Why live? Why die? Why hurt? Why cry? losing what little faith i had in me

that made me laugh

 

I can't believe you can talk about that

 

You are a pretty sick individual and you should realize that what you are doing messes up peoples lives. Your aunt will never be the same you have tarnished her for life. Who knows she may never trust anyone again. You make me feel sick and you need more than help especially is you can tell people about what you've done

 

16 pages of people trying to wake you up & get u to see the reality of what youve done didnt help.. so what other course of action is there but to have you thrown in jail where you'll learn what its like to be raped repeatedly?

 

Phish is a band, and if you think life is so pointless please kill yourself. The world could be a good place if it wasn't for people like you so if suicide would be the only thing to stop you from hurting others I honestly think you should. Plus life is pointless as far as you are concerned so why not?

 

better yet lock yourself in a mental institute for the rest of your life..if u kill ypurself u might hurt someone who actualy caresabout you..i dont know why anyone would though unless your pretty damn good at hidding that side of yopurself....no suicide is too easy..you belong in jailwhere you'll learn what it feels like to be raped

 

Going On The Chance That You're Being Honest, My Only Advice To You Is To Get Some Help Right Away...What I've Read Here Is Just So Disturbing--I Feel For All That You've Hurt, And Hope That You Do The Right Thing Here...You Are A Threat To Society, And Are In Desperate Need Of Immediate, Serious Help...

 

hmmmm that whole asking "what is phish" thing.....

think about that people. really think. did it sound sarcastic? and if so....

 

well i thought sayimng to follw phish to a rapist & murderer was kinda sarcastic too... but what do i know..

 

no, i meant the person saying "what's phish?"

sinnabin or whatever his name is...

was he joking? i thought everyone has heard of phish... maybe not though.

 

I wish I had not heard of Phish, or at least heard them

 

I guess i could of looked online for phsich but i thought it was something smaller i've most likely heard them before but just didn't know their name

Like most ideas i am being hypocritically to my own idea becuse i am still going to leave a mark behind and want to and their is some one in particular who is going to suffer and i will do both in one move. I'm to weak to kill myself it can be very hard to do, i was thinking of letting myself die through the courts by death penalty but i relized how long that can take, my plan, roughly is to rape her and then force her to kill me. Or maybe i'll feel so bad about raping her after loving her so much so long ago that i'll off myself

Regarding my aunt she doen't know well at least doen't seem any differnt then before and are relationship hasn't changed but if she did know i bet our relations would be different

I'm still wondering what are other people's reason to live? but i guess any why question is hard to answer becuse you can ask why die? and my answer would be wishy-washy

 

how old is your aunt?

what is my reason to live? my reason to live is that i love life... yeah, it sucks sometimes but there are so many great things about it if you open your eyes and dont take things too seriously. also my husband, my friends, my family.... everyone that i love and the goals that i have for the future. i like life- why would i not want to live?

 

life is beautiful unlss your an evil prick consumed with hate who just wants to rape..get help

 

You are one of worst people i have ever had the pain of 'meeting' not only are you violent and cruel you try and analyze yourself from an intellectual level and fail miserabley. Your spelling and grammer are all over the place and even worse you hardly seem to take into account what others say to you.

Having said this to answer you question why live? because there is plenty of time to die it will happen eventually I might aswell ride this life out.

As for you I can think of plenty of good reasons to die but no good ones to go on the way you are.

How can your aunt not know you molested her?... honestly I dont care I have had enough of you. You are like a broken record I didn't like listning to, to begin with.

 

u say your aunt doesnt know? so you drugged her?
if you want to make this a true confession, why dont you pm me her name & phone number so i can hav alittle tal;k with her? may e you'll get your wish when someone shoves a knife between your ribs after raping yopu in jail

 

lol soaringeagle.... good idea.

 

I did it while she was sleeping it is not like i raped her I just fondle her a few times when she was sleeping

I'm not forceing you to listen You choose to read what i write and you choose to enter my threads.

what are the worst things you've done?

 

I think the creepiest thing about this dude is that he could be anywhere, anyone. He comes here, tells us what he does... but we can't DO anything, except hope and pray that it doesn't escalate further.

I just get this creepy feeling that in 10 years I'll be watching A&E biography and they'll be having a "serial killer" week... and guess who will be profiled? Shades of Dalmer.

I have no answer to the problem this creep brings with him. He's been told to get help many times, but doesn't. Either he is full of shit, or is a sadistic creep asshole soon-to-be serial killer/rapist. I'm hoping he is full of shit.

 

i have read all your posts and i am just wondering
do you need someone to hold your hand....

i mean you seem very unwilling to seek professional help on your own so....do you want me to hold your hand so you can check yourself into a hospital
from what i gather thru some of your posts is that you don't like what you are doing well if thats the case do you want to stop what you are doing before you hurt this girl or do you want to just unload all of your bad deeds on to this forum?
what are your reasons for telling a bunch of strangers about your sexual tendencies?

and to answer your question even tho it was not nessisarily directed at me...
i have had alot of bad things done to me and i have also done my share of bad things....
i do not want to blame my deeds on what has been done to me but i can not deny the apparent connection between the them
being molested has caused a sort of tear in my personality
i have some shady sexual problems...mostly i am just haunted with nightmares about what was done to me and sometimes about me being the one doing the same thing to others. i wake up from those dreams wanting to kill myself...thats how serious i feel about it
hmmm...well that wasn't the most detailed answer so i hope you understand

but really seriously ...if you need something that people here have not already given you in order to stop this...reach out tell somebody
you may contact me if you wish
and perhaps we could talk about this in more detail
just a suggestion