It's been a good while for me. I like it when I do though it makes me feel so much better and more focused.
I think it was when I missed my plane last time I flew to Michigan.......I caught the next one, but missing it really broke me down.
I didnt mind it so much this time. Most my friends had moved on and the ones I miss the most I didnt get to see anyway. But I am old.
Last time I visited my friends in texas, when I was leaving everything was different, especially after all that had happened while I was there... Saying goodbye didn't so much make me sad, it was more the fact that everything was changing, and I knew that was the last time we'd all be there... Everyone just sort of dispersed.... What once was a rather large crowd had slimmed down to just a handful..
I am pretty sure I have cried many times since I returned from Michigan actually. Positive. So much has occured that I must have. SIgh...things are better now though.
I went on a huge drug binge for about 2 months straight and towards the end, I almost fucked up my life for a second time because of it and everything hitting me at once....I just started balling (and before that I hadn't cried since my first girlfriend broke up with me 7 years earlier) It was sobering. Besides a few beers I've been clean since.