When did the Mission change for you?

After being a pussy hound since 7th grade, I opened my my mind to different options, when sex with the wife ended. The most logical answer was to take advantage of a friends offer for a bj. My wife was part of this discussion and totally approved. It doesn't happen on a regular basis, but when it does, it prooves to be a Very Satisfying experience. Since my strapon fun time with my wife has dimished , I give myself great prostate orgasms and gladly jump on the opportunity for a good BJ from a friend.
,Like many older men, we know that many other guys are thinking the same thing but live our lives in frustation, while keeping up a good front. When the opportunity arises,so do my curiosities about other like guys that would gladly swap blowjobs or more without the hastles. With my friend away for the winter the mission has changed to finding someone trustworthy and like minded.
When did your primary mission change and how were you successful in achievig your goals.

 

Come on guys. If you are in a sexless marraige, you must have been into girls/women at one point. When did wrapping your lips around a cock taking it into your throat and swallowing a hot load of cum, enter your mind? Im old school and I believe that the internet was a big factor in considering Bi Options

 

I had a desire to suck a man’s cock since I was in my 30’s bet never acted on it for many years. When I was young I could self suck and did. It just didn’t seem to be a big stretch to suck another man’s cock when I had sucked my own many times. After a few experiences that I felt guilty for I finally gave into my bisexuality. Partly because sex with my wife was no longer an option and partly because after experiencing it I craved it.

 

I agree.

If it wasn't for the internet, I would have never had the courage to talk to a guy.

 

The internet changed my entire attitude about sex and made me realize that I was the odd man out.

 

At 50, sexless marriage, I found a bi guy on the net. There was nowhere to get our cocks out privately, so we found an old cock sucker on the net, and both visited him. He sucked us both off a lot. That was his whole sex life. I soon found myself sucking my friend and the old guy's little 2 incher, and in many 3 way suck-offs with them. When I went away on business , I had him come with me and stay in the unit I rented. He and I spent all evening at each other's cock. The wife knew I was doing it and was happy because the heat was off for her. The old guy died, and I found a gay guy with his own place. It was mutual suck and pull sessions until it went further and I was up him, which he just lived for. When he moved out of the area, I tried to find someone else. I didn't want anal. That was my boundary, but wasn't successful in finding anyone with their own place. With the wife being sicker, off and on, I dropped it all 12 plus years ago. I do miss cock sucking and would go back to that.

 

I've always been interested in having sex with other men. My first sexual encounter was at a relatively young age and was with my friend across the street. I got into my freshman year and had a serious girlfriend. That was when I became sexually active with women. I had various encounters with select men from high school until I was about 25. Divorcing my first wife was when I came to the realization that i'm bisexual and it was ok. Before that, i'd have some sort of sex with another man and feel ashamed about doing it.

 

After years of Stretching, for Martial Arts, I discovered that I could suck my own cock. I was able to get the head and a few inches in my mouth , without straining. It was more exciting than the moon landing. I had discovered a New World of pleasure. It wasn't until 35 yrs. later, before doing it to someone else.

 

Oh, hell yeah! I figured out that I could suck my own dick (and, yes, martial arts helped in this) and, yup, way better than the moon landing - but I'd already been sucking cock for a whole lot of years before I realized that, hmm, I think I can suck myself off! You wanna talk about something that feels both weird and familiar? Whew... what a rush...

 

Holy hell! If I could suck myself off…

 

If I could still do it, I wouldn't need to do it or have it done. I could give myself a true blowjob and get more than just the head into my mouth and... holy shit. You can't imagine what it's like trying to do it and you get closer and closer; you are able to make yourself cum but getting it into your mouth can be frustrating and very messy. Or that moment when your lips/tongue first touches the head of your dick; then the moment when you can close your mouth around it and lick yourself into busting a nut - and then really being able to give yourself a blowjob. Holy hell is right...

 

Before I forget, figuring this out didn't "change the mission" for me - it was just another fun thing I learned. I recognize that one of the things that I don't know about this is... being an adult and only then finding out about sex with men. To have resisted the urge for x-amount of time before finally giving into it or being in a situation where sex with men is the only viable option. I do know what guys in this situation have said about how this changes everything for them, but my life had already and long since gotten changed and the mission defined and established. Being able to suck myself off was a nice... side mission.

 

I was also quite young and with my best friend across the street, and the mission then was just having fun and feeling good, though in hindsight because it lasted for five years I think there was more in there. I also remember having a hot crush on this one naked guy and classmate in the locker room at swimming, but I only remembered that in recent years (so much repression and internalized homophobia). After lots of rejections by girls and not losing my virginity until 27, and that girl breaking up with me three years later and breaking my heart, I rediscovered the gay side of myself. I spent 20 years identifying as bi-confused, and sucking over 200 cocks anonymously. When I finally went anal crazy in 2013, and lost my gay virginity as a top, I finally accepted that I was bisexual, and felt so free, and loved it so much about myself. My mission finally became more and more intimacy with other guys one on one in each other's homes, and loving that.

What fuelled those 25 years of oral and anal sex with guys was constant rejection by women, 50 dating attempts with women without any sex, gay porn on the Internet and countless thousands of hours jerking off to fantasies about every kind of sex with a guy, and feeling more and more fulfilment with guys, at least sexually. But after breaking up with my second girlfriend just before Covid hit, and only the second woman I had sex with (except a prostitute once), and my needing to think about guys more and more in order to cum while we were having sex, I finally realized that the truth all along, since those very beginning days, was that I've always been mostly homosexual. With zero interest in having sex with a woman again (though I suppose I could in theory be seduced by one), all I want now is to have lots and lots of sex with guys, making love with them, breeding each other, and finding at least a close fuck buddy friend, if not a boyfriend. I've already had romantic feelings for two different guys in the last 18 months. Simply put, now my mission is to live my gay truth.

 

Ahhh! The memories of great experiences in our youth. Unfortunately, I couldn't do it for long, but I did it almost daily, until I couldn't. I told my wife and of course she wanted to watch me do it. I could remember like it was yesterday, looking into her eyes as I sucked away.