Why Do I Feel So Alone For?

not trying to be a big man.

its called REALITY.

a big man would be way worse, i know that, not trying to be that.

 

You a good person, don't get me wrong.


You are though, VERY SPOILED AND CAN'T HANDLE TRUTH.

cause i not giving you aint bullshit.

REALITY

 

No I'll get you wrong, you know nothing about me, don't want to know anything about me, but have an attitude towards me because you feel it's unfair that a little girl can have the life she has when you weren't granted that opportunity. That's reality. You need to take your own words of non wisdom and live your life by them.

 

I aint low, I'm fucking HIGH, IN THE SL

 

You got 0 reactionary skills

You come into hip chat talking about how you virgin.

NOPE

 

And how exactly am I spoiled? Because I go on vacation and buy things? From my own money. My money, nobody else's. How's that spoilt? Hmm?

 

Everything I say in HipChat is a rouse, like who's actually being serious in there? Lol. I say I'm a virgin to get a laugh out of some of the others. Meanwhile you come into HipChat with the same attitude you have here, trying to put others down because it makes you feel better about your own life.

 

You are lucky you can go on a vacation.

Fuck wake up.

 

I'm not going to stop being the person I am because you have a problem with it. You need to grow up. Acceptance.

 

I have family around me and I'm so very grateful for that. I love my kids and grandkids.

My parents and closest brother have passed away and that sucks.

I have my animal companions.

I have a husband who isn't a husband; he is like a brother.

I have all these around yet I'm lonely.

I'm lonely inside and I've been that way since my earliest memories.

I've had some times...a few short years here and there, where I felt like it was the cure to my aloneness; but, they didn't last. I got burned. I'm scarred. I'm still alone, inside.

"They" say that it is your animus that you are seeking - that other side of yourself that will fulfill you. I'm getting better at telling myself that and sometimes I believe it.

 

Watch out, Aeri. You don't want to end a spoiled princess like Irm. that's all first world nonsense.

You know what annoys me about my thread here? Is that the people I need to come and speak on it would rather post on a spastic sex thread instead of helping a friend and that really hurts.

But the ones that's have posted and feel like me and/or know what I'm going through from their personal experiences, well they've gained a lot of respect points and I adore and cherish your kind words and help.

 

I read this thread a few days ago, I didn't realise just how prevalent the "holiday blues" was. Even though I have zero family I don't feel so alone knowing that I am not the only one.

At this time of year I am very grateful for my job where I can actually be helpful to some people and get paid for the privilege.

 

Sometimes if you feel lonely, the best cure is to reach out to other people and help them. Maybe you could volunteer with a homeless shelter, or help with some activities going on in your town? Just get out there and make connections with people who are around you, people you have yet to discover.

I think loneliness is something everyone deals with. We all want to find someone who gets us and is there for us. And if you can't find that person it can help to become that person to someone else.

I try to cherish my solitude. It's a good time to reflect on yourself. I've cherished my solitude and solitary moments since I was young, or at least some of them. It can get overwhelming too. Sometimes all you can do is breathe and wait for a less lonely day.

 

Yes, very well said.

 

My job believe it or not, if you believe I in fact have one, is dealing with people all the time. New people every week or two. okay I don't help them with problems per say but I help them learn how to horse ride. hehe yeah not the same, but that's why I made the thread. Im not physically lonely at all I just feel it.

I do believe I have a heart of gold, I think I'm a really nice person. I may not show that side of me online too much but the way I am online I believe is just a way of expressing myself in a world where I've never been given that opportunity really? I don't talk much about my life in the early years, but I've had to have to grow thick skin. I've had a lot of enemies IRL. I just never talked about it.

And that's why I'm upset with certain comments here because I find them to be really untrue. I know they aren't right at all, but I also feel frustration that I can't make them listen. I try to tell them but they just won't listen see they be reading my words but it's the message they missing but it's cool, they can go and start their beef and start tossing and turning and losing all the sleep. That's not my burden really. ILL SAY IT AGAIN few might lol @ that. They'll get where I'm coming from.

Haters gone hate, I don't need them to like me I think that they're below me like the souls on my Nike.

 

^^^ You were good up until your last sentence... That's where you stooped to their level. No offence meant.

 

But it rhymed and that's what I was going for.

 

To be fair Irmisul, it can come off sounding a little spoilt

Especially to those struggling with three kids and the bills and havent been able to go on holidays for 10 years, or those that have genuinely been trying to get proper jobs for a long time and also unable to even have a cheap holiday 100kms away

Oh boo hoo, my parents just came over for their european holiday and I miss them, I get to fly between Germany and Australia how ever many times a year and boo hoo, after I leave I feel sad

LOL, I come off sounding like that myself sometimes, more so in real life, Im off overseas three times a year, complaining its been too many months since the last overseas trip....even though Australia being as friggin expensive as it is, include the airfare and you still spend less than staying at home.

Here, Maybe not the best site to complain about your holidays and expect sympathy

Although on the flip side, I see the couples with 3 kids, 2 car loans, mortgage for the house with 3 bathrooms, complaining they can never afford a holiday, and I'm like WTF?

 

Irmin.... honey... I have no fresh words of wisdom for you, angel. The older I get... the more I realize how much I don't know. Take this really big hug from the hobbit lady.

Remember that the internet is full of all sorts of people, typing all sorts of things... safe in the protection of their anonymity. It don't mean dick, darlin'.

I hate platitudes almost as much as I hate clichés BUT... Whatever it is you are feeling right now has something to teach you or you wouldn't be spending emotion on it... AND (duck... because here comes the tired pissy part of it..) THIS TOO SHALL PASS, lovie.

Find something to laugh about today. Big old belly laugh.

 

This thread was never about what Irmi has, or what Irmi does with what she has.

It's about feelings.

If you can't separate the two then you sound naive enough to believe that money can buy happiness.

You've got alot of learning to do.