@ Deranger: Way 2 go man. That's great news. Just keep pluggin along until that one day comes and you say..."I'm Free!!" I hope to be able to do that one day. Stay strong man!
Thanks for the support, and to add somthing , it just feels right this time, like you just know when you know . . There is real beutifull life outside of door closing opiate's, i was wrapped up for 7 years before i TRULY realized this. Not tryng to preach the 12 steps or anything .. but its true theres things out there you will ( Miss and never experiance ) because of carrying an opiate addiction. Im leaning towards my early of days of exploration, back to the " Psychdelics " that i truly love and appreciate, becaus of the insight gained and to learn more about myself and surroundings. I have loads of motivation now, and energy just comes from nowhere, even though im only sleeping between 4 - 6 hours a night ( for the last 2 weeks ) Sorry if ive hi jacked op .. just had to say it ..
during this year i developed a pretty bad opiate addiction. starting with oxycontin and opana mostly, then moving up to heroin. about 7 weeks ago i went to detox. ive been prescribed 10mg of suboxone a day. over the past couple weeks ive weened myself down and im finally off of it. it saddens me to hear about people taking this stuff for 8 months. if you choose to do this and it works for you go for it i guess. for me tho, i think i took it for twice as long as i should have. i went to visit an addictionologist this week and they wanter to put me on a year of maintenance suboxone. FUCK THAT. they told me that "suboxone heals your brain". what a load of crap. pill pushers, sheesh. 420247 im not dissing you man. it just pissed me off that doctors just make long term sub maintenance their a plan. even though it dosnt get you high so to say, it is an opiate. and taking it is not going to let your receptors regulate. i think suboxone should be used for a month at most to provide a relatively safe and painless detox, and end it at that. at almost 8$ for a 2mg pill, it was costing me 30$ a day for 8mg. and many suboxone users take 16-24mg sorry im ranting it just pisses me off that some addiction doctors prescribe long term suboxone indiscriminately. good luck with your WD buddy
I agree with most of what you say here, and yes my dr. wanted to keep me on it for 2yrs at least for maintenence and I probably would of if I kept my insurance b/c he told me there were no w/d. The whole reason I'm not taking them anymore is b/c my normal 75$ a mo. prescription went to roughly 700$ and that doesn't include the doc visit, ri-friggin-diculous, but it avg. out to be a lil under 1$ a mg for each 8mg sub. Kinda bs when my insurance pulled cuz it gave me no chance to taper down, actually surprised I haven't relapsed yet. btw nice sig man
i was in the same boat as you and pretty much lost everything and couldnt get anything anymore but some bud..... i smoked everyday i woke up cuz i hated having them opiate urges so i would just smoke and that would make me wanna eat and that helped alot too..... i smoked for about 2 weeks straight and then woke up and didnt have no more opiate urges so said screw it sold the rest of my kill and am now waiting for the THC to get out my system, i didnt even like smoking i just did it to eat and sleep and it worked good for me but thats also why it was easy for me to quit smoking cuz i didnt even really like it to begin with.....
This thread makes me lol. One time I was asked, "What kind of idiot will get the habit, kick it... and then start AGAIN?" I simply replied with the obvious answer, "An opiate addict, hurr durr." How many times have I gone on an out of control binge for days or weeks? A million. How many times have I had to kick the mad habit? Over 9000. Physical w/d's usually manifest in shakes, diarrhea, sleepless nights... nose running down to the ground. These symptoms are predominant the first four days. Following that is muscle aches and extreme irritability. I didn't even take a moment to talk about the mental w/d's. Those never go away. I still continue to use opiates, but with less zeal. My point is... if you can't handle the fire, stay outta the kitchen.
^ I have a cousin that goes to rehab, just to get straight, so she can come out and slam some more dirt and get off..
So true man I been clean since I posted this, went out tonight to pick up some green and dude mentions hydros well even though the hell I just put myself through here I was tryin to hook up on some hydro's lucky for me they were all gone, if I was told this everytime I asked I could quit no prob. On the bright side w/d systems are basically over, still sneezing like crazy not sure what thats about but other than that good. Still got horrible anxiety, tryin to hook up with a doctor cuz I just moved here so hopefully can get somethin goin.
Subs really don't have WD's, that is the beauty behind them. Especially considering you have already tapered yourself down, and you have never really gone long enough to feel extremely bad WD's, your WD from the subs is relatively painless compared to how it could be if you were still on pills or dope. It's already been 9 days also? You are fine.
anyone see the law and order on last. the psychiatrist/fbi dude took that guy off to some ibogaine treatment for his heroin addiction..
the mental part can last for months!!! Its different for each person. I'm on methedone. First time I missed a dose in 6 yrs was last weekend. only dosed 1 out of 4 days! I thought I was gonna die! Back to normal now. I know one guy who is slowly dosing off. He's on (listen to this) 3mg.'s and he can't get off that last 3. his legs start to twitch blablabla. Its vary indevidual. Hope all goes well for you. Insurance sucks!!!! I'm in a cash only clinic. But I'de rather pay them ,then the dealer dude.
