occassions. Like for no reason at all I'll start thinking about death and things like that and sometimes I'd think I'm so close to figuring it out and I totally lose my train of thought. It's very weird and I think that's been a big part in my strange obsession with the morbid and macabre.

 

Nothing . Mind fucks are for people who can't free their minds, maan.

 

all of the above?

 

Church. I'm still recovering from the brainwashing...however I am proud to say I'm recovering from Jesus addiction very well and am 'saved from christ'

 

that's the devil in u talkin son. the power of christ compells u!!! *smacks u on the head with a heavy ass bible*

 

parents

 

You will probably never understand it and the best you can do is break the circle when you have kids and stay with them.



When I was 13 or 14 my dad picked me up by one leg – haled me upside down - kicked me in the groin then dropped me like I was nothing. The only thing that saved my mind from being totally fucked was thinking I would never do that to my kids. My two sons are grown now and we still laugh together.

 

Not necessarily true. My biggest mindfuck was teh 2nd time i did shrooms and my mind was so free that i suffered acute spiritual agoraphobia.

 

nothing screwes with my head no more. i used to be like all into the universe, but now i realize, that if i worry about it, i will still be the same as iff i didn't worry about it. now i just sit back and type on my computer all nite long. i don't worry anymore, music got rid of worry and panic.

 

I chose Marriage.
School applies too
as does church

the one I voted for though is the most recent wound, so I feel it more.

 

The biggest mindfuck for me: is the reaction of what will happend, if a someone from my familly suddenly shows up while I am as fucked as i can get on drugs.

 

Just life in general. I've been through abuse, depression, the death of a friend, my father leaving, and heroin addiction to name a few.

I hope I'm not sounding like I'm trying to martyr myself. These experiences though, along with a lot of use with psychoactives, have shaped the way i see the world and everything in it.

 

my parents have never led me astray, i am an atheist, i dont have a job, ive never actually been in that kind of a relationship, never done any drugs and im still alive, so i guess the government and school. i used to have some kind of faith in the government, but i stopped a few years ago. that was one of the first catalysts they led me turning into a hippie arty:

and then i figured out that a good bit of school is as bad as the government.

 

i salute you my friend! :hurray:

 

I voted for death. Im the last living one from my immediate family. And, the baby of the family. That'll fuck your mind.

 

1. The possibility of alternate planes of existance.
2. Drugs
3. Life in general

 

Mine was my ex base head boyfriend who tried to tell me that my mum wasn't really dead my nephew who lived with me was really my son and tell me i was the one fucked in the head???