This is all very unfortunate, but you may want to stop carrying this with you. Let it go. You will only be a victim if you choose to be a victim.
Is there any way you could learn how to do it part-time while you are still working? Also, there has to be a number you can call where your Government can tell you what is available to you. I'm not sure how it works in the UK but make sure you contact both your federal and provincial Government.
There are online courses that I could do - but they are approx £500. I don't have that kind of money. I could save up, I guess. However, a lot of them are not recognised - so it would purely be something I could use for some kind of self-employment [which is ok]. I was looking for something that gave a recognised certification. Here it's 'Government' and 'City Council'. I did look through my City councils further education website: "No courses matched your search criteria. Please click 'New Search' to try again." It was mostly 'I.T for beginers' etc. http://www.leics.gov.uk/golearn http://www.direct.gov.uk/en/Employment/Jobseekers/programmesandservices/DG_198864 I do plan on going to my local Jobcentre next week.
Maybe you do not have a G-spot that would not make you weird or anything focus on what works for you rather than what does not work.
my roommate is soo messy.. i swear.. i always gotta tell him to clean up after himself.. if i dont. the place stays messy.. cause i refuse to clean up after other people. how do i get him to be more clean..
What dope said. Maybe the principle of refusing to clean up for other people needs to be re-examined. On the other hand if this is an ongoing issue and he just doesnt want to clean... it may be time fore a move?
If you usually aren't lazy, I would say just kick back and enjoy being lazy for today. Nothin wrong with a little chillin'!
I have one small problem in life... I always feel sad and low. I dont know why, maybe its because I have no friends and no family who really gives a fuck abt me. Anyways I try to be happy and think positive things, but thinking positive always bring the negativity out. The only person I truly trusted was my only brother, but after he died I had nothing left. Sure I got step brothers but they dont give a fuck abt me. I havent seen my dad in a year or so, I dont care abt that, he married a woman who cant keep her mouth shut. My mother means well, I cant honestly say she dont care abt me BUT I do think she could do it different. I've been to like 9-11 schools in my life, never actually had time to make friends. I've always been the one who just sits by myself not talking to anyone, and they never cared enough to talk w me either. Sometimes I just wanna die, tried suicide twice but I realized theres no use killing myself, it'd be to tell 'I've given up'. I suppose I have given up on life. So much bad has happened I cant handle it on my own, my bf doesnt understand how much pain I feel everyday I dont even think he cares. I can put out like a summary of what have happened since I was born... When I was one I started a day care where we could do whatever creative we wanted. Had to switch when I was two for some unknown reason, and all of a sudden I wasnt allowed to do anything. When I was five my dad took me to a bar where I watched him gamble all our money away and I also saw him drunk for the first time. Also at age of five my brother got raped, and my parents (mostly my dad) sent him to a foster home, wich was really far away. When I was six/seven my parents got divorced and me and my mom had to move to another town far away from my dad. My dad got engaged to a woman when I was around seven/eight, she had 4 kids herself (got really crowded n no time w my dad), I liked her a little and my dad was still the usual dad. When I was 11 he got engaged to a devil bitch w 3 (wonderful) sons. When I was 12 I finnaly got to see my brother again for the first time. But, I wasnt allowed to hug him or anything at all. When I was 14 he died in a car accident.... and the same year my dad had a baby girl w that bitch... and a while later they got married. Last year I met a man who I thought could be my boyfriend. (I was 16 n he was 26) but he died earlier this year. then two months later I found a new bf (the one I have now) but it feels like he wont listen at all or care abt me either. then I found my true love online, but he lives way to far away. n it makes me really sad! And just about a week ago I almost got raped by a man. So I just have to ask... how do I do to not be depressed bcuz all of this that I just mentioned are going through my head 24/7 I dont have space left for school and such shit. I've tried talking w someone abt it but talking abt myself just makes everything worse. so if u have like any ideas plz help me, I dont feel like being depressed all the time.
Wow. I think first and foremost you could start by being proud of yourself for even making it through all of this adversity. Don't be too hard on yourself; with all that has happened, I wouldn't really expect you to feel any different from what you are feeling now. I would certainly advise talking to someone. Start with a counselor at school, or tell your mom how you are feeling and that you need help. The good news is it will get better - if you really want it to. You do not have control over everything that happens in your life, but you have control over one important and vital thing: your attitude. From what I've been reading today, if there was one piece of advice I could give you, it would be to stop painting everything black. You're not unlovable, you're not undesirable, you won't be depressed all your life, and you are precious. You're just a simple Swedish girl with a lot on her mind trying to make sense of it all. Just one example is when you said no one wants a girl like you... You have had 2 boyfriends, and you said that you found your true love and that he is far away. Clearly, there are already three people who want a girl like you... you are doing yourself a great disservice by lying to yourself and saying no one wants a girl like you. Regardless of your past, you still have the opportunity to move towards something positive - just make sure you set yourself up for something positive. Start thinking about what you want in life, work towards that, make some friends, go out, have fun! Picture the life you WANT to have, and go for it! It will take some work, but I promise, if you work for it, you WILL get it.