Why Am I Miserable All The Time?

I will probably get into more detail later, but for right now, let's just say I'm not happy a good portion of the time. I have recently realized that I have schizoaffective bipolar. I have little to no friends, but it doesn't matter because I can talk to myself all day long. I feel like I live in a world full of billions of people, but I will never get to know any of them because of some condition I have. Sometimes, I feel like I cannot even discern reality from delusion and maybe my whole life is just one big psychotic delusion. I get really angry at times (symptom of mania) and things just send me into a manic rage.

 

Are you seeing a therapist?

 

Yes but there's only so much they can do. I don't like taking medication. It can cause damage to brain tissue.

 

I think you might not be so different from others as you think. I think there's a lot more mental illness being experienced than reported because most don't want to admit it. The truth is we are miserable creatures barely clinging to sanity. Even the most richest, most privileged upper class, most beloved celebrities... miserable as piss, bipolar, barely clinging to sanity... we are animals with fragile chemical minds. You just have the balls to admit it.

Just relax and try to ignore your crazy impulses. YOU control your body, not the crazy voices and thoughts. Put them in their place, it's a just battle in you mind for neurons. Remember you are the master, you are awesome.

 

And laugh, concentrate on the bright side of things, and enjoy life.

http://youtu.be/4YnslaUd4VY

 

Okay. Thanks for the positive spin on things.

I don't "hear voices," though, like a lot of schizophrenics.

What about this? If I'm at Wendy's and the girl on the Wendy's cup is facing me, I will feel like it's judging me. Lol.

I know it's just a cup. I do not think it's a real person. But what if it was? Same with people on billboards.

 

I'm miserable the 8th I am...miserable the 8th I am I am...I was married to the widow next door...she's been married 7 times before.....


sorry......hope a little humor will put a smile on your day......

 

Remind the Wendy's cup its a cup; and if it speaks back.

Run

 

You may be projecting your insecurities onto these images. Try turning it around, put her down, giver her shit, that ginger hillbilly slut...
possibly not the healthiest advice, idk.

Also try to work on your self esteem, volunteer or something. As much as I hate to say it, maybe join a Church. Religious people are fairly delusional, but they are delusions of grandeur and superiority. You could probably use some of that, it seems most people need some of that.

 

It may seem impossible, but at some point in this great big world of 6+ billion people, you will stumble upon your own pebble of truth - a glimmer of meaning. THAT is what makes this whole crazy universe worth it - finding meaning that means something to YOU.

 

I remember seeing this old motivation poster in maybe elementary/primary school I loved said
"To the world you may just be one person, but to one person you may mean the world"

Frog, I'm only diagnosed with bipolar, but I share a similar feeling (more so to the title of the thread)
I'd like to ask you to elaborate on what you mean by feeling miserable?
Physically, and emotionally, I constantly feel drained myself, some days it's not so bad, but you're not alone friend

 

If you have a brain dis-ease....you already have damage to your brain tissue.

 

Try some cod liver oil, get one that has vitamin D in it. vitamin d is a steroid also not a vitamin...

 

I feel you. I'm physically disabled, and was diagnosed with severe anxiety and agoraphobia. Something I learned is that psych meds and therapy just treat the symptom, instead of the root of the problem. If you have an open mind, I would look into things like Emotional Freedom Technique (Tapping), meditation, diaphragmatic breathing, and even the healing powers of crystals. These things have made a world of difference for me. A vegetarian or vegan diet, free from processed foods and caffeine will do wonders too. All of it takes time, so persistence is the key. I hope things work out for you. No one deserves to suffer.

 

I am not into taking a lot of meds. But...I see so many people who have a brain disease that makes them miserable unwilling to take medication. If ya had high blood pressure or were a diabetic...would you take meds? Your brain is an organ just like your kidneys, heart, etc.

Sometimes medications for brain disorders are only needed for a short amount of time, so therapy can help. Meds can take the edge off so you can see more clearly and not be irrational. Thinking a picture on a cup is judging you is not rational thinking. So...how can a therapist help you of you cannot think rationally?

 

But, you need to take the help of medication. There are quality medications available in the local as well as online pharmacy shop. Take advice from your doctor.

 

You are what you think. If you think you are that way, you will be. You must train your mind to be happy. Being happy is a lot more fun, and better for you. Meditate on being happy. Clear your mind of all thoughts, then repeat the mantra...Happy happy happy happy happy...for at least five minutes. It that doesn't work, do it again for another five minutes....Keep doing it till you get it done.

 

I am sorry you are facing these challenges within yourself. I feel that a lot of mental disease and brain imbalances are about nutritional needs not being met. In particular it is the trace minerals and long chain fatty acids that we may become deficient. Vitamin D is made by the body thru exposure to sun light on the skin. In many ways the way our bodies make vitamin D is like the Photosynthesis of plants.

I understand you not wanting to take drugs for your condition. I know of one food that has complete balanced trace element, and essential amino acids(the ones your body can't make) which is spiralina. I take it almost everyday. I have gone for periods of time when I did not take it and notice that I experience anxiety and depression.

Getting out in the sun helps with depression when your eyes see more light it helps the brain and when it the skin is exposed it makes vitamin D. Make sure when you are exposed that you wait for a shower or bath at least 15 minutes so your skin has time to start the process of making your own DNA brand of vitamin D. As little as 15 minutes of exposure is enough to be effective of course the more skin exposed the better.