My name is Mark and I am in a very committed relationship. I found this forum searching for this exact subject so I may better understand my fantasies and thoughts that are in my mind. This may be a total waste of time sharing to you my inner thoughts but I have some free time this afternoon and my lady is going out for Happy Hour with friends from work today. I have always been attracted to mature women. Even as a young boy. I am 55 and she is 54. We are in very good shape. I kind of had a few Hotwife experiences in a previous relationship but today I will focus on Mabel. She is the most incredible woman. She was married to another man for 20 years. They had 2 sons. The younger boy was diagnosed with ADHD very young and then she realized her husband also showed signs of it. So she basically raised 3 boys. It was very tough for her for many years. She did what she had to do to get through life. A very strong intelligent woman. When the youngest boy turned 16 and the older boy was in college she made the decision to divorce her husband. The relationship was more of Mother/Son than Man and Woman in marriage. There sex life was literally non existent for many years. She dated after her divorce but didn’t find anyone special. Then I came along. Met her on Match. We went out and I thought she was a very nice lady. Things progressed nicely and I could see she had a guarded way about her. I am not full of myself but I treat ladies with respect, kind, clever, and not so bad looking. 6’1”and have a nice shape. We became very close over the next few months. She told me at one point that you don’t know what bad sex is until you have good sex. I guess she liked our special times together. She is an attractive lady. I love legs and especially in Tan Hosiery and High Heels. She would dress that way for me. I loved it. Sometimes when we went out for a drink she would dress that way for me. It was very exciting for me. And then I noticed other men watch her. She was always oblivious about it and I would comment to her about how this guy or that guy was watching you. She was shy about it, but also a bit excited. Eventually she told me about her marriage and some of the details leading to its demise. I think she was nervous to tell me but I told her that you are with me now and nothing you tell me would make me turn from you ! I was hoping for something wild. She told me she cheated on him in the last year of the marriage. She was pretty much done with him at that point. He was not a very supportive man and she basically handled everything in their lives. She lost a lot of respect for him. They hadn’t had sex in a long time and he never asked her about it. She works for a big corporation and traveled to China with other people from the company. One night when out with them a work friend and her had sex. She explained about how naughty it was but also very exciting. There are more details but you get the idea. I was excited hearing about it. Very excited. I remembered the men and boys that starred at her when we were out. I had my own fantasies. I make everything about her. I love her deeply. I always seek new and creative ways to please her if you know what I mean. She needed a man in her life. I dominate her a little in the bedroom and she likes my “ Let me drive the bus “ attitude when we play. I tell her to just enjoy the ride. She is my “ Porn Star “ to use A line I heard on a podcast. I fantasize about her with other men and or young men. I know our sex is great. Nothing wrong with that for sure, but I have a creative mind and I want her to feel all she can feel. I asked her to dress sexy 2 weeks ago because my truck needed gas and she just got dressed and off we went. Pulled up to the pumps, I gave her my debit card and told her the pin. She smiled and got out and filled up the truck with gas. I watched to see the men there watch her. It was very exciting and I took a few pictures. She got back in the truck and smiled and said it was exciting. Later that night we had a few drinks before playtime and I explained to her my feelings I had at the gas station. I wasn’t jealous of men looking at her. I told her that I know how much you love me and that she was “ My Person “. Our relationship is rock solid. She loves sex now. So I told her I can’t wait to go get gas again. I think I am opening up her mind in new ways. She has a bit of wild streak in her now. But she also acts shy sometimes and is still oblivious to men and boys looking at her. It is so cute. I asked her since she was drunk that night about cheating on the trip. I said it was exciting wasn’t it ? She said yes it was. She knows I want to dress her up. take her out, and show her off. I was playing with her legs and told her that I imagined some 18 year old boy touching you this way and that if I would have seen you dressed this way when I was 18 I would have went home and jerked off to the memory of you for at least a month. She seemed to take a lot of pride in that statement. Her husband never made her feel sexy or special or treated her the way I do. We are in the process of moving from one home to a different home here in the Bay Area.. After we move I want to take her out dressed sexy and show her off and have a celebration meal and drinks one night. Let her prance around and pump some gas for me and maybe a walk through the mall. I shared some of my sexual adventures form the past with her and she seemed just fine with them. I think she is like a Flower blooming. After listening to podcasts I see that this is not such a unique thing. I’m not ashamed of my thoughts. I told her we need to experience all we can experience while we are still young enough and we still look good. She agreed. I was thinking of having her listen to podcasts this weekend while we drive to the new home. She just texted me and typed “ Its been 4 days “. With a smiley face. Meaning is that it has been 4 days she we had sex. She loves her life now. I saw her eyes light up when I imagined another man touching her. She loves the way I adore her. I think Hotwife will happen but I will NOT push her.
