Where did it go? :(

Well, like I said earlier, I don't take drugs anymore, although some of my friends seem to think that my lack of artistic expression is due to my overindulgence at one point...

Thank you for responding though, this is the most thoughtful insight i've had in awhile, and from a stranger, ha.

Even after I supposedly recovered, I feel that I'm not, because my freedom of expression has seemed to have gone into hiding. I'm trying to reach a point where I am fully confident that I can reach a higher creative level without the thought in the back of my head that drugs could take me there easier...

I know of course no one can teach me how to think or create, it is inside myself, perhaps I just need to find the right medium to release it with, because words certainly aren't doing any justice.